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  • scribbles_of_chaos 146w

    you should know your diary milk chocolates never mattered but all those times i wanted you to make me feel like i have you was what mattered to me.. and you didn't..

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  • scribbles_of_chaos 160w

    The day you stared at me and stopped crying making everybody around speechless was the day I knew you and me are gonna be so good together... The way you would not sleep and lay awake despite all the efforts of your mom until I returned from office only made me believe in you stronger..
    You were all I needed to feel I had strong arms to hold me if ever I'd feel like falling..
    You grew up to be so thoughtful.. I am proud now too but just a bit afraid..
    I can't help it dear..
    As you told me staring at me teary eyed last night.. I am mediocre.. I know I am mediocre..
    I never have given you "yes"(s) without starting at a "no"..
    I am mediocre.. I know..
    I never celebrated life.. I never showed you all I should have shown you maybe..
    But I only wanted the best for you..
    I knew you'd grow up bold.. but maybe it hurts seeing you grow up..
    But you should know I love you.. P.S. Wish you'd talk.

    Just take care
    ...that mediocre guy you call dad. .

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  • scribbles_of_chaos 161w

    I don't exactly remember when it all really began.. I had always been out of place wherever I was since I remember.. But these days my being out of place seems so out of place that I really don't know where I am anymore..
    I wake up in the same room everyday and fall asleep the same way every night.. I close my eyes but my eyes don't give me the darkness I crave for anymore... I don't know where I am..
    Last day I heard my mom talking to my sister about how much she loved me..but could never let me know.. I was not surprised! Afterall mom and I never really looked at each other anymore..
    I don't know why I heard them sob and my sister teary eyed saying my mom that i know her and that i have always know them all.. WTF..was I dead already? ���� I never really cared about the melodramas went around in my home about how I did not care..how I lived in my room..
    Later as that day faded away into another sulking night I heard my dad arrive and I went to open the door.. I saw mom had already opened it.. I went outside and sat there.. I did not understand why they were all ignoring my existence...
    Yeah yeah I had egos they had egos..we all ignored each other now and then..but don't they even care to look me in the eye?
    Ah.. I got bored I went to my room and I slept��
    The next day I was excited as I could go back to class after some stupid days of happy holidays..ugh not that class excited me much but I could use a change in the air which I sulked maybe.. On the way in my bicycle I saw my mom n sister stopping by and getting on a cab and I couldn't help but wonder where they were off to.. Then I was like "ah..whatever" and I trodded off on my way anyway..
    As I trodded off I couldnt believe what I saw!!
    I saw me!? Me?? Wait? What? I saw me with my mom and sister on that same stupid cab..
    What was happening to me???
    I saw me?? Was that me? Then who am I??
    That me on that cab looked seriously doped..like a zombie..
    Man.. I was not a damn ghost?! If I was a ghost then what the hell was I doing on my bicycle?!
    Everything I was thinking annoyed me..
    I was so about burst in frustration when my stupid sister woke me up.
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    I saw me!? Me?? Wait? What? I saw me with my mom and sister on that same stupid cab..
    What was happening to me???

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  • scribbles_of_chaos 163w

    Will you be afraid if someday all you hear is you telling yourself - "I wanna run away from all of this!" Like you are so damn tired of everything and you wanna give up.. But the simple thought of this scares you... Scares you for you don't know how everybody you love and everybody who loves you are gonna take it.. Like whatever you'd do would hurt them real bad..
    And you end up staring ahead.. not knowing what you should do.. and simply lay there in your bed overthinking things and hurting..

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  • scribbles_of_chaos 163w

    you'd never miss me until I let you..
    I don't want to let you either..
    But someday one day you'd know how I had been hurt..
    But then you'd have lost the time to show me...
    I don't want you to show me to know..but still heart's like it would love to know you finding ways to let me know..how you love me..how afraid you are to miss me..
    But i know..you won't know until it's, as you'll say then, "too late now"
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    you'd never miss me until I let you..
    I don't want to let you either..
    But someday one day you'd know how I had been hurt..
    But then you'd have lost the time to show me...
    I don't want you to show me to know..but still heart's like it would love to know you finding ways to let me know..how you love me..how afraid you are to miss me..
    But i know..you won't know until it's, as you'll say then, "too late now"
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  • scribbles_of_chaos 163w

    Until then you should know it is me whom you are destroying...

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    the day when I'd say I am done.. believe me so much of you'd be destroyed.


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  • scribbles_of_chaos 164w

    Maybe I am smitten real hard...
    Wait a sec..
    Cut that silly maybe out..
    You already know I'm crazy smitten��

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    to smile staring at you so many days away from now is all I really want to think about doing you know..

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  • scribbles_of_chaos 164w

    A wallflower..
    Lost..insane..
    Sorry:)

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    You can't always be the wall to a wallflower... Guilty that I am one clingy wallflower.. :')

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  • scribbles_of_chaos 165w

    Maybe that won't be the book that you'd be holding but that phone (which we'd be buying after all we'd dreamed turns true..)..
    Maybe it's not a story that you'd be reading but just destressing a stressful day with some adrenaline rush kinda pubg stress!
    Maybe that would be a book we love reading at bed time..or maybe my journal that I keep close to our bed..
    Maybe you'd just turn off the light and lay there falling asleep slowly..
    Anyway..despite all the maybe(s) I'd go on blabbering about.. I know for sure that.. right there.. right then..eyes closed or eyes open..lights on or lights out..hot or cold..smiling or in tears..or no matter how ever we would be..deep inside we would be HAPPY:)
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    HAPPY:)

    Maybe that would be a book we love reading at bed time..or maybe my journal that I keep close to our bed..
    Maybe you'd just turn off the light and lay there falling asleep slowly..
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  • scribbles_of_chaos 165w

    The girl was never good at expressing emotions.. well.. to be true.. the girl never really felt emotions much when she really had them within her somewhere bubbling to burst out.. She kept it all locked away somehow without even knowing that she did.. Never felt like laughing out and smiling hard no matter how good she ought to feel with all the "things" around her (which happened rarely though)..
    But these days her eyes have a wet glaze and it shines as if a tear drop's always there to reflect all her fragility.. But that doesn't mean she is sad all the time now.. She's just turned emotional and a weird kind of emo is what she has become!
    Its true how something dorment waiting for just a thud to breakthrough and explode in its cocoon turns out to be a volcanic eruption kinda scene! Maybe that's kinda what happened..
    All she needed was a thud.. a thud she could trust in and feel free about..
    And this guy turned out to be the perfect thud she could ever get..
    With him she saw her emotions at its peak.. may it be happiness turning out crazy more like silly..or sorrow ending up in a storm of tears..
    Anger burned in her always but with him her anger gave way to her simply staring into his eyes..sensing he is there to hold her and her simply shattering all her inhibitions in front of him..
    Crying was something she dreaded.. she was ashamed of every drop of tear that she'd let others see..
    But somehow..him seeing her eyes fill up and drop gave her a strange sense of complete comfort that she could sense nowhere else ever..
    And he knew she was not a crybaby..and he knew how she needed him..how he had turned out to be everything for her..
    And she knew that he knew everything...
    And that was all she could wish for..to stay along..as long as she had to stay.. that was all she needed to live despite every insecurity within her screamed..
    He is and he'll be forever her home��
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    Its true how something dorment waiting for just a thud to breakthrough and explode in its cocoon turns out to be a volcanic eruption kinda scene! Maybe that's kinda what happened..
    All she needed was a thud.. a thud she could trust in and feel free about..
    And this guy turned out to be the perfect thud she could ever get..
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