the_alchemiist

When your intentions are pure, you don't loose anyone. They Loose You...!!

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  • the_alchemiist 3w

    Welcome back @dove_wings . ��️��
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    ��STARVING CONSTELLATIONS��
    (Take Your Soul To A Cosmic Journey)
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    Stare, my dear...!!
    Head tilted back,
    Eyes wide and bright,
    Pupil glitters reflective light,
    Nebulas matching thy iris,
    Moon telling stories to thy soul;
    Illumination recreation,
    Time passing through broken glass,
    Wonder on, wonder about all,
    Gravity gluing feet and hopes,
    Earth spins on with grace,
    Trace the lines for story lines,
    Learn from present to past,
    A red one right there,
    And a blue one not far,
    Burning to burn then out,
    Look back at third,
    Blades green and soft,
    To be here where I belong...!!

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    With her crumbled handkerchief,
    She wiped the stars falling from her red eyes,
    She bled her secrets to the galaxy thief,
    Till the arrhythmia was reduced to defeated sighs.

    Her violet joints matched the constellation,
    With a violent pulse flickering in and out of life,
    Her twilight breaths of condensation,
    Till the planets are asleep, the only thing awake is the night.

    When she's done orbiting around the fists,
    And thy is done burning her with it's meteors,
    She collects the hays of what is left,
    Praying that galaxies could have a shore...!!
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    @mirakee @writersnetwork @mirakeeworld @writersbay #pod #mirakee #mirakee_reposters #constellations #cosmos #stars
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    24/03/2021 (Wednesday)
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    STARVING CONSTELLATIONS

    She bled her secrets to the galaxy thief,
    Till the arrhythmia was reduced to defeated sighs.
    ©the_alchemiist

  • the_alchemiist 4w

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    IN SEARCH OF "ME"
    (A Verse On The Quest Of Own Identity)
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    For most of my life, I've been on a quest,
    To discover just who I might be.
    Earnestly searching, day after day;
    So desperate to recognize me.

    I've felt moments of utter fulfillment,
    And moments I couldn't go on.
    But I knew for the sake of my heart and my soul;
    To succeed, I would have to be strong.

    But the people around me seemed so lost
    in themselves,
    That I feared I might be on my own.
    But then there'd be someone who would reach out and help;
    And remind me I wasn't alone.

    I've wanted so much to be happy,
    To know what it was to feel peace.
    And I thought if I finally felt sure of myself;
    Then the pain and the struggles would cease.

    But I've learned that this journey is endless,
    The discoveries are fresh every day.
    And no matter how much I might know
    of myself;
    There'll be times I will still lose my way.

    And as I've grown older, I truly believe,
    I may never know all I can be.
    But the answers are not waiting out in
    the world;
    But have always laid right inside me.

    We're all on this quest to discover ourselves,
    Together but through our own ways.
    Overcoming whatever might get in our paths;
    So we can feel better someday.

    But always remember not to stray far
    From what matters and what's really true.
    In this life you don't have to be perfect;
    In the end, you just have to be you...!!
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    @mirakee @mirakeeworld @writersnetwork @writersbay #pod #quest #self #mirakee_reposters
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    13/03/2021 (Saturday)
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    IN SEARCH OF "ME"

    In this life you don't have to be perfect;
    In the end, you just have to be you...!!
    ©the_alchemiist

  • the_alchemiist 6w

    My pen either inks romanticism or seclusion. Do you agree with this...!?
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    EXPRESSING DESPAIR
    (The Ongoing Battles With My Demons)
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    I peek through blinds that are tightly drawn,
    Shocked by the glow of the breaking dawn.
    I shun the brilliance of another day,
    Enslaved and entombed, I stay hidden away.

    The night was long as I lay awake,
    Anxiety choking like a poisonous snake.
    My self-hatred grows like some malady,
    That I pray will soon be the death of me.

    Being hated and scorned is painful indeed,
    And that love can be torture, we all must concede.
    But to be ignored and forgotten can vanquish one's heart,
    Until it's in pieces, just shattered apart.

