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seriously, I overthink.

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  • the_vague_philosopher7 79w

    I get that it gets tough and it looks like you don't have much options to do with, But there will be days when you'll feel much better, when you'll be able to make someone smile while smiling yourself, and you'll find out that you love people and people love you too.
    And then you'll see that you are going to be fine, sure there will be some bumps in the road but you're not alone in this, sure you were born alone and will die alone, but maybe what matters is not the beginning and the end maybe it's the middle, it's all the chaos and loud sounds you yell at eachother, maybe it's the journey and the people you go on a train ride with.
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  • the_vague_philosopher7 81w

    To feel nothing so as not to feel anything- what a waste! -Aciman

  • the_vague_philosopher7 81w

    I dare not hold myself,
    holding me brought up memories,
    fresh like a cut in my belly,
    thorns piercing my insides,
    it made me think of him holding me close,
    this flesh that belonged to him,
    belonged.
    I am a seed thrown away,
    he bit down pieces of me to quench his ravenous hunger,
    he chewed and slurped my watermelon flesh and juice,
    spat out the seeds he didn't like,
    torn apart I lie in severed pieces of skin, now I do not want to hold myself, because I am not myself,
    the flesh I touch when I touch,
    does not belong to me,
    it was his,
    I don't want me,
    the me without him was a me without the skies.

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  • the_vague_philosopher7 81w

    It's okay to be not okay.

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  • the_vague_philosopher7 82w

    Memory
    You lie in my mind
    Memory
    You fade away from my mind
    But when I look around
    I see you come to life
    Memory
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  • the_vague_philosopher7 82w

    In someways I paint myself with a bit of crimson and white
    I add lavender too.
    The moon an addition I felt obliged to add to my portrait
    Something I felt I needed cause I needed you
    But now that I've painted it in my night sky, glowing,
    I am happy it's there
    And that's why I'll split it with you,
    So that you can be happy too.


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  • the_vague_philosopher7 83w

    Have you ever considered taking drugs to be happy?

    Or ever overdosing on whatever pills you have remaining from your last hospital visit?

    Do you long for someone, something but each time it comes close to you, you end up running from it

    Do you long for the death of people in your death?

    I do too.


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  • the_vague_philosopher7 84w

    I am happy when I read.
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  • the_vague_philosopher7 84w

    Let's, okay, let me try to put it into words all the ways you suffocate me,
    The way you shut me out,
    The way you waltz back into my life each time you leave,
    You do not know the ways i have learned to breathe.
    I've learned to breathe in silence
    I Let it sit in my lungs for a minute
    And the silence spreads through my veins like a anticoagulant and my heart pumps it all over my broken body.
    My mind, a toy you so selflessly trampled on like a kid
    Holding on to a grudge, throwing a tantrum, you ripped my heart into pieces and then you were gone.
    I was left alone in silence, but no! There is a hurricane in my mind, a day goes by and come night fall i scream your name a thousand times in my mind,
    I sit by my window, wishing the warm sunlight will warm the frozen trail you left behind, nyet, i only think of you in that sunset, blue, red, and teal streaks in the sky
    Each sunrise and moonrise brings me you,
    I can't fill my silence with music, because every music is you.






    #pain #poetry #thoughts #loneliness #lonely #heartbreak

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    I sit by my window, wishing the warm sunlight will warm the frozen trail you left behind, nyet, i only think of you in that sunset, blue, red, and teal streaks in the sky
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  • the_vague_philosopher7 84w

    Free writing is an escape from all the toxic hurricanes blasting in our mind.

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