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poems are incomplete. a part of me i used to hide because i never wanted to face a situation where i no victim but a liberal liar. it's a place, we know we don't belong yet i choose to stay. i stay within unsaid.
whenever i run away, i like to continue this. the run. maybe i'm tired today. maybe i don't know if i ever will reach to the end but till then i've learned to move from person to person.
i'm tired, this tiredness seem to be like a void. every person i've met used to lodge their stench in this apartment. that day i saw you, two benches beside mine, i think you were trying hard to hide your sorrow. i think we were hiding our flaw like feeling/s.
"do you know its answer?"
"uhm, will you repeat?
i didn't hear it properly"
probably, it was true. i don't listen the things properly. maybe it was me who seemed to be more flawed. i was the one who always wanted to be listened but is it any crime to think like this?
you stood up as if you have always known its answer. i saw you picking up the chalk, lying on the floor which might have get unnoticed until or unless i met you
a screeching sound of chalk which you made by drawing a silence on the blackboard, i looked towards you and said
"it's annoying, a complete noise"
"perhaps, people are the same. perhaps, we are the same" you added, "you know, every person could be like this chalk. we make noise, isn't our voice supposed to be this? i guess, there's nothing wrong to have the desire of being heard. we are enough of complaining this, anyway"
you went back to your seat.
i followed you.
it was hilarious, how we didn't talk the whole semester but from nowhere we started talking that day. except your name and hair colour i knew nothing about you
but there was a lot i wanted to ask
to be honest, most of the time i used to have so much to say and you had enough patience to listen
i guess that what makes you and i so different from others. maybe we could have been friends earlier as well however by that it might have lost its touch
i looked towards you.
"H-heyy"
"you have drawn silence now?"
it was confusing. if silence could be painted, what colours will you choose?
will it be red, blue, black or white
i turned back, you were busy talking with your friends. i never thought of approaching you, then.
we excelled at this art of keeping our emotions in a cage.
i went back to my place while watching you from far,
continuing your silence.
©summersin
THE END .
summersin
i think i've lost this, long time back
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summersin 16w
*The goddess Hecate is one of the lesser-known goddesses of Greek pantheon. The only child of the Titans, Perses and Asteria. Hecate was the goddess of magic and witchcraft, and so much more. Her functions extended beyond the realms of the heavens, earth, the seas, and the underworld.
*There might not be any figure in Greek Mythology that is as misunderstood as Hecate. Her name has been connected to dark magic and disturbing rituals in the works of Shakespeare and well into modern times.
It's my first collaboration and I'm really thankful towards @morosingvice_ for doing this collab.
30-1-22-16-11-21Life - The detachment taken for granted
To the Hecate that ran away from life, at the end of elysian field. To the begetter caught between Scylla and Charybdis, the story, it's his silence. He had death. C'est bientôt fini. Misunderstood. Lies. Life. Her.
Her soul clinging to the eternity called stalemate. The girl was alive, with her bronchi mingling with the air of atmosphere. The girl can sense feelings, the factuals and flauntings of the illusionary forebodings. She was handed with responsibility, the right to slay the stereotypes with her quill of quignog. With the refillngs of ravagers, and the larceny of leviathans, she wrote the phrase of existence. Quoting the conspectus of animation and coupling it with locksteps, she marked period on the colloquy. She had been told to sin shamelessly, so she did the same. She had herself in contempt, with her character on line, her purity demanded renunciation. So with her broken pride, she seduced the satan. With the blessing of darkness, she indulged in jouissance with jeopardy. They had fallen for each other, they opted vividity over veracity. But what of life then ? What of later and goodbyes ? What of death? Where is the gore ?
Death gave her pardon to them both. The girl
has the charm of world, for which she will
happily slay her own siesta. The saints too
approved the blasphemy of spectre. Their life
overjoyed with the outcomes of odyssey. They lived for long, with their dreams fulfilled and love intact. They are the predecessors of eden, bringing over the era of saltation. They graced demons, they have studied the saints, their story was obviously forsaken. And when the masquerade came upon them, they cherished it with transparency. They left the matter and mass to oblivion, with their soul caressing the symphonic synchronity. Their goal, all achieved and abstracted. Their gods, grinning yet grateful. Their viability, ungranted evenly, yet unscathed still.
Being alive, a mercy of the uncharted idols or the curse of curious kinds maybe, you can curse Hecate, berate her will you, or would you like to humiliate diablo? Spat on the past, strike fear in the core of dreamers, have them submit their souls to stereotypes, have them on the stand of ethics. You can burn the will of truth to cinders, commit to the last rites of liberty, if you will. You can pray everyday, you can play god, so that no one else will have the luxury to be by themselves. But, what's next then ? You can't control this titan called time, you can't tame prophecy. The course is charted, life has been dispensed and love will prevail. People's dreams, they never end. Their life is not the boundation, they are everlasting with their lives, their ambitions. Was it good that they claimed life? Is it okay to cherish their legacy? Should life be granted to all? Is it a boon?
