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  • poukii 35w

    I was standing in front of mirror, desperately trying to take off 'my mask', when my higher self, who is my nightmare, started to talk to me.
    Me : ohh!! I don't know what is happening with
    me .Why I am always feeling confused
    about myself.? Will I ever be able to
    understand me.I feel myself as a highly
    complicated person.
    Higher self: why not? Surely you will. Take time to
    connect with yourself. Complicated?!!
    can you explain a bit what you exactly
    mean by calling yourself as complicated.
    Me : ohh!! that's my problem. I think a lot, think
    too deeply,have a lots of ideas in my brain.
    But don't know to express it in a way, that
    others understand. I suspect I have
    Alexithymia!!!. You know, I seriously
    struggle in even recognising small
    emotions. When my Grandmother died ,I
    didn't cried at her funeral, I just didn't got
    what I was supposed to do. It was only
    after a few months, I was able to feel the
    pain in my body. But it was unbearable.
    But , somebody called me 'rude',for not
    crying as others. (1)

  • poukii 35w

    Don't feel guilty for speaking up.
    Kill those inner demons,that always makes you feel something isn't right, with your kindness.
    Don't stop loving yourself,no matter what happens,no matter what others tell you.
    You had already suffered too much,
    now it is the time for you to set fire,
    fire to the rain within you.
    Don't ever lose hope, because good things take time.
    No matter how slow you are, don't walk back.
    May be tomorrow, you might become the role model for all the girls suffering silently within the four walls of their room.

  • poukii 35w

    And I didn't even realised that we have such a thing called freedom,
    and freedom is the right of my existence.
    I was shocked knowing that many things society rewards us for, are actually acts of self harm.
    We are rewarded, when we quietly suffer all the traumas imposed.
    We are rewarded when we hide ourselves,
    when we we don't talk or question about anything.
    We are rewarded as 'Good Sanskari Girl'.
    I know your parents too had forced you to hide all your disabilities,
    but realise that you too have the right to speak,
    right to live a life as others around you.
    Don't allow other's opinions to decide your worth.
    Being disabled doesn't makes you a bad girl.
    Don't allow anyone to take advantage of you.

  • poukii 35w

    You told me about the way you were mistreated for being a disabled girl living in India,
    for suffering from mental illness,
    you told me about all the traumas you experienced,
    about how you were forced to hide all your pain and behave as normal by just ignoring your real sufferings.
    You know, something just like this had happened to me ,
    I too sacrificed myself just to please others,
    ignoring myself completely,
    because society teaches us to be perfectionists,
    they guilt trip us for taking rest by calling us lazy.
    I too was not aware about all these until recently.

  • poukii 35w

    As the magnitude of our pain increases,
    we often find it difficult to remain consistent in our goals.
    Sheer perseverance is the quality the will help us during this time.
    With enormous gratitude towards God,
    ultimately we will be able to find solace in every
    little things that we have.

  • poukii 35w

    I thought you were heaven,but you gave me hell.
    Don't get me wrong,
    but girls like you, always treats us like this,
    just makes us feel like,we are just another one.
    Now my humble request is,
    quit playing games with my heart;
    my heart no longer have blood to bleed.

  • poukii 35w

    If you had read those unread messages,
    you might not had left me like this,
    for I had suffered all the numbness on my finger tips,
    to just type and inform you about the sudden accident.
    I don't know what went wrong with you.
    You were not like this in the beginning.
    Please, just give me a reason for your behaviour.
    Is it because you get to know that I lost my leg in the crash?
    Is it because I am no longer able to spend money for you as I used to?
    I thought you liked my soul, my heart,
    more than my external appearance.
    I thought you will be there with me in all my sorrows and miseries.
    But, I think I was wrong.

  • poukii 35w

    Seeing her ethereal beauty and harmony,' The Hierophant',fell in love with her on the pedestal.
    Through her wisdom and intuition, secret's to a man's heart were already known to her.
    "Somewhere,in your eyes,I saw myself being very special,
    I need your love, I am hungered for your touch, Are you still mine?", He asked to her.
    "No,I don't want your love,as I am in love with 'Luna',
    Luna had merged with my soul",
    She immersed herself in the gumusservi of the moon water,
    and thus emerged out as 'The Moonstruck Priestess',
    who sat in her throne wearing the 'Blue Robe of Luna'.

  • poukii 35w

    The Moonstruck Priestess

    Since the day she was born,her home was in the spiritual world.
    The connecting stars quilted a sacred veil for her;
    a veil, that only she can remove; the veil that seperated the conscious and subconscious.
    Halos of Isis moon, circled her like the angels.
    The retrograde crescent moon, became her friend forever.
    Luna,opened the doors of higher realms for her, to travel.
    Fire,Earth,Water and Air called her as their "Mother'.

  • poukii 35w

    "THE MODERN PRINCESS"