I am more than your definitions more than affixed labels placed on my anatomy more than your misconceptions or even valid perceptions I am more
I am more than what's written of me More than what the eye can see more than what the heart can feel more than what you think is real I am more
I am even more that the boundaries I set for myself more than the limitations I conceive more than what even I believe to be me I am more
emanating from my core are little particles of truth dressed in the light of poetry a mystery revealed a little of the universe ~~outer and inner~~ set free your reality reshaped from a different world view and cultural dimension religious hues shining through all part of who I am now part of you but then again it's true I am more than these...
I am a valid element of history soul written in rhyme truth confined to a time lines someone will read and be changed for an instant perhaps eternity
thus, I am I was and I will be part of the continuum of life of eternity I am more infinitely more than what you see
I guess Will was right when he said, "Don’t think about what you’ve lost. Think of how much you have to gain. Live, Stella." And I'm so happy that you did abide by it.
It's been months since I first saw you in the movie and since then, you and your little love story has occupied a tiny space in my heart. The way you masked your concern for Will under the sophisticated term "control issue", seemed kinda cute. Ofcourse, Poe knew everything from the start, he was your best friend. He had to know you better than you knew yourself and trust me, even my heart might have cried a little after he died.
Stella, you were so strong. Life threw so much at you but you stood firm. You missed your time with your friends, you lost your sister and you couldn't even be there for her, your parents had split up, you lost your best friend! God, anyone would have crumbled and given up but you stayed strong. But for the first time, someone made you weak. I wouldn't call it weak, it was more of an introspection. You stopped living for your treatments and started treating yourself to live.
The surprise birthday party for Will was one the cutest part of the movie. The way you laid out the balloon hints was very clever. But the best part undoubtedly, was when both of you went out to see the lights and confessed your love for each other. My heart was blooming when you lovebirds were about to kiss but sank when you didn't. I guess Will was right again, you couldn't.
You and Will made me realise that no matter what the circumstances are or how hard a person may guard himself from his emotions, he'll fall and when that happens, he'd break all the shackles to protect you, the same way Will did for you. Even from himself, when he left you.
It's just life, Stella. It'll be over before you know it. And if you know you're gonna die, you should actually live first.
From, Someone who understands the importance of touch.
(1) the silence it rings of premonition something extra or something no longer there a dreadful thought remembered and forgotten simultaneously a siren headed to an accident before it happens upon waking – (2)
the requisite morning respite a light piano song waltzing gracefully into the day coffee and such I might be ok - (3)
swaying, swaying head thrown back laughing like a mad man like a villain, indulging in contemplation of an evil plan losing track of the ground is fun not caring if it’s still there - (4)
the first hand lets go willingly - (5)
whoa the first shock invisible to the naked eye I feel my insides shift yep this is it I think - (6)
the floor simply uncertain now narcissistic volatile beneath my feet toying with me this is no longer fun - (7)
steady, steady self-talk wavering it comes in waves a rollercoaster familiar and vile <shock> <ShoCK> I brace the nausea begins I can handle this - (8)
techtonic plates smashing televisions flash on every station richter scale 1.0 2.0 5.0? I begin to quantify - (9)
persist persist breathing is living walking is moving if I only walk and breath - (10)
8:30 pm I am a success I kept my body above my feet all day I defeated fear and death my blood still trembling in my veins - (11)
my soul resting on the couch watching the horizon spin outside the window I don’t care I’m fine now even pleased the grin of victory - (12)
fuck you, day I’ll see you next time I hope you’re ready because I will be.
There is so much in this world I wish to forget. Things I wish I'd never done, never said, Words that should've never passed my lips, Flesh that should've never touched my hands. There is so much in my mind, That corrupts me. Someone, take me through these summer rains, And make it autumn. There, I will shed my tears, Drop my memories like dried leaves, Let the dust settle, and - Be free - at last...