    To feel non-existent is so hard to abide,
    When you know that your heart is still beating inside.
    And how do you save your sinking soul,
    When you feel yourself plummeting into that hole?

    My dreams don't provide any rest or relief;
    They only replay my regrets and my grief.
    I honestly don't know how I came to this place,
    But it's clear to me now that there is no escape.

    You may call me weak and lowly at best.
    I'm trapped in self-pity, I must confess.
    I long for some quiet, just a moment of peace,
    But my negative voice refuses to cease.

    My greatest enemy resides within,
    But how can I battle myself and win?
    I find this a callous, duplicitous life,
    Not worth any effort to fight the good fight.

    Surviving..., instead of living each day,
    Sheltered inside sturdy walls I create.
    Fleeting moments when hope will linger so nigh,
    But those feelings of wretchedness still once again rise.

    Getting through every moment and each empty day,
    Feeling lost and panicked in this chaotic maze.
    Still not giving up and not giving in,
    With my greatest fear being that it won't ever end...!!
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    @mirakee @mirakeeworld @writersnetwork @writersbay #pod #mirakee_reposters #mirakee #seclusion #dark #demons #fear
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    02/03/2021 (Tuesday)
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    EXPRESSING DESPAIR

    Still not giving up and not giving in,
    With my greatest fear being that it won't ever end...!!
    ©the_alchemiist

  • the_alchemiist 7w

    .Tired of writing now. Should I quit with this one ?
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    CONDITIONAL LOVE
    (And The Condition For Love Is : )
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    I hurt you,
    And you hid that from me;
    Because you love me,
    And you didn't want to hurt me in return.

    I disappointed you,
    But you didn't give up on me;
    With all my imperfections,
    Because you are better than me.

    I upset you,
    But you only offered me smiles and tender words;
    Because you saw something in us,
    Worth fighting for.

    I made you cry,
    And you didn't tell me;
    Because you didn't want to upset me,
    With your pain.

    Darling! So now I'll love you conditionally,
    And the condition for love is:

    If i will ever make you cry again,
    I want you to cry in my arms;
    Because it's the only way i know how to love you,
    With everything you are...!!
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    P.s. :- The picture has no relation with my poem. Still I felt like using it. Maybe because of the conditions.
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    @mirakee @mirakeeworld @writersnetwork @writersbay #pod #mirakee_reposters #love #poem #condition
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    22/02/2021 (Monday)
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    CONDITIONAL LOVE

    Darling! So now I'll love you conditionally,
    And the condition for love is:
    ©the_alchemiist

  • the_alchemiist 8w

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    HIDING MY TEARS
    (Behind All The Smiles Are My Painful Tears)
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    My smile hides my tears.
    My laugh hides my screams.
    It's been this way for years.
    Things aren't as they seem.

    Nobody really knows me.
    They only know my cover.
    But I wish I could let it free.
    Let them know what's under.

    I am once sad and lonely,
    Having nobody to comfort me,
    So I started wearing a mask
    that always smiled,
    To hide my feelings behind a lie.

    Nobody can hear my cries at night,
    For I designed my mask to hide the lies.
    Nobody can see the pain I am feeling,
    For I designed my mask to be smiling.

    Behind all the smiles are the
    painful tears,
    Behind all the comfort are the fears.
    Everything you think you see,
    Isn't everything there is to me.

    Day by day; moment after moment
    I am slowly dying.
    I can't even go on,
    There is something missing.

    What is wrong? You need help?
    Is all they will ask.
    So I have decided
    To live behind a mask.

