Sometimes I feel lonely, so lonely and empty that nothing else in this world seems complete and like no one and nothing can take away that feeling. And those are the moments when a thought "Am I supposed to live like this for the rest of my life?" crosses my mind, not once or twice but a million times. I feel incomplete and like something is missing in me, I look around myself and try to find that piece of my soul which I've lost somewhere. I get restless and sad without any reason, I feel like I need someone but I don't want to talk to anyone, I want to stay alone but I'm afraid of loneliness. It's like I'm trapped somewhere and something is not letting me go. That's the time when even after having a beautiful family and some good friends, I see happiness standing far away from me. It's not like I'm all alone or I don't have people but still, I feel the loneliest sometimes. So I cry as I find myself helpless, but who cares as this world is full of selfish and emotionless people.
I've wounds my love, that you don't want to see; Oh! I stood with you lady when I had no one with me, I had no one with me. O.. oo.. oooo.. oo.o O.. oo.. oooo.. oo.o
"Yeah, I stood with you and told you the things that no one ever knew. New, was this feeling so I had it all, not knowing the fact that I was about to fall. Small, makes me feel the memories you left, I showed you my weak points and you broke me at your best. I gave you love, I gave you time, I gave you care, I gave you fame; now I understand it was a part of your game. Blames, fights and tears are the things I got for the acts I did, to keep you safe and for the wars I fought. But then, when I needed you you left me in pain and now I pray to God that I never see you again I never want to see you again. O.. oo.. oooo.. oo.o O.. oo.. oooo.. oo.o"
I've wounds my love, that you don't want to see; Oh! I stood with you lady when I had no one with me, I had no one with me.
Aayush was a middle class boy who was in the first year of graduation. There was a girl named Aparna in his batch, who was quite a good student. Both of them were working on a project together. Spending a lot of time, doing nonsensical craps; they enjoyed each other's company a lot. The highly enjoyable and strong bond soon turned into love and after some time they were a couple. Both of them were mature and handled the relationship very well.
As they were serious about their love and wanted to take it to the next level, they informed their parents about everything and theur parents seemed to have no issues at all. Everything was going well, they completed their graduation and Aparna got a job in a MNC while Aayush was still looking for it. Aparna stood strong with him in every failure, every struggle and gave her best to make Aayush a better person and helped him with his interviews. She used to make time for him even after her job and in between. She was the happiest person when he got a job and finally, both of them were settled.
It was very often for them to visit each other's house and to spend some quality time whenever they used to get holidays. Everything was good and everyone was happy until the day when someone gave a false information about Aparna to Aayush's mother. Aayush asked his parents to go to Aparna's house and talk about their marriage. Aayush's mother refused to do that and after a lot of drama she gave Aayush her swear to not argue on that issue. Aayush was helpless and couldn't say anything. On one hand it was his love and on other hand it was his mother, both of them were important for him and he couldn't afford losing any of them.
Time passed and Aayush went into depression, he was taking help of a consultant but his conditions were getting worse day by day. After some time, his parents decided to let this marriage happen and went to Aparna's place but everything was changed by that time. After all she did for him seemed useless and worthless, she felt deceived and was in deep pain. When Aayush's parents came to talk about marriage, Aparna refused to marry him saying, " When he was going through his tough time, struggling to get a job and couldn't spend a penny on me, I stood with him and supported him. When it came to marry me, he didn't stand for it and I can't marry such person."
Ayush hanged himself to death, Aparna couldn't bear this loss and ended up being in a mental asylum. Alas, one misunderstanding can change everything.
I am frequently asked, "Why does love hurt so much?" and the answer is, I don't know. But, I personally think that we have exaggerated love in a way where people can't think of anything less than what they've seen in movies, heard in songs or read in poems.
For me, love is simple. It's about being with the person with whom we're happy and most comfortable. It's a habit of being with someone or talking to someone, whose company we love the most. We feel safe there because we know that person won't judge us and will support us in any condition.
We're taught that love is a soul to soul connection, we connected that with moon, stars and roses became which became the symbol of love. Every good thing about it was mentioned very briefly. But no one ever told us about the things we must do when the our partners leave, and why do they leave?
They leave because they are not comfortable with us and how difficult is this to understand? They have all the rights to live their life in their own way, if they are not happy with us, we must be good enough to let them go and be happy. Sometimes, we give our best in our relationship but if the person is still uncomfortable then it's better for them to leave.
We should be brave enough to understand the fact that even after giving our one hundred percent, the other person may not feel that love because we're not the right one for them. Instead of understanding the situation, we keep crying about it and the situation gets worse. We behave like an immature kid, and we must not do that rather welcome our partner's decision as it's beneficial for both of us.
Sometimes, who we think is right for us, is probably not the right one for us. It happens, and we must celebrate the love as well as the separation. Because we've got a very less amount of time to live and if we'll waste that over such silly things then we won't be left with anything except sadness and regrets. ~Bhavesh
I was walking alone in the woods Nature like an enchanter it looks Fallen leaves like a streaked carpet As if I am in some other planet I am the sole stroller on the path Feeling as if trapped in myth Piercing silence, unfurl an eerie An instant feel of eyes bleary Some one is leading me to doom Arrhythmia started to zoom
The bright sky turned dark Hearing the dogs bark Foot steps following me While turning invisible he/she Someone tapped my shoulders The strange shock bewilders Aghast at his appearance Opened my eyes wide for clearance Got entangled his hands in my neck Trying to escape out to seek
I screamed out aloud ahhh! fear Remembering all the loved and dear An encounter with the ghost Going to become in his hands a toast A black wave he was like A supernatural looking unlike I ran as swiftly as an air An invisible power in the air Lucky I was to see a church I entered and the ghost lurch..
Was it born while Van Gogh was painting 'Starry Night Over The Rhone'? Was it born when Charles Bukowski decided to be brutally honest? Or it was when Sylvia plath submitted her thesis 'The Magic Mirror' after getting electroconvulsive therapy for fighting depression after months.
Was it in the pain and havoc that the moon created dejected by the idea of never meeting his unrequited lover Sea. Was it born right after that shooting star fall from the sky, maybe in love or tragedy. Or was poetry born when you decided to keep grief and sadness within yourself?
All of us have friends, many friends. We share every single detail of our life with some of them, who occupy a little more space than the others in our heart. They help us, guide us, understand us and also motivate us and we reciprocate as well. We call them our best friends. But I have a question for you today. How many of us have made the best of friends with our heart? How many of us spend sometime with that innocent one? It's the closest to us. How many of us try to understand that little one when it understands us the best? How many of us choose to talk with it who can guide and advice us the best rather than anyone else? Have we really understood ourselves? Have we even made friends with ourselves? Ever given it a thought? If not, then now's the time. Think about it. I think our very reason of life deserves that much atleast and much more.❤
I'm my bestfriend and of my soul too. Who else is?❤
P.S. - I've been really busy since morning today. I've missed many tags, comments and beautiful posts. Got too many notifications as soon as I switched my mobile data on. I'll reply to all the comments and tags soon. Please bear with me till then.❤