"Play with flips not with feelings!" ⟵⟵⟵⟵⟵⟵⟵⟵⟵⟵⟵⟵⟵⟵⟵⟵⟵
Trust who floats with the books; Not who flirts with the looks, Make a promise who flips the book; Not who flips others mind's in wreck, Love who loves fictional characters; Not who loves with the fake makers, Go a date with who spend time in bookshop; Not who spend money on shopping plaza.
I always miss my old wordrobe Which is always changing I miss my school uniform Whatever I'm low at ranking
I miss my old raincoat All friends wear them and running madly in raining, I wish to go back then and watch us smiling and playing I know that smile and that innocent wont comeback Now my wordrobe filled with all fancy crap
I miss my college shirt Its all fill with my friends sign and also some cuss, I wanted to go back now and i was dumb, I don't realised back then what we are done Now i always miss each day while listings to russ
I miss the sweatshirt which sewn by my mom You can't find that warmness in these high quality brands
Dear Nanna, Wow, it's been almost 6 years since you left me and this universe. There are no words to describe my immense love for you. Every day without you has been hard, but on this day especially, I can't help but think how much I wish you were here with me.
You were the glided light in my world full of darkness. In your presence, I was happy. I'm happy even in your absence but I'm no more that happy little kid who used to smile from bottom of her heart. Though I smile 24/7 for no reason, but no more from bottom of my heart. I'm tired and hurt, I cried, I cried until my tears stopped. I tried to kill myself not physically but mentally. I tried to forget you but unfortunately you become the one who's always on my mind.
I think about you and miss you through each day that passes. Some days are really difficult and I'm overwhelmed with sadness. Other days are good, and I think about all of our beautiful memories. I miss going out with you. Just you and me, roaming here and there. I miss our fights, those funny fights and especially those pillow fights. I miss calling you by giving so-called funny nicknames. I miss making fun of mom with you. I miss teasing mom along with you. I miss going to temples with you. I miss those evenings I've spent with you on terrace. Just you and me. I miss doing yoga with you. I miss going to libraries with you. I miss falling asleep every night while listening to the stories you narrate. I miss telling stories to you, my imaginary stories. I miss making greetings on your birthday just to make you smile. I miss your smile, that million dollar smile. I miss your voice, your voice is the only one which can make me smile no matter in what mood I might be, your soothing voice make my heart skip a beat and whatnot it used to give me immense of happiness. If I keep writing the things I miss, then dad, I can write pages. I miss you and everything about you, Dad!
Whenever I miss you and can't control myself anymore, I let it out. I cry. Icry until I've got no tears left to cry. But I cry, only when I'm alone. And I make sure that I don't cry infront of anyone, even if I can't hold back my tears. 'Cause, no human can understand the pain I'm in. People tell me to move on, but if only it's that easy and if only they know what exactly it feels like.
There are days when I ask myself that "How can I miss him when I didn't even forget him. Well, he's always with me though, isn't it?"
"He has a special place in my heart, forever." - my heart says.
I remember evey moment I spent with you. I might be a kid back then, But dad, you know what, I really got a good memory. I remember evey little thing from childhood as well, like almost everything. I remember when I was little kid I used to fall asleep on terrace while counting stars every night by having you beside me. I remember, those evenings, I used to go on terrace and I used to sing along with you. And sometimes, I used to secretly record while you sing. I still regret the day, when I formatted that SD card unknowingly back in between 2010-12, which contains all your voice notes and our photos. I really feel bad and sad for not having a proper picture with you together. I wish at least, I could've one picture is together in it, but sadly, I've got none. Moreover, I wish I could hug you. Maybe, one last time. Maybe, we could have a goodbye. Cause the fact that this unsaid goodbye hurts me even more than anything else.
