yourstruely21

~21~ ~In love with everything but myself~ ~Depression looks good on me~

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  • yourstruely21 135w

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    If you aint quick to the gun, then nigga you dead!
    -Benjamin Pagan-
    -06/17/19-

  • yourstruely21 135w

    The Feeling...

    -The feeling i get when i look at you makes me weak in my knees, and not the good kind.
    The kind of weak where my throat burns like i just chugged a bottle of vodka.

    -The feeling i get when i hear your name makes my stomach drop, and not the good kind.
    The kind of drop like if you just found out your best friend had died and it was all your fault.

    -The feeling i get when i think back on all those messages i read between you and every other girl makes my eyes burn, and not the good kind.
    The kind of burn as if you had just watch your entire house burn to the ground with everything you ever loved still inside.

    ©yourstruely20

  • yourstruely21 151w

    You Can't.

    No matter how hard you try to stop doing drugs, You Can't.
    No matter how hard you try to help someone stop doing drugs, You Can't.

    No matter how much you try to love yourself, You Can't.
    No matter how much you try and make someone love you, You Can't.

    You can't do something you don't want to do, and you sure as hell can't make someone else do something they don't want to do.
    ©yourstruely20

  • yourstruely21 155w

    Leaving.

    You ever meet someone and think...

    "Dam, its going to really hurt when they leave."

    Because you already know they are going to end up leaving, like everyone else has?
    ©yourstruely20

  • yourstruely21 155w

    Addict

    I don't want you. I want to stop. I want my old life back. I need help. I try to tell myself over and over and over. But I don't listen.

    I have this voice in the back of my mind yelling at me.

    It tells me: I need you, Just one more time, You will be fine, You can still have a normal life, Your son still loves you.

    Then I listen. I set up the line. I take a deep breath, and try not to think about how bad its going to hurt. Then I do it.

    The voice comes back. Its yelling even louder this time. I try and think through the tears and my head pounding.

    It tells me: Your stupid, Nobody loves a drug addict, Your son hates you, Your family hates your, You fucked up your whole life.

    This is a daily struggle. I am constantly fighting with myself. I NEED help. Before I fall even deeper into this addiction. I NEED help. For my baby boy.

    Please. Somebody. Help. Me.
    ©yourstruely20

  • yourstruely21 157w

    The Feeling...

    The feeling i get when i look at you makes me weak in my knees, and not the good kind.

    The kind of weak where my throat burns like i just chugged a bottle of vodka.

    The feeling i get when i hear your name makes my stomach drop, and not the good kind.

    The kind of drop like if you just found out your best friend had died and it was all your fault.

    The feeling i get when i think back on all those messages i read between you and every other girl makes my eyes burn, and not the good kind.

    The kind of burn as if you had just watch your entire house burn to the ground with everything you ever loved still inside.
    ©yourstruely20

  • yourstruely21 164w

    Untitled

    I fall in love with broken people so I'm distracted from trying to fix myself.
    ©yourstruely19

  • yourstruely21 164w

    HIM

    The pain my heart felt that night was unforgettable. The only thing I wanted was to be with him. Even after all the bull shit he put me through. Even after all the girls I found in his phone. Even after he told me that he didn't want to be with me. I just wanted him.
    ©yourstruely19

  • yourstruely21 172w

    Fuck You

    Fuck you.
    I wanted to scream until my throat burned with fire.
    Fuck you.
    I wanted to scream until my eyes were red and tears streamed down my face.
    Fuck you.
    I wanted to scream until my hands were shaking like a volcano just erupted.
    Fuck you.
    I wanted to scream until my voice finally gave out and I dropped to my knees.
    Fuck you.
    I wanted to scream, but instead I just turned around and walked away.

  • yourstruely21 174w

    Bad day

    I haven't had a bad day like this in a while. I thought I was getting better. But I just want to scream and breakdown and cry. I just want to be alone. I don't know what is wrong. I'm just giving up again.
    ©yourstruely19