Always knew it wasn't meant to be We were a ship that was meant to sink But those moments together made me want more Your dulcet smile kept me ashore, I was your moon, you admired the view But there were million other stars shining for you My shine wasn't strong enough It couldn't get you to give me your love, Should've known that even without my light Your galaxy of stars would light up your night. The darkness of this truth swallowed me whole My shine got lost in your bustling world Should've known to guard myself from the dark Save myself from this arduous task (of) Loving you was a game played to lose Between hurt and lonesomeness, I was made to choose One of the many roses in your garden Should've known I wasn't the one you wanted.
The yellow of your t-shirt, The blue of your jeans, The pink of my cheeks, It was as cheesy as it seems. The 12 of our age, The 22 other people around , But all I saw was you, All I heard was your sound. The lameness of your joke, The awkward silence in the room, You shyly ruffled your hair, Your embarrassed smile followed soon. My heart skipped a beat at the sight, Your thoughts in my mind all night. An old joke we'd heard already, But you saying it my heartbeat unsteady, Maybe it was when your eyes met mine, That the butterflies came alive, Or it was your smile, Or your crescent eyes, Everything about you just felt right, Knew then, I was in for a fight, Heart versus brain, My first crush, My first love, I chose to love you then, Given the chance to go back, I would do the same again, And again.
Loving you was all four seasons Loving you needed no reasons A summer night party where we met You smirked when I said yes to a date Spring in my heart when you held my hand And twirled me around as we danced to the band Kissed me in the cool breeze of the fall I was shy, you stood confident and tall But winter kicked in a little too soon Hoped against it but we were destined to doom The cold of the weather must've frozen your heart Because you left me broken, played the villain's part The hurt was astronomic, the tears wouldn't stop Told myself it'll be alright if I thought so enough Time played its part and helped me heal After months of numbness, I could finally feel Coldness still seeped through the crack you made But i didn't heal my heart with hatred I healed it with happiness based on me, not you It's spring outside, and finally, in my heart too.
This is a love poem, A forbidden letter from me to you, Scrambled letter woven together, With threads of my adoration for you, Hidden in the depths of the ocean, Is my pearl of admiration for you, Stashed in the heights of the mountains, Is my glacier of fondness for you, Disguised in the grey of the stormy sky, Is the red of my love for you, That'll rain on your bad days Help sunshine make way to you, A secret you will never know, But for me, it'll always be you, So, this is a love poem A forbidden letter from me to you.
Today I bottled up all my pain And spewed it out on a paper the ignited words blazed and flared Like a striking fire within
Tears rolled down my eyes Smeared onto some letters Ink faded and blurred Like some added salt To heal my wounds
The paper crumbled Just like the enraptured Soul inside me Broken and shattered My words turned into dust and debris
The moment of silence Squeezed out through My steady pulses Uncommisterating tranquility Murmured some twisted harmony In my skin A kind of silence that doesn't fill, Doesn't scream Just like A discorded rhythm Filled with no assertions
Funny how I pretend I'm not breaking when Piece by piece of my Happiness leaves A trail of chilled sadness In places, I don't want Anyone to know about.
Funny how I pretend I'm not longing for someone When I sleep on the side Of the bed where I won't See the shadows of the past And I leave the lights open To exorcise the ghosts of those Who left without saying A lukewarm goodbye.
Funny how I pretend I'm not weeping on random nights I am alone in the company Of bottled memories And a suitcase of regrets.
Funny how I pretend I'm not grieving over dead feelings And wilted flowers I've pressed ever so gently In between the lonely pages Of my vintage diary That once upon a time Bed of roses to vows Of endless affection Whispered by sweet lips Glazed with ample deceit.
Funny how I pretend, I'm not faking my smiles and I'm not hurting anymore. Funny how I pretend I am not weeping on random nights I am alone in the company Of bottled memories And a suitcase of regrets.