#opherrick #afghan #afghanistan #war #queenandcountry #duty #soldier #army #ptsd #anxiety #anger
Afghan Days and After
WOOSH, WHIZZ, CRACK, BANG!
KEEP YA FUCKING HEAD DOWN MAN!
Keep down and keep moving or you'll find yourself dead,
Then you'll never make it back to your uncomfortable bed.
Quickly now, fire back or die,
There is no time to cower or even cry.
You're a trained soldier, it's what you live for,
Bodies on the floor, these images so raw.
Bodies on the floor, pieces everywhere.
The taste of blood hanging in the air.
Grenade went in, made a hell of a mess,
These stories I need to get off of my chest.
IEDs, explosions, it must be fun time,
Vehicles blowing up, high into the sky.
Pieces of debris flying here and there,
Taliban are hiding, fuck knows where?
Come out you rats, what you scared?
British soldiers are here so I suppose you wouldn't dare.
I'll fucking get ya, you little pricks,
Backwards ass country, gives you the shits!
Raise myself up just a couple of inch,
Concentrate now, aim true, don't flinch.
I'm gonna shoot the bastards, shoot them all DEAD,
Hope this red hot lead blows out the back of their heads.
Home time now, the war is over,
Anxiety starts and I'm gonna fall over.
Problems in my head have only just started,
In a few more years I'll be barking.
Anger flaring up again and again,
There's no point even trying to pretend.
I have a few problems, we all do,
Not really surprising after what we've been through.
Job after job, homeless, unemployed,
I feel like a sad pathetic, lonely little boy.
Depression can last for days, weeks, even longer.
Sometimes no food, starving, uncomfortable hunger.
Trapped in my head, my problems don't end,
Maybe my life will never be the same again.
This sadness never seems to go away,
A length of rope won't make it okay.
No one seems to care what we fought for,
Our brothers, our flag and a lot more.
Queen and country, that was my world you see,
Now I wake up and I no longer feel like me.
#talk #talking #talktome #communication
Communication is Lacking
Why is my responsibility to come visit you,
Don't make it so long next time, I've been told a few.
I am only a phone call away from talking,
But it seems it is upto me to do all the arranging and sorting.
Maybe deep down you don't like me so that is why,
Your absence is disappointing but it won't make me cry.
The option to visit me will forever be open,
But yet again I come to you and my wallet becomes broken.
Visit God damn it before I start choking,
Not from a rope but from this pointless hoping.
I know life keeps us busy and sometimes not to plan,
Time to ourselves is needed, that I understand.
In this world of instant communication it is easy,
A message sent every now and again would be quite pleasing.
Reading this you may not think it applies to you,
But trust me on this you are as guilty as I on this truth.
#love #dating #happiness
I met a girl
Friday needs to hurry up,It can't arrive soon enough.I met a girl the other week you see,She makes me smile, she makes me happy.-It's a bit complicated being with me,There are times when I'm really not free.It's not my fault the way I be,I've got a few problems, a few bad memories.-My head can drive me round the bend, Pushing me on towards dead ends.But being with her I feel whole again,I really feel like I'm on the mend.-She makes me laugh, she makes me wild,It really feels like it's been awhile.It's all test this life you see,One thing I've learnt is happiness is key.-Friday needs to hurry up,I have to wait and it's gonna be tough.I met a girl the other week you see,She is full of life and she is the one for me.-But unfortunately for me she turned out to be imaginary, ha unlucky!©unsix8three4
#mental #gentle #scary #ridiculous #masterplan
You Can't Judge Crazy Until You've Been There
You can call me a tit all you like,Probably couldn't best me in a fight.Not just a physical but also the verbal,I love the fact that I am a little bit mental.-Yes a bit mental but very gentle,Push me too far you best be careful.I am slightly off center so be wary,I'll flip from gentle to being quite scary.-Mental is good as you see things differently,I would rather be free then locked in your misery.Your opinion of me you are entitled to,But keep it to your jealous self as you have no clue.-I can act dumb and a little sad,But if you think of it that's no so bad.You can not judge what you do not know,I may be crazy but I enjoy the show.-I dance like a fool without a care about you,I may trip over myself after drinking a few.If you don't like it then walk away,If you do then come join in with the play.-You see I don't care what you think of me,I am who I am so let me be.You can't stop this boy or maybe man,Because I am succeeding in my own ridiculous master plan.©unsix8three4
#work #life #unemployed #jobless #mentalhealth #struggle #stickingwithit #headspace
Sticking With It
Back to square one after loosing that last job,
Queuing up at the dole office with all the other bods.