    // Until now I'm still searching,
    For the thing that'll stop my crying.
    For someone who'll erase my fears,
    For the person who'll wipe my tears.//

    But till then, I'll keep on smiling,
    Hiding behind this mask I'm wearing.
    Hoping one day I can smile,
    Till then, I'll be here...waiting...!!
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    @mirakeeworld @mirakee @mirakee_words @writersnetwork @writersbay #sad #lonely #tears #pain #heartache #poems
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    Inspired by my life and experience till-
    17/02/2021 (Wednesday)
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    HIDING MY TEARS

    // Until now I'm still searching,
    For the thing that'll stop my crying.
    For someone who'll erase my fears,
    For the person who'll wipe my tears.//
    ©the_alchemiist

  • the_alchemiist 8w

    ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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    ❤️PEACEFUL LOVE❤️
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    I think of you in the morning
    before the sun rises,
    when in the still of the darkness
    my heart feels your presence.
    Your love, your tenderness,
    your slow rhythmic breathing as you sleep,
    and I AM AT PEACE.

    I think of you when the first rays of sunlight
    spill like a waterfall between the blinds
    and settle in my eyes.
    I reach my hand, my foot, any body part will do,
    to touch you and breathe you in.
    It feeds my heart, my soul, my spirit,
    and I AM AT PEACE.

    I think of you at noon when the sun is at its highest,
    when the heat warms my skin
    and causes my eyes to close with sheer pleasure.
    Thoughts of you surround me, envelop me, overpower me.
    Images of you swirl around like a funnel cloud,
    sucking into its grasp all that it touches,
    and I AM AT PEACE.

    I think of you when the sun is setting
    and its final rays of light begin to fade.
    I can hear your voice, deep, soft, and slow in my head--
    words of beauty, joy, romance, and everlasting love.
    My heart begins to sing a love song so sweet and so gentle.
    I can't wait to share my day with you and yours with me.
    and I AM AT PEACE.

    I think of you when the sun has set and the stillness of the moon
    is displaying one of its many wondrous phases.
    Thoughts of your smile, your laugh, and your eyes
    create a feeling that is impossible to express with just words.
    The need to touch you, to feel you, to drink you in
    is almost too much to hold inside.
    Anticipation of you is the greatest gift.
    And......
    I AM AT PEACE...!!
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    @the_charismatic_soul�� @mirakee @mirakeeworld @writersnetwork @writersbay #pod #writersthought #mirakee_reposters
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    15/02/2021 (Monday)
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    PEACEFUL LOVE

    The need to touch you, to feel you, to drink you in
    is almost too much to hold inside...!!
    ©the_alchemiist

  • the_alchemiist 10w

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    MONSTERS OF MY HEAD
    (A Sad Song Of Teen Depression)
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    If I showed my true colors, what would
    society think?
    Would they laugh, show pity,
    or read the ink?
    I'm exhausted from smiling every
    single day;
    When I know the pain won't just go away.

    Every night I cannot sleep,
    Because my thoughts run so deep.
    They went out for a stroll;
    But got sucked into a black hole.

    My focus is no longer there, anywhere,
    I don't know why I'm like this, I swear.
    It seems like I'm just well-dressed;
    That just means how much I'm stressed.

    My friends all laugh and hang around,
    You don't need water to be drowned.
    This darkness beneath consumes
    my mind;
    It's like I'm living my life blind.

    On the outside I'm holding it together,
    But it's as unpredictable as the weather.
    "How are you?" "I'm fine."
    But the truth lies between the lines.

    It's like being on Mars and trying
    to breathe air,
    When they talk about the future,
    I don't really care.
    You say to suck it up and to be strong;
    But little do you know what exactly is wrong.

    My life is forever altered because of this,
    That cheerful 5 year old is who I miss.
    This is war; you either win or die trying;
    You speak the truth or continue lying.

    The changes were all so very subtle;
    I don't blame you for not seeing,
    But what you don't understand is that
    I'm a human being.
    The truth is you wouldn't last if this
    was in your brain;
    But I've found a way to numb the pain.

    I have to fight my mind every
    single second,
    But that's only because this thing
    had beckoned.
    I wouldn't ever choose to feel this way;
    these were the cards I was dealt;
    My only wish is that more people would
    understand how we felt.

    Sometimes a glimpse of wonder
    wanders on over,
    But it's as rare as finding a four
    leaf clover.
    Monsters don't live under our beds;
    They scream inside of our heads.

