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  • rightnow 1w

    I'm sorry

    We tell each other everything but,
    Once you look at my arm and mention my scars I can't admit what I did.
    I feel a sense of guilt,
    Like I committed a crime and I have to hide it.
    I feel ashamed because of the thing I told you not to do I do.
    I feel ashamed because it gives me a sense of peace.
    I'm sorry I'm not stronger,
    I'm sorry I'm not better for you.
    ©rightnow

  • rightnow 7w

    Adapting to pain isn't the absence of pain but to conform to the pain.

    ©rightnow

  • rightnow 7w

    As a child you wait for someone to save you from all the pain you feel,
    But when you get older or wiser you realize the only person that can save you is you.
    Then it only depends on if you're strong enough to save yourself or not.
    ©rightnow

  • rightnow 9w

    A reason

    I want to cry all the time because of all the the pain I'm caring.
    My heart feels so heavy like a stone in water.
    All you ever do is tell me that I'm not enough.
    I feel so unwanted and useless,
    I try to find a reason to go on but I haven't found one.
    I wait for you to see my pain and hold me,
    But I'm tired of hoping.
    I just need a reason.

    ©rightnow

  • rightnow 10w

    I smile, I laugh I thought doing these things,
    Feeling these things meant you're happy.
    So why do I feel sad.
    When I smile or laugh why is there a part of me that wants to cry until I can't breathe.
    I am happy;
    Am I happy.

    ©rightnow

  • rightnow 11w

    It's easy to desire but harder to pursue that desire.

    ©rightnow

  • rightnow 12w

    "I'm not fucking Jenga,
    You can't just take pieces of me and try to rebuild me while you hope you don't break me.
    I'm a fucking person"

    ©rightnow

  • rightnow 16w

    I reach my arms out to you,
    But by Nature I tried to push you away.
    The thought of you in my life makes me smile,
    But for others you make them cry.
    I see you also a cold Bliss,
    While they only see despair.
    I watch people fight you as if they could win.
    Most people don't like the fact that you're everyone's fate.
    We are born to only meet you at the end,
    So my dear friend until then,
    I will do so much more than living,
    I will experience all life has to offer me,
    Even if it is mostly gloomy.
    Now that I know you I won't fear you when you call me.
    I won't fight an inevitable fight,
    I won't cry as you take me away.
    Because unlike most I don't see you as the end,
    But only a step in my journey.

    ©rightnow

  • rightnow 16w

    Insane

    They make me stay in bed all day and all night,
    I swear I'm going crazy staring at this ceiling.
    They try to poison me with their drugs,
    They try to tell me that I'm crazy,
    But I'm not crazy.
    I will escape.
    There's been a flower growing from the ceiling,
    Each day it gets closer to me,
    Within it is a key.
    I know that this is meant for me,
    Because no one else can see it except for me.
    I will escape my prison.
    ©rightnow

  • rightnow 17w

    Don't leave this world thinking no one loves you,
    I love you

    ©rightnow