Have you realised that we are drifting apart from each other.. We were nothing and from that nothing you became my everything From strangers to someone i know From someone i know to my friend These changes were really slow or it felt so.. But when it is about drifting apart why it is happening so fast ? We are becoming strangers day by day . And it feels like we were meant to stay strangers from the start...
Mind like an abandoned house Left alone for too long Broken windows and rusted locks The walls were dull and cracked.
Wandering along the corridors Wooden floor creaking with each steps Polaroids of golden memories Were scattered all around Covered in the dust of time They were longing for my touch. Anxiety bloomed like wild flowers, As i took the polaroid memories.
The thoughts were left alone To suffer in the cold and darkrooms Of my abandoned mind.....
@mirakee@writersnetwork@writersbay@u_star@lovesmessenger #emotions Was it always been like this?am I the one who never been able to see the reality right infront of my eyes? I am a good listener, i try my best to hear others problems even if i am not able to help them..just because it may help them feel relieved for a minute. But why there is not even a single person beside me when i want to open up my heart. There is no one in sight and there is not even a single one who comes to my mind when i want to let my self go.. To release those feelings and emotions.. To uncage them from the cage of my heart.. To let them free from my mind.. Even the tears are hesitating to come out I want to shout ...to shout that, i am tired of this, that i can't take it anymore... Do you really think that i am too strong to carry these burdens all along ,alone ... No I am not ! My problems may look like too small and silly to others..but the truth is that they are affecting me a lot ! The feeling of being not worthy of this life , the feeling of being alone,i have been bottling them up ,trying to burry them in the bottom of my heart so no one can see it Just hide it underneath that smile along with i am okay,don't worry... They are seeking their way out of the darkness And i try to stop them,fighting against myself every single day.... Yet ,at the last I am only one who get wounded The one who bleed... It is eating me up from inside ,and i don't know for how long i will be able to fight Here i am again hiding that bleeding wounds in my soul with a small smile ... "Don't worry ,I am okay....."
Just a black hole of thoughts that's what I am No one will truly understand what I am or who I am They only know the one they see. To the one who thinks he knows me and my existence You have misunderstood! You never knew me and i will never let you to do that As I want to be the only keeper of my secrets so I don't have to worry that there is someone who can cut my wings and chain me to the ground forever I will chose death over being chained as I don't believe in a life without freedom
Even the light is trapped within me , don't ever try to get inside my thoughts as I can assure you that you will never find your way back Just like everything else you will die an eternal death in the darkness within me
I never knew social distancing would turn me into this creepy kinda person. As you know offline classes are rolling and I spend most of my time traveling to and fro.. Which is tedious. But yesterday I saw someone who was a sight for my sore eyes. So this not a poem is dedicated to that cute stranger who was wearing a light blue T-shirt and dark blue jeans. Sigh.
I'll try something else for today's challenge. This piece is for my stranger.
If I were to disappear like darkness into the night If I were to disappear like a raindrop into an ocean If I were to disappear like a shooting star would anybody notice my pen being lonely
If I were to crumble to pieces like a dried leaf allowing myself to lay beneath your feet would you try to piece me back or let me lay in defeat
If I were to shine like every other star could you point to me with conviction or would I blend in without any uniqueness
These insecurities of mine are fleeting for I'll disappear into waters of the drowning letting myself sink into the depths of the night I'll disappear like a shooting star burning above the earth in a blaze of self destruction then maybe I'll finally be remembered fondly by you
Sometimes reality can be a nightmare we try to awake from.
The walls are crumbling all around me darkness continues to creep towards me how do I escape this moment when my heart feels like it's going into a deep slumber tears are summoned by dark entities while my hands are tired from gripping reality someone please help me defeat these feelings but no one comes to bring the light into this abyss
The floor starts to waver from my weight I'm falling deeper into insanity's paint covering myself with its colors of madness floating on a driftwood that my floor becomes as the room spins from my mind spiraling out of control somebody save me from this darkness surfing but no one comes to airlift me from this floor of depression
*Breathe* I can't keep looking up at this ceiling of loneliness for it drips upon me like a poisonous rain every inch of my skin is marked by it while darkness spreads through the sores made by it oh how can I escape this moment all the crumbling and drifting of my emotions please someone save me from this pit of despair then I hear a voice say breathe you're almost there I wake up from my nightmare with a sigh as I felt my heartbeat say breathe you're alive