    Still I live with hope that one day I will win.
    I will defeat the monster that's under my skin...!!
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    @mirakee @writersnetwork @writersbay @mirakeeworld #pod #mirakee #mirakee_reposters #depression #teenage #anxiety #my_poetry #my_poems
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    03/02/2021 (Wednesday)
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    MONSTERS OF MY HEAD

    Still I live with hope that one day I will win.
    I will defeat the monster that's under my skin...!!
    ©the_alchemiist

  • the_alchemiist 11w

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    ❤️MY ONE, MY ONLY, MY EVERYTHING ❤️
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    For so long, I wished for the day.
    The day that our love would find its way.
    From my heart and into your soul,
    The feeling so strong, I had no control.

    When that day came, when I found you again,
    I vowed never to make the same mistake.
    I knew I would never let you go,
    For my life is now complete in a way I cannot show.

    For eternity I will spend making you believe,
    You are the sole reason that I breathe.
    My life is yours, my hopes and desires too.
    Until my dying day, my heart is reserved just for you.

    You are everything I could ever need and more,
    More than I deserve or would dare wish for.
    You are my baby, my angel, my dream girl.
    I'm thankful every day that you are my whole world.

    For the time I spend with you, my heart truly sings.
    My One, My Only, My Everything...!!
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    @mirakee @mirakeeworld @writersnetwork @writersbay #pod #mirakee_reposters #love #romance #life
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    29/01/2021 (Friday)
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    MY ONE, MY ONLY, MY EVERYTHING

    For the time I spend with you, my heart truly sings.
    My One, My Only, My Everything...!!
    ©the_alchemiist

  • the_alchemiist 12w

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    ❤️WHEN FIRST WE TOUCHED❤️. (A Romantic Rhyming On Love At First Sight)
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    When first we touched,
    My heart flew high,
    On gossamer wings through a cloudless sky.

    They said it was built upon a lie.
    They told me my feelings would surely fade.
    Passion would flare, and foes would be made.

    Can you not put the past behind?
    True love can change a river's course,
    Or pierce the strongest vault with ease.
    True love can turn coal into gold;
    Or tame the tempest to a balmy breeze.

    Quite some time has passed since then:
    People no longer criticize.
    For now they see that truth exists;
    Where once there might have been only lies.

    Still my feelings are the same today
    As they were on that very first,

    (Shakespearean Style Sonnet Continues)

    As I gaze into her liquid gold eyes,
    Poetry radiates from her warm soul;
    Her lips brush mine and I soar through the skies,
    Passion seizes me; I loose my control.

    An amalgam of thoughts pierce through my mind,
    There is love, trust, yet I feel petrified;
    I know destiny; our fate's intertwined,
    But what if she's a dream, one I'm denied?

    A thousand years I could spend with those suns,
    Amid her presence I've conquered all realms;
    I've witnessed beauty that forever stuns,
    And have basked beneath her forest of elms.

    Then and there, I grasp truth with clarity;
    She's in my arms; there's no obscurity!!

    For when we touch, my heart still flies,
    On gossamer wings through cloudless skies...!!
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    Hey My Mirakee,
    I'm so sorry for taking so long break. I missed you guys, my most favourite mirakee gems and their astounding and heart flirting creations. Seriously I missed them. I just hope to get to read them.
    Here I've tried upon Shakespearean Style Sonnet mixed with my own poem. I hope you guys will love and appreciate my effort. Suggestions are welcomed.
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    20/02/2021 (Wednesday)
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    WHEN FIRST WE TOUCHED

    Then and there, I grasp truth with clarity,
    She's in my arms; there's no obscurity...!!
    ©the_alchemiist

  • the_alchemiist 27w

    ���� ��'�� ��������; ����'�� ������ �������������� ���� ������...!!
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    Dear Mirakee Family...,
    Yesterday, sitting under the nightsky embedded with diamond like shimmering stars and my true love, my moon, I somehow completed this piece.
    But the truth is that, this poem is just a mere pretense to show my thankfulness, my heartiest gratitudes, my love and affinity which has no place to stand in front of love and affection you all showered upon me.
    The line which is continuously repeating in my heart is, "It's much more than I've ever imagined." All the love, care, affection and blessings are the reason why I'm here again. �� �������� ������ ������ �������� �������� ������������ is what I can say now.