I'll never forget the day, when I was in 6th grade and I've left a 8 mark question unanswered in English exam even after knowing what to write and I got scolded by you. Though, it's really rare that you used to scold me but now I miss the way you scolded me. If I get a chance to get scoldings from you, then I'mma leave every question unanswered, so that I can get scolded by you. But I know that's never going to happen, and that kinda aches my heart to make myself understand that you really aren't here anymore with me and you really left. Every night, I never slept until you narrate a story and the struggles you had to stay awake, just to make me fall asleep. And now, I miss your stories and the way you used to narrate them. Moreover, you're the one who introduced me to novels, and now I can't stop myself from reading them and falling in love with books. You're the one who introduced me to sketching, whenever I feel low, I sketch and think about you and your artistic drawings. You're the one who introduced me to sports, now sports has become one of my dose of survival. You're the one who introduced me to writing, now I bleed my emotions and feelings on a paper and one day I'm going to make you feel proud, for sure! You're the one who taught me how to stay patience and calm even when I shouldn't. Was so lucky to have a multi talented person as my dad. Whenever I feel low and feel like giving up every damn thing, you and mom are the only people who comes in my mind and in the second thought I change my mind and tries my best.
I wished for you to come back, I wished for love of my life to come back, Yes, it's you dad. You're the love of my life. Little did I knew, You're gone and you ain't coming back, That you're gone forever.
Though I miss you but I'm not sad that you aren't here anymore. 'Cause dad, in this world there are people who doesn't have parents and doesn't even know how dad's love is like. And there are people who doesn't know how mother's care is like. I'm so happy and lucky that I had you as father at least and I know what father's love is like and I'm glad to have mommy with me. I promise that, no matter what, will never give up! Also, I promise that I'll always try my best to keep mommy happy and safe. I might not be the best daughter, but I know, I'll always be your best one in your point of view. Wherever you are and from wherever you're watchin me, I will let the world know who's daughter I am, than letting them know just my name. I'll make you proud, one day, for sure! I used to make greetings for you on your birthdays before, but now I've decided to write letters to you. I love you and I miss you so much Nanna!
Love, Your daughter, Bhargavi aka Dolly!
PS: I used to make greetings for my dad on his birthdays before, but now I've decided to write letters to him. And here is the letter, I've been writing little by little with each and every shed tears. Now I've finally decided to post it on his birthday, which is today, 11th of May. Happiest birthday, Nanna! ❤️
You my BEAUTIFULL and GORGEOUS Writer. Never let anyone destroy your state of happiness and peace. You are so PRECIOUS and KINDEST human.
I like it when someone open up infront of me, it makes me feel so good that they trust me and feels good opening up to me and I love it when you do that and that's what made us become more close.
Well well well, I'm not sure from where to begin but we met cause of um you know who and I'm glad that we met. I know, life isn't fair and kind to us, but I hope you find happiness in every little thing you do.
Although, I barely remember in which month when exactly we started talking but I remember it was in 2018 for sure. At first when we started talking, I wanted to be friends with you and wanted to talk more yet I felt kinda hard while talking to you cause I couldn't speak that well in English and now I don't even know why it made me feel bad. Lol now I don't even care if someone says my english isn't good and I should work on it, cause I've become so good compared to back when we met, isn't it. And you always make me feel good whenever we talk. Moreover, I love giving motivation to you, cause it makes me feel so proud of myself. Haha cause you know you are nearly 5 years elder than me yet you are like a little Baby, who needs love, care and I love showering love to you. (≧▽≦)
I wish you all the happiness, success, peace and love to you. All I want is you to be happy. I wanna see you falling in love with thyself.
Just remember that I'm always here for you no matter what. Chahiye kuch bhi kyu na ho jaye and no matter what situation in you are, just find me, okay? I'll be there, always! I am always here to listen you and your random udaasi bothering your lil heart of yours. I am always here to listen you when you've got no one to listen your talks. I am always here to check on you whether you're doing fine or something is bothering you. I am always here to shower love on you when it's needed and even when you've got enough I'mma still shower love on you cause all you deserve is love, happiness and peace!! I am always here to Make you feel happy when you're feeling sad. I am always here to guide you. I am always here to tell you to sleep on time. I am always here to check on you whatever you've eaten or not. I am always here to motivate you and I believe in you! I am always here for you. Yes, I am and will always! Aisshhh, why am I not getting enough words to describe you?! You are such a sweetheart. You are more like my own sister, a elder one. Who gives me advices. Who tells me what to do and what not to. Who suggests me books and stuff. You are a best friend of mine. You are more like a elder sister of mine. You've filled the place of a elder sister. You, my munchkin. You, my army chingu. You, my precious baby gurl Me loves you, the sweetheart you, the caring you, totally I LOVE YOU! Calling you sister to unnie, unnie to Jaagi.. we came a long way.