I waited for you until the sky twinkling above faded into a gloomy night I waited until past the clock's midnight strike Until all the hope singed out of me Until the faith in me burned like a terminal ache at the back of my throat. I waited until my heart broke into a million pieces I waited until my Corazon weighed a pound heavier I waited till every second felt like an hour Till every breath of air felt like a labored struggle I waited until I couldn't anymore
A moment's struggle, a lifetime of pain Tears trickled down my face as I stood waiting in the rain Was he to come or I to run Away for believing that I was the one Did my feet turn blue or was it only his that turned cold? Never had I felt this lonely since my time in this world
If only had I stayed Would things have been different back then? Would you be drunk in love with me like you are all over her right now? Would you look at me like I was as an angel walking on billows of clouds Like you are worshiping her very ground? Would it all had been different, If had I not left you and held on to my crown? She took over my reign, pleased were the people who once looked at her with disdain A true betrayal, that's what it felt like When it was I who befriended her first Made the world treat her right. Now she wore my crown of hard-earned trust And stole the heart I longed for since the beginning of time Would it really have been different? Would the distraction caused by the macaw cause me to lose sight of the bluebird that fluttered right next to me all this time?
You were the glided light in her world full of darkness. In your presence, she was happy.
She is happy even in your absence but she's no more that happy little kid who used to smile from bottom of her heart.
Though she smiles 24/7 but no more from bottom of her heart.
She tried, she is hurt, she cried, she killed herself not physically but mentally.
She tired to forget you but unfortunately you become the one who's always on her mind.
She wished for you to come back, She wished for love her life to come back, Yes, it's you. You're the love of her life. Little did she knew, You're gone and you ain't coming back, That you're gone forever.
Wish I could write this story which is not about someone who's just a father, but her everything.
Never thought it'd be the last time she'd see him. So that thing hurts a lot, when you can't see another person again. That was the time when she saw her dad for one last time. Her dad was dying in front of her, she couldn't do nothing but watching him just like that while her mom was sitting beside him and sobbing while the doctor was checking him. She was still believing her instincts that he'd be alright soon. But deep down she's scared as well that what if her nightmare she had about a week ago, would become true. Though it wasn't really a nightmare but then she had a dream in which she saw her dad passed away. That wasn't the first time she had dream in which someone has passed. She had the same dream 10 days before when her grandma has passed in November 2012. But that was kinda different 'cause she had this kinda habit that most of the days she used to sleep after watching a horror movie and one day in her dream she saw a ghost taking her grandma with her and after sometime she found her dead. In real, her grandma had passed as well but due to some other reason though. But this time she just saw her dad lying dead and everyone surrounded around him. She just sat right there, just a few feet away to him. Though she wasn't crying then but she was broken in pieces which nobody could even see. She took the hardest fall, gashes and ecchymosis and all. Yet she remained strong and embraced her flaws. Yet she survived in this journey called life.
On that day she was not able to say a GOOD BYE. So god played tricky with her by making her day. She still remember her day when she was not able to even say a good bye.