If I had just stuck with it I would be alright,
Countless lost before whilst I'm going through this fight.
It was really good money so why did I throw it away,
Acting like a clown and a little bit misbehaved.
I let myself down when my head is in the wrong place,
Turning up late with excuses that are a disgrace.
Admitting I have problems is quite hard for me,
It stings at my pride and it's a pain I feel daily.
I'm robust, quick to learn and I really need to earn,
I can't go back to the last place as too many bridges have been burned.
This new job is hardworking but that type is great,
I really do think I have finally found my place.
I need to stay on the right path having learnt from past mistakes,
Keep sticking with it and I will stay in the right head space.
#selfish #rude #attitude #pessimistic #selfreflection #personality
Regarding myself... sometimes!
I honestly need to tell you, I can be a bit of a prick,I am selfish and I'm rude,My nickname should've been Dick.-I've had a problem with authority,In almost every single form,I've been like that all my life,To me its just the norm.-I've never found a role model,To me they don't exist, The reflection in the mirror,Can be a nasty piece of shit.-All I see is lies,In every place I look,A pessimistic attitude, This is the form I took.-I'm angry almost all the time, It never goes away,Some day I'll be a polite young man,Maybe when I'm old and grey.©unsix8three4
#explode #anger #psycho #crazy #pleasant #temper
Occasionally I will loose my temper
EXPLODE! I'll show you EXPLODE!Gather around everyone for the start of the show.Don't try to test me if you like the shape of your nose,You will drop, end up bloody and crawling home.-ANGER! I'll show you ANGER!Punching my fist through a wall or even a stanger.If I don't pack it in I will put myself in danger,Potentially meeting another me and there will be no winner.-IRATE! I'll show you IRATE!The feeling is not great when I encourage my own hate.When in that state I am not up for a debate,Your face will get smashed like when dropping a plate.-PSYCHO! I'll show you PSYCHO!When I've kicked you so far up the arse you will be licking my toes.Then I'll have to rip you apart nice and slow,Not just verbally but physically so all your insides are on show.-CRAZY! I'll show you CRAZY!I'll beat you with a pole but that is just lazy.Better to use my fists or even my head maybe,But I won't go there as I don't think it's the best me.-Pleasant. I'll show you pleasant.I'll put a smile on my face and look like an angel from heaven.I don't think violence is really the answer to the question,But push me into a corner and you best be prepared as I won't be messing!©unsix8three4
Rhymes by Nick
#mentalhealth #anxiety #anger #paranoia #insomnia #depression #worthlessness #hopelessness #uncontrollable #nightmares #sadness #voicesinmyhead #hate #fear #selfdestruction #punishment
Mental Health, I'm Going Mental, Help!
Anxiety, anger and paranoia,Wake up some days and they're there to annoy ya.Supposedly normal and living the good life,Yet the voices in my head say go grab a knife.-Insomnia, depression and worthlessness,The only thing worse is the hopelessness.Trying to concentrate on ten things at a time,The thoughts in my head an uncontrollable whine.-Nightmares, sadness and the voices in my brain,Crawling back to bed when I can't face the day.I am ment to be a vessel for all that is good,Confusing looks and always so misunderstood.-Hate, Fear and Self Destruction,All these things they do cost some.Maybe it's punishment for all the bad done,I've got to get off now as I'm suffering from a lack of concentration.©unsix8three4
#gym #workout #muscle #gymlife #fitness
The Almighty Gym
The Gym is my God, I worship it daily,My troubles won't prevent me from constantly gaining.-The Gym is my King, I squat down to him,I bench press and row and do other things.-The Gym is my Queen, she helps me believe,When curling those dumbbells make sure you squeeze.-The Gym is my Dream, I love getting lean,When I lift heavy I have a face looking mean.-The Gym is my Creed, looking around and I'm pleased,Surrounded by all the other gym going breed.-The Gym is what I Bleed, you can't take this from me,Nothing is better because it is all that I need.©unsix8three4