    Dear @tranquilizingwind (wind) ,
    Oh my purest soul...!! Am I really so blessed to have an admirer like you...!? Are you for real...!? And...how can I Thankyou for all those letters and those words of love which are specially crafted to heal my body, heart and soul...!? Thankyou is soo small word to be said for that love, because if I'll say you Thanks, it definitely will be an insult of your love and affinity which I never want to.
    Besides I feel soo bad that we still don't know eachother very well and still you did all that. I'm really soo sorry for that. Let's get into knowing each other more through words and poems. It'll be interesting, isn't it...!?

    My dear @pakhi1738 dii,
    All I want to say you is you're never going to loose your #annoying_younger_brother , okay...!? I promise that I'll always be there for you, for reading you, for loving you and obviously for annoying you. When I came to know that you're were soo stressed about my surgery and also were asking for consultation of doctors, trust me, I felt like running to you that very moment and to tell you that I'm and I'll be fine didi, don't worry, I'll be back soon.
    The days and nights which I spent in OT and then on my bed resting, my mind was never empty with your thoughts and your words. Dii, your love and care are the reason why I'm here again.

    If I'll keep on tagging and writing, I'll never be able to post this stuff and I desperately want to make it soon. My feelings, my emotions and my love for you guys knows no boundary. I LOVE YOU all more than anything in this world.
    Besides, my surgery is done by now and I'm in bed rest for a week. After that I'll have my tests done and then results. (Fingers crossed) I hope everything will be fine with me.
    But the thing is that, I wasn't able to control myself from getting back to you all as soon as possible. My days weren't passing reading you, replying you and talking to you all. I know it's bad...but... this is what it is...!!

    Missed you all as hell....
    And....here it goes...an independent composition on nightsky...!! I hope you'll like it...!!
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    NIGHTSKY
    (My Metaphor Of Nightsky Is YOU...!!)
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    When hope is fleeting,
    stop for a moment and visualise.
    In a sky of silver, the crescent of a lavender moon.
    Imagine it -
    delicate, slim, precise,
    like a paper-thin slice from
    a cabochon jewel...!!
    It may not be useful,
    but it's beautiful.
    And sometimes, it's enough...!!
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    The night sky above......
    Unreached by doves
    a majestic sight
    of incomparable light
    twinkling dusts
    of shimmering galactic blasts.

    I wonder why
    That this precious night sky
    was so sadly underrated
    even noticed, but rarely appreciated.

    I wished you give a minute
    to take your eyes a treat
    and you'll see that same night sky
    I look at when all I've got is to cry.

    That is my eternal canvas
    where hopes and dreams and lies was
    scattered is nowhere of far distances;
    couldn't even remember the pieces.

    My metaphor of life,
    an infinite projection of blithe.
    So tonight, by chance, again
    I'll watch my nightsky then
    hoping you did too
    because my metaphor of night sky is YOU...!!
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    Dear Mirakee Gems...,
    The view of making this post is only to express my love and affinity for you all my dearest mirakee gems.
    Though it's not possible to tag here and express my words one by one, so I'll be doing that in my comment section. This post is entirely dedicated to my mirakee family just because I want to have conversation with you guys.
    So I request to please let me thank all of you and say my words of affinity to you all.

    Besides, I've got a lots of tags and mentions for which I was waiting for. I desperately wanna read them, but as I said I'm still in bed rest, so maybe I'll be late but I'll reply and comment for sure. Please don't mind the delay. I love you all, forever and always...!!

    @the_alchemiist
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    #mirakee #writersnetwork #writerstolli #mirakeeworld #mirakee_reposters #pod #nightsky #mypoems

    #lunatic_poems
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    06/10/2020 (Tuesday)
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    NIGHTSKY
    (In The Caption)


    If I'm back; it's all because of YOU...!!
    ©the_alchemiist