Hey guys! I know I have been away for so long and maybe no one cares or no one misses me or someone is silently judging. I am sorry, anyways. I have lost much during this time, I just don't feel myself and even if I want to write down an inspiration, I just don't feel my pen. My phone isn't very good and I hope for a better one as my birthday present (March 5). I have had a lot of busy moments, the preceding weeks and I wouldn't involve anyone in my down moment. Here I am back again and I think that's what really matters.
It just came to my mind, whenever I want to write down something I would always prefer to write it with a pencil coz I know if I made a mistake I can correct it, easily without anything to worry.
I rarely use a pen unless it's compulsory coz I feel like writing with it is going to be something permanent, if I made a mistake it would leave a mark behind. Idk why for me a pen is like a commitment which is supposed to leave its trace forever. I can't erase my penned thoughts, so like that what if I can't fulfil my commitment?
Maybe I may fear commitments or something called "permanent" or "forever" because of some things which I thought will stay forever with me.
But in all these stupid thoughts my pen is living a lonely life waiting for me to grab him from the penstand someday. He may think that I m biased but its not his fault I didn't choose him, its mine.
Maybe someday I will overcome these thoughts and make him a part of my life, the day when I overcome the fear of commitments...
Day after day, I've laid you in a quest, You grown, you believed You tried, you existed
You nurtured entrenches Suffering hovered above Never held grudges, You struggled,drove to alright
You held strength, Pushed ease in unpredictability seized hopes in tomorrow You are always one that outgrown
The most fascinating you're Generous with own significant rules You're my iridescent perpetuity Dear me, you're encomium in your own...
Can't believe this.. Thanks a lot so more more than alot for your repost@writersnetwork❤❤
I was writing this for my sweetheart@darksoulz, he is struggling alot these days.. But words seemed like not enough to say what exactly I want, that's y I posted this nd logged out mirakee, just with thought as hardly I will get few likes.. But now I gonna write it again again and again unitl he won't be completely cheered up... ☺❤❤
I tried ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
If I were a tree, A shady being I would have been. Tall and sturdy I would have stood, Birds and insects would reside on me. Leaves and flowers would dance on me, As I would sway with the wind.
If I were a flower, I would have been in a vast field. My fragrance would waft in the breeze, Dew drops would look like ornaments on me. Light coloured petals I would have had, Bees and butterflies, Would have been my friends.
If I were a bird, I would flap my wings against the sky. I would try to reach for the stars and clouds, Who would keep me company in lonely days. Sun would be a dear friend, Moon a good aquaintance. I would sing a sweet melody in morning, And at night I would prepare myself, For another eventful day... ~May