Who knows? Blood will tell. Life goes on.
So long.
We demand ourselves in sake of their existence? To the begetter, being alive isn't given. The Heart, it had tragedies. I believe and I believe Hecate sold the suicide so we could augur the time, their titan, his death. We Human. The Thrace stored the perception wherefore we human bring alive the being of daughter of death. About the conspectus, she did never thought of consequence. At the price of denuding, would you hate Hecate? The act of getting the right in hands, we disavow the beseeching of Asteria Heir. She kept herself in retch in order to survive the land. The land who misunderstood their heads in hands, you believe the devil? You believe their guidance? Wherefore we are. What we bring her into? Is it the sin that we delineate in three-thorough story? Was it her fault to make a dimension by our own flesh? The reason of being uncharted until the end of Earth. I wrote the story of aesthete the death, across the crossroad, the heathen had arrived. Of accusing Hecate in the end, the parched assumption we had taken for granted. The Thrace told the history, the tragedy of reasoning the existence had always sentenced life. Had given the tragedy. We spend sympathy like life then why we couldn't corrupt ourselves?
Today, we write. The language less than the lies of let it happen, of happening in torment. We write the throwaway sight, whichever we choose, We pay it. We. Pay. It. Today, we write to not on the behalf of birth but to believe the justice of jouissance. Of repercussion, Hecate assures. It torment the underworld, Heart of Hecate. Misunderstood? She had the life, too.
Hecate Is Here. C'est la vérité.
©morosingvice_ & ©summersin -
ᴛ-ʜɪꜱ ᴡᴇᴀᴛʜᴇʀ ᴡɪʟʟ ꜱᴛᴀʏ ꜰᴏʀ ʟᴏɴɢ
के साँझ इन दिनों ज़्यादा ठंडी है।इस शब्दहीन से दृश्य में अक्सर वो अलग आसमान से किसी को खोजता है क्योंकि फ़िलहाल उसे एहसास नहीं कि अल्फ़ाज़ विरह लीन नहीं मगर उसकी ध्वनि से अधिक है।शायद इन रंगों में किसी एक रात सा है वो।खैर कहने सुनने की बात नहीं ना उसे यकीन है आब ए आवाज़ में, हक़ीक़त ये है कि बहुत से शामें वो अपने नाम कर रखा है।उस कविता की सेहर वो संग रखता और सोचता कि कोई अलग आसमान है भी?
के कई साँझ अब नारंगी नहीं किन्तु कोहरे से जमे, काफ़ी कुछ कह रहे है।उसके गिरफ्त में यहीं कोई रंग मानो जैसे ज़िन्दगी से जुड़े घनेरी सुर्ख़ मान रहे हो।वो समतल किसी की पारिजात की शाख सा।उसका आसमा अब अद्वितीय था।यकीन ये है कि कभी वो वृक्ष झुकी हुई गंभीर घनेरी विराम सा, शायद उस अतिस्तब्ध अर्श में कई व्यक्तियों में कहीं वो अनजान आज भी तलाश में है, अलग आसमान के?
के साँझ अब किसी के कारण बेवजह दरिया नहीं लाँघता।वो जब लिखता तो सारे शब्द कोई समुद्री रेत से एक एक सिमटते है, ये उन हर समय से उत्त्पन्न शून्य-अनंत का मेल प्रतीत होता।उस कुल्हड़ की गरम चाय एवं इलायची शायद एहसास था कि ये शाम आज खत्म होने को है। वो ये मानता कि आसमान अभी अलग है, मगर उसके भी कई कारण होंगे?
~सुमन, १६/०१/२०२२
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Thursday, 6:15PM
In my words I write to explain, with my diary i try to talk
in my words I write myself, even if I'm genuinely so lost
in reality i seek to be understood, but in reality i keep my quiet
in reality i fail to understand myself, so i just write
and when you considerme a kind-hearted guy?
