violet12foureyes

I like to write... I wanna hv my own books somebody

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  • violet12foureyes 1w

    "I tell the future with my pen
    It glides and leaves in its wake
    Broken galaxies and stars dying
    I tell truths with lies
    Just kidding I'm lying"

    I tell my younger self

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  • violet12foureyes 3w

    Pain

    It's so easier to fall into that pit of despair
    When u thinking of climbing out
    It's just.. you can't
    It's easier to drown in this pool of pain cuz this pain is familiar it's been there always
    This hurt has been so familiar that I can still breath and live around it
    Anything other than this
    Is a change that I'm not ready for
    I'm scared all the time
    But this way ...the only thing I focus on is on the now...on the present
    And my mind does not stray too far to the dark uncertainty of the future that seems so bleak and non existent at the moment so I can focus
    On this pain
    It keeps me anchored here
    Cuz its better I feel this than nothing at all... so I choose the pain other than the numbness that beckons me

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  • violet12foureyes 3w

    More time
    That was all I wanted...


    Just a little more time

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  • violet12foureyes 3w

    I think I might have problems ����

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    Broken

    Broken people loving broken people
    World revolving around broken things
    Which one has more broken this than broken that
    In this broken damaged world of broken people with broken dreams

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  • violet12foureyes 3w

    Listening to NF ft. Mikayla~chasing ��������

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    You lose a piece of yourself everyday
    Sad thing is you don't care anymore.

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  • violet12foureyes 4w

    Finally said it

    "I love you" he said
    Tasting the truth of his words on his tongue
    Twisting wreathing bodies
    Souls intertwined
    Smooth..silk, skin to skin
    Heart to heart
    Breath hot over my breast
    I fall into him and he catches me
    And my whole world burst into flames
    It explodes into million pieces...tiny sensations
    Heartfelt moment
    I love him
    There I finally said it even if its between the pages of this book

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  • violet12foureyes 4w

    My failure her success

    I used to dance ballet
    I stopped when I was still a kid 10 I think
    I entered my first poetry competition when I was 15 or 16
    I lost
    I joined a potter class.. i wanted to make stuff with my hands I stopped because no one like the stuff I made
    I joined a beauty pageant
    And lost before it even begun
    I got disqualified because I was too old
    I wrote my first anthology got it published
    But it still didn't see the light of day
    No one wanted to buy it
    Except my family
    Didn't reach my target GPA last year
    I haven't written my exams yet and feel like I'm not gonna be a doctor
    That model auditions I auditioned for
    I feel I have lost before I have even begun
    And fear builds a home inside my gut
    It coils and nestles itself deep within

    I broke down a few days ago
    It finally seemed like I was going no where
    Just a headless chicken
    That's how I felt
    No sense of direction..so lost
    I always thought I could be anything
    Or maybe because I didn't know what I wanted to do
    I wanted to do everything and see where I fit in
    But I have failed so far in everything I have done and I didn't want to keep going
    A friend of mine set me down and said
    To you it might seem as if u have done anything
    But to me I look up to you
    You wrote a book got it published at ur age
    You joined a pageant.. it didn't go far but u learned something
    You met new people made new friends
    Wore a bomb ass dress and got your name out there
    If that's not the beginning of success I don't know what it is
    These are not failures just the beginning to something great


    So my failures they weren't what I thought they were.. so then what is success
    Simple its giving ur best to try and achieve a specific goal.. if u dnt reach it u didn't fail

    ©violet12foureyes

  • violet12foureyes 4w

    Sometimes I wish the sky would open up and swallow me whole
    For the earth to open up and take me from existence
    I wish for death but sometimes fear I'm too much of a coward to go through with it
    I'm only 20 ...And still dnt know what to do with my life
    Then I remember "only the great die young" fortunately or unfortunately I dnt know if that's a good thing or not
    ✨ ✨

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  • violet12foureyes 4w

    Happy tears

    I cried when he said I was beautiful
    Not because he said it
    No..
    But because when I looked into his eyes, he meant it
    He thinks I'm beautiful... and I think I believe it

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  • violet12foureyes 5w

    Pain

    Silently crying by myself whenever they leave the room

    ©violet12foureyes