Obstinate cobwebs droops by the grungy ceilings whimpering in a monotonous tempo Been relinquished to collapse. Sky overcasted with frosty gloom and pristine milk on the stove inside the outmoded kitchen brimming with muted negligence, as the insatiable landlord chose to flee away like a migratory bird vamoosing to a faraway forest to perch on top of Unceasing opulence, detaching away from his paralyzed wife and two daughters. Autumn undresses it's coral leaves to abscission with a vow of resurrection. And the iota of mid September's pixie dusts spritzes katsura's saccharine fragrance into the atmosphere.
Meadows abstained from autumn's tender touch as Zephyr of winters arrival appeared with its lips adorned with some crisp tranquility teetering with musk veiling over its eyes. Katsura's ephermeral light caramel aroma evanesced into the ambience. And a putrid scent welcomes him inside the house that was once a home. Derelict roofs pulverized to fragments , spiders with its kins have ventured out to find a better place. Stoves and chimneys drained out of tepid tears, numb family photographs dangling loosely on the feeble walls. And amidst the ruins, lay the putrescent bodies of his ménage dilapidated to pulp. Time scatters before his dreary eyes cramming with tears after grieving for the umpteen hour. And his lips curves into a wistful smile rhyming with his eyes overflowing tears of guilt.
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"The Other Side of Me"
They tell me I don't even try to be happy Little do they know I'm trying to find me They said I'm probably fixed on my fantasy They don't know how I struggle on my reality.
Walking on the streets with eyes looking dead Trying to shut every thought inside my head Am I walking on earth or is this the famous hell I've been ambling here like I have my soul to sell.
For years I've been dancing with the darkness I'm the spinner bait to all the helpless Dragging them with me in this wilderness Toxic traits I've gathered, I've become heartless.
I let them believe on what they want to believe I show them my demons like it's how I live Yes, don't get close to me if you'll just leave I'm so tired of the pain of being deceived.
Stop expecting me to change overnight My demons aren't scared of that bright light They're stronger and full of spite Step back or they might bite.
This is me, your so-called good friend You don't even know this scent that could offend Guess befriending strangers became a trend Fine with me, get to know me, try to apprehend.
Come closer, step on these thorns and fires I made Climb these walls of mud and fog, arrows and blade I've buried myself here from being saudade This is my inner world, welcome to my arcade.
When you see me, tell me who you are I might block you and run far I'm done letting someone in my heart I'm done letting someone see my scars.
Am I the person whom they try to portray? I was judged, abused, betrayed and played So, I lived while keeping myself at bay I'm not their predator but their prey.
Can you blame me if I don't try to prove myself anymore? I tried explaining but they don't listen so I no longer bother I made a mask from the skin of my daunted heart It keeps getting stabbed from their words sharp as a dagger
I peeled off the softness and piled it to make it stronger Now, they're scared of me when they're the ones who made me a monster I've broke down, melted to the ground and suffered I killed myself with all the pain I have smothered.
I'm sorry for making this poem much longer I may be silent but I have many thoughts I always ponder Many days and years I tried to recover But I always ended up being sundered.
Am I allowed to speak or even show how I feel I wanna show myself that I have the zeal to heal Are they ready to accept the me I'm about to unveil? Tell me, do I have a chance to show them the real deal?
If they won't like me then I don't care I'm used to them being bad and unfair For them I'm the poison in the air When all I did was hide inside my lair.
Soul steps-out from the ambrosian fields of body, Each fragile petals drip-off from life , i laid tacitly down the cancer ward Death awaited out the door ,and kindly behold through those murky glass Pain termited holistic as, Aura Aromated unanswered medicines , While taking pain killers for soothing others Hour glasses harps aloud, the doomsday rituals, Trying to stoop downward it's sand as to bury heartbeats Immortal reminiscence lingered past veins Death Outlined 'X' mark on the door of life As No Moon ,No Sun could enter, Even Dawn and Dark lefts my vocabulary!
And then Hope whispers the words of W.E Henley “It matters not how strait the gate, How charged with punishments the scroll, I am the master of my fate, I am the captain of my soul.”