I doubt it because, i, myself, write for some very selfish reasons
©whateverrrr -
Days, distance and love
It has been days. Many days. As they change from weeks to months and to years someday. I'll still lose my sleeps to a dream i see everytime before these nights sit on my eyelids. I think I'll still dream of an orange evening. Of a not-so-hot day. Of soft zephyrs. And us. I believe there will be lots and lots of people, couples perhaps. And no one to be afraid of or to be judged by. I guess the evening would be silent. It would be the eyes talking, breaths interweaving. Won't we have a reality like this someday? Or this will always be a dream. I've seen people break from this cycle of heartbreaks way earlier than its mutual. I guess that's one way to give a stop to all those good memories and never let those dirty fights to happen. Rotten apple spoils the good ones so sometimes we often just go apart earlier than the things may become a disaster. But that's now how it would be for us, will it? I want us to try and maybe just die fighting to these days, distances and sometimes this love itself cause it often hurts. I dream of lot many things. If dreaming is a minute part of missing then i miss you every single day. And if missing is a minute part of loving someone then that someone is you, and all i know is that I'll love you every single day
©whateverrrr -
Saturday, 6:11PM
I remember everything but then i stay quiet
often sometimes, poetry fails to deliver what's inside so I prefer not to write
this sombre weather and the sofa near the corridor
does no justice to this beautiful scenery today
so i take a step ahead
i see so many things, blue sky and the grey lining slowly merging
lush green trees standing elegantly
while the one without leaves makes a good silhouette
i think of capturing these moments
there's no good photography in me
i am a poet, i lie,
So i think of an excuse of how no camera matches the eyes we have
the silver lining being so clear, sun lost amidst the clouds and people passing by
can it also capture the feeling of this day?
I feel so many things, a force pushing me ahead and a string pulling me back
chaos in my head,
calming silence outside and
heart that rests on my chest
it all seems so dark now,
so i think of an excuse yet again
and keeping the phone aside
just so that i can feel and bury it in me
i stop
and i stay quiet
©whateverrrr -
Ostentation #23
[Episode 23]
"Did you file a missing report?" His wife asked worriedly.
"I will, tomorrow." He responded.
"Did you ask her friends? Or look in the libraries or cafés where she usually-"
"Zylith, stop thinking about it so much. I'll find her."
"How are you so sure?! She could be kidnapped or-"
"For god's sake, listen to me for once! She isn't kidnapped, she'll be fine!"
"Oh, then tell me! Tell me how you know she will be fine?"
He glared at her intently. "I don't want you to go looking after her." He said in a commanding tone.
//'I 'm giving u a letter, read it later nd alone. Dont tell dad or mom. Dont get emotional nd do smthng stupid.'//
The thought came floating to her. She faltered a bit and replied, "Fine."
"Good night." She added, and walked to her room. She locked the door, changed and switched off her bedroom lights. Once in her bed, she took out Caitlyn's letter and switched on her phone's flashlight.
'It has something to do with this letter.'
©daunting_phoenix -
Ostentation #22
[Episode 22]
//"Why? Want to back away after tasting the real thing?"//
'He definitely said that and most probably to my dad. Yeah, it must be dad since he said sorry after I stopped screaming. So dad knew about this whole kidnapping thing but couldn't do anything about it.'
//"I told them how much power we could gain by using failures like you."//
'He must have told them his motives. I believe some teachers would have agreed to help him due to their greediness but the ones who didn't- he must've threatened them. And some real, strong threat at that.'
//"I plan on becoming unbeatable. Also, I have to take back something which belongs to me."//
'He is a power hungry maniac. So he must've had some assets that got taken and he got stripped of all his power. And now he wants those assets back so he's using us to gain power.'
With a creak, she opened the bottle of water and gulped half of it in one go. She wiped her mouth and sighed.
'He is more likely a or was a mafia. But why this school? Because it's so favored that all scandals would be covered?'
She scratched her head and muttered, "Ugh! I don't get it."
©daunting_phoenix -
Ostentaion #21
[Episode 21]
She clenched her jaw at the statement and took a deep breath. 'Don't cry.' She told herself firmly.
"Oh, of course you will be similar. You're his daughter. My bad." He apologized, smiling. "About your question, you will know soon enough."
She clicked her tongue, knowing she wasn't going to get any coherent answer from him.
"What will you do with that power?" She questioned nonetheless, softer this time. Her throat was hurting and she wished to wake up in her bed knowing this was all a dream.
"That's a first. Nobody ever asked me that. I plan on becoming unbeatable. Also, I have to take back something which belongs to me."
"And what use will we have in your…quest?"
"Plenty of use. You all are going to do the major work." He said, glancing at his watch. "It's enough for today. Eat the food." He stated and turned, his expression dropping to an unbothered one.
"Elias." Caitlyn called out as he was about to shut the door.
"What?"
"I will get out of here. No matter what."
"Well, good luck on that." He smirked, and closed the door, locking it.
She looked at the table and contemplated whether to eat the food or not. After an internal skirmish, she decided to eat it, because she couldn't think otherwise.
She got up, slowly walking towards the table. Once near, she pulled the chair and sat on it.
'Don't worry, it's not poison.' Read the note stuck on the covered plate of food. She shrugged and removed the covering to greet some cold, yet toasted bread, a small carton of milk, a bar of chocolate and a small bottle of water.
She started eating the bread, thinking about everything that had happened since afternoon and tried to make sense of everything.
©daunting_phoenix -
Ostentation #20
[Episode 20]
She turned over her side, drained from all the crying and screaming she had done earlier. Someone knocked at the door again and she let out a frustrated sigh.
