I've been drugged to pills all my life But nothing seems to work on my toxic thoughts
Somebody tell me Why?
At night I sit by my window with black eyes ,dark night and only the moon as company, all so delusional. Every morning brings nausea to my head Go back to stacking all of 'em pills on the shells Discard the emotions you feel , toss them all in as you shove the drugs down your throat Sit , stand, and take pills ... Pills ...them pills Oh how I lost my mind , day and night ,dates and days I don't know anymore
All I know is 'Take them pills'
I die for the touch of emotions that I have suppressed No.. the drugs have suppressed...
It's a long road of darkness as the drug travels down my oesophagus .. my heart flutters inaudible screams and my mind becomes hijacked ...
I feel lost in a room full of pills I hate these pills Take me out of this
I don't want any pills no pills please
I want to feel again ... Pain or joy .. I just want to be a human again
Dig me up, sit me up in the plate of your feast.
Become a demon I shall fear and reap my soul.
Run over my flesh with your dread.
Chew my shreds till my bloods runs cold.
For once and all kill me, kill me gently ��
Like falling stars I escaped into the galaxy of unconsciousness Slowly floating into seamless nothing I glanced into emptiness of black Yet a happy smile emerged on my lips I owe nothing but gratitude to the gentle cold wrapping me like a gift Suffocating my breath with sweet fog and ceasing my hearing with symphony of crows Like a cord through my heart I felt my body thumping against unknown Like a force of secret pushing me between untold worlds and then The gap of unknown and reality shrinked Quietly the world became white from the canvas of black And soon the rainbow filled the colours into colourless I opened my eyes with lazy feelings For once more was I snapped out to my fantasy A colourful world to my colourblind eyes layed in front I can't find my salvation in this happiness of others.