As we were moving towards the hospital with the bad reports in our hands, we knew that he will need immediate admission into emergency ward. I was still and couldn't wrap my head around the situation. Me and my father being doctors had an idea about the situation and it's seriousness. My mother sitting next to me couldn't speak a word. I was holding up hardly but then I just broke. Tears falling down but my mother she was composed, anxious but composed. I have heard my father's instructions carefully but couldn't get a word. I was feeling nothing but cold inside. "You will take the decisions from now." "You will sign the papers, not your mother." "If a situation comes where I cannot take the treatment and my body gives up, you need to take me home back, no need to continue the treatment. I would rather die at home than in the hospital." I have linked my accounts and you are my attorney now." My father told and instructed about every possible situation that we would land in.
I was nodding my head on his instructions, giving all my concentration to his words, expressionless and stone cold but the tears were rolling down. I have lived hell in last few days. Waiting for the silver lining in our darkest times. @atharvasingh@nandita_shaw
They say I have equal reach and equal opportunity but "itna dur akele padhogi, bhai sath jata toh theek tha akele nhi bhejenge". They say boy or girls we don't think them any less but "2 ladkiyan hai.. ek ladka hojaye islye 3rd time conceive krne ka try kar rhe hai". They say we treat them equal but "ladkiyan ghar ki izzat hoti hai hai.. ladke bahar rahe koi dikkat nhi par ache ghar ki ladkiyan night shift m kaam nhi krti"
Ohhh the never ending hypocrisy of Indian society.
// my problem vanishes when i sleep over, i guess my pillow is the best advisor.//
सारी उम्र मैं तुमसे चुपचाप लिपटा रहता हूँ। दर्द मुझे भी होता है , मैं भी फट जाता हूँ। बिखर जाते है छाती से पंख मेरे, तुम्हरे सारे सपनों को पंख देता हूँ। टूट कर मेरे बदन के रेशे तुम्हें आराम देता हूँ, सारी उम्र चुपचाप मैं तुम्हारे साथ रहता हूँ।