For the past fifteen minutes she has been ignoring the persistent knocks of someone. She tried covering her ears and sleeping but the floor was too hard and cold. Hunger was making her mind a puddle of strangled thoughts and the knocks were her last strand.
"What do you want?!" She snapped, sitting up.
No one responded. Instead, the door clicked open and a man stepped in. She recognized him and a burst of anger inside made her scoff.
"You need to knock to come in?" She rhetorically asked.
"Well, I brought you food. Thought you might be hungry." He said, placing a plate on the table opposite to her.
"Get out, you piece of trash."
"Ouch. Why so snappy?"
"What did you do to everyone?" She asked in a tone laced with anger.
"Everyone?"
"The teachers."
"Ah, them." He pleasantly exclaimed. "I am glad you asked. Well you see, I showed them the bright side."
Too tired to snap at him, she just listened to his blabber.
He paused for a while for her to make a comment. When the sarcastic interruption didn't come, he continued, "I told them how much power we could gain by using failures like you."
"Power?"
"You and Cameron are so similar!"
©daunting_phoenix -
Ostentation #19
[Episode 19]
Her thought was left unanswered as he walked out. She trailed after him up to the front door of the house and was taking off her shoes when he said, "Pay more attention to your studies."
"Yeah, okay." She replied right before her mother opened the door.
"Welcome back." She smiled. Zylith smiled back and entered after her dad. Her mother shut the door and asked, "Caitlyn isn't with you?"
"Hm? I thought she had come back home." Zylith replied.
"She hasn't yet. I thought she was with you."
"She had some work at school so I figured she would come straight home after it…or maybe with dad." She said, thinking where her sister could've gone. "Should I-"
"About that…" Her dad started. "Caitlyn has gone missing since afternoon."
"What?!"
©daunting_phoenix -
Ostentation #18
[Episode 18]
"U-uh.." She stuttered out, surprised. She had least expected him to ask something like that.
"You know, don't you?"
"Well yeah..I overheard some classmates talking about it." She explained, looking at the elevator door. Never had she ever felt the ride home to be so long as today and she wanted nothing more than to get off and lock herself in her room.
"I see." He said, absentmindedly. Their home was a floor away then when he added, "Where were you all afternoon?"
"The library." She lied, promptly. Even though she wanted to tell the truth, it had become a habit of hers to lie like that. She never said where she actually went to anyone and gave credit to her dad for making her acquire that habit.
She always snuck out to the park when she was young and often got scolded by her dad for it. Then, she started lying about her whereabouts to not get scolded and from then on, it became a habit.
"Okay. Did you really hear about the principal from your classmates?" He asked as the elevator door opened after a ding.
"Uh, yeah." She replied, perplexed. He had never asked the same question twice.
'Why now?'
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Ostentation #16
[Episode 16]
"Can you just stop taking out your anger on me?!" Zylith whisper-shouted at Amy who had a sullen expression etched across her face.
Zylith had gone to the café Amy claimed to be her favorite. There, she had found her, sitting in a secluded corner, away from the people.
She had ordered a cup of coffee and then made way to Amy, sitting in front of her with an expression of 'explain yourself'.
Amy did just that but with snarky comments which made Zylith irritated and soon enough, they were having a heated argument.
"I am not taking out my anger on you." Amy stated.
"Stop it with your denial already, Amy." Zylith was trying hard not to raise her voice and draw attention to their table.
"Okay. Then what took you so long back there?" Amy asked as a waiter came to their table. He placed a bill on top and took the cups away.
"Caitlyn gave me something and I got busy reading that." Zylith replied, knowing Amy wouldn't budge until she said the truth.
"Now, care to explain what happened to you?" She added, crossing her arms.
"Well, after you went, Jenny came up to me saying she was leaving first with Violet. Then I got angry and the game didn't help-"
"You know, this is not the first time Jenny did that, right?"
"I know. But I wanted it to be just us three today then Violet showed up and before I knew it, Jenny ditched us."
Zylith clicked her tongue. "You are not the only one dealing with problems here, Amy."
"What?"
"I had some stuff that needed to be cleared up but thanks to you I have lost the will to do so."
"You can still do it if you want, don't mind me."
"You're saying that after ditching me like that in the arcade? Do you know how embarrassed I felt?"
"That was nothing to be embarrassed about!"
"Oh, yeah? I am sick of your jealousy from Violet and Jenny's friendship. So next time, don't come to me to vent about that."
"Such a great friend you are, Zylith." Amy remarked, scoffing at her.
"I know."
"Fine then. If you-"
"Just get lost. I don't wanna talk anymore." Zylith said, almost slamming down the money for her coffee. "Thanks for nothing." She added and left, leaving a frustrated Amy behind.
©daunting_phoenix
