Hey buddy, Remember me? I'm you from the past I exactly know what you're going though, but as people always tell you, 'Don't worry it won't last (for long). Remember when you used to only write for yourself, remember how stupid but happy they sounded,
Why are you doing this now, who are you writing for, who are you trying to convince that you're in pain, who are you trying to convince that you want this to end, who are you trying to convince that you're wounded?
If it's me, I already know that, I already know you're suffering, But if it's someone else, they haven't noticed it yet, and I reckon they won't even if you start crying.
You really should stop, you're trying to make friends with darkness, you're forcing yourself to love it, you're lying to yourself that you belong there. Even if you do adapt darkness, what about the monsters within the darkness or the monsters within you, would you be able to tain them, the pain, so massive, would you be able to bear?
Melatonin, the hormone of darkness, our body needs it to sleep but in excess it works otherwise giving us insomnia and nightmares, Same goes for our mind, if we keep it in the darkness forever, it can result into having stressful thoughts or us living our scariest nightmare.
I just want to thank you for keeping me alive, for keeping us alive, just hold on a little, I know how much you hate to hear this but you're strong and I believe in you. I know you won't let me down now, I'll see you again when the things start getting better, which is very soon.
You take care of us now.
___________________ Not exactly a letter for someone having a writer's block but a letter to someone who's not able to write something cheerful :)