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  • potatoo 11w

    I feel lost,
    Lost in this damned world.
    Is this my mind playing games with me?
    Or is my existence really absurd?
    I find myself,
    Walking by these streets of lie(s)
    It's always dark out here
    Crowded,
    but still not a single soul to hear me cry


    I can't see, nor can I hear
    The lies of reassurance is what I fear
    I can't see, I've lost every hope to live
    The last flashes before my death
    Seems like the only way to relive.

    Yes I am lost in this damned world,
    But i don't see myself
    trying even a bit to get out
    The depth of darkness,
    Makes me see no light
    I've forgotten the warmth
    of any sunshine
    Sometimes, I do try to scream
    And cry out loud
    But the silence,
    It never fails to leave me alone,
    It never fails to remind me,
    That I'm alone.

    And,
    I find myself,
    Living in this curse,
    Unable to emphasize my pain
    Through any poem or a verse.

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    the silence,
    It never fails to leave me alone,
    It never fails to remind me,
    That I'm alone.
    ©potatoo

  • potatoo 21w

    All of a sudden
    I could see a ghost in my room
    Sulking in a corner,
    Doing nothing but staring at me
    Trying to look inside my soul,
    But couldn't bear the torture.

    I resemble with him,
    I know how it feels
    To be alone in a crowd,
    To have your presence ignored
    Even if you scream out loud.

    I know how it feels
    to be dead,but still exist
    In this unwanting world
    Trying to relive,
    trying to get away
    from the darkness,
    Away from this pit

    I know how it feels
    to live in an abandoned, gloomy place
    For that is what
    I call my home nowadays

    I know how it feels
    to be the outcast
    I know how it feels
    To live a life too farced

    But then I realised,
    I relate a little too much with the ghost
    And I thought, there was nothing i could
    Resemble with, this better
    Just before i found myself
    Staring at a mirror.


    ___________

    And then I glanced
    over a goodbye note
    Stained with patches of something
    which seemed like red ink..
    ...or was it my blood?

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    ©potatoo

    @writersnetwork @miraquill

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  • potatoo 25w

    Reposting,
    Because :0
    @writersnetwork

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  • potatoo 26w

    I went to a fair yesterday,
    I'd see people fake a smile,
    When someone gazed upon them
    Well I can't blame them any more
    I was all the same.

    But still, it's disappointing to see people like this, Not able to open themselves to others
    Not able to share a true bond

    But then I walk past by a children's ride
    Finally, I'd see some truly happy faces
    Rid of any despair or sorrow, just some
    Pure souls wandering in innocence
    It was truly a soothing sight.

    I envy it all you know,
    The serenity in their smile,
    The purity of their souls
    And the innocence in their laughs
    I envied it all.
    But did I? Is that really what I want?

    I walked past by some shops next,
    Confused about what I wanted,
    Confused about what I was seeking for

    Somehow the crowd kept getting less,
    There was no one around me now
    Did I get lost? Is this section closed?
    I saw a shop which was still open
    But with no one around it.

    'Not everything you want,
    But everything you need'
    The sign said,

    'But what is it that i need exactly?
    Is it the smile and innocence of a child,
    Or a bond of understanding each other?
    Or this,
    A time for myself away from everyone,
    A time to find who I really am?'
    I asked the man in the shop

    He replied,
    'To tell you what you need,
    Is something beyond me,
    It's something that I can't decipher,
    It's a job for you to find what you truly desire'

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    And this is how I got lost,
    In this fair, in which I came yesterday,
    Searching for what I need, for what I desire
    Something that may already be inside me,
    Something that's running away from me,
    Is it you? I wonder.

    _____________
    ©potatoo
    @mirakee @writersnetwork
    #wod #list #writersnetwork

    I don't know what it is,
    it's just ahhh idk,
    It's kinda incomplete maybe bc idk what it is that i need too
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  • potatoo 26w

    Sitting on a bench
    Embracing the fall of autumn leaves,
    a new end or beginning?

    _______________

    I don't have you, yet i fear of losing you.
    I want to but, I fear of being vulnerable around you, i fear of getting close just to lose you. I know my fear isn't reasonable, I know I'm just afraid because I'm in love with you, and I know i should embrace it, the fear, the love everything about it, everything about you.
    I understand I can't have you for forever, but it doesn't mean I can't have you for now. For I want to cherish you, cherish the moments I share with you, each and every one of them.
    My fall, my rise, my wilting and my blooming all of it. And when my time comes in a very autumn, I'll shed away with all the things you've taught me.
    I'll fall, in retrospect of the way you taught me how to love,
    I'll fall only to rise above again.
    ____________
    @mirakee @writersnetwork
    #pod #autumn
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  • potatoo 26w

    I saw her smiling through the mirror,
    When I tried to see my gloomy self.
    A smile so familiar,
    It felt like I'd tell,
    With my eyes closed,
    exactly how much of her lips
    Are being stretched.
    I know it sounds kinda odd,
    But even now
    Seeing her,
    which was nothing
    but an illusion i created
    Comforted me
    And even now
    When she's left me
    She still managed to bring tranquility

    Seeing her smile again,
    Reminded me of
    The dreams I dreamt,
    The days i was still alive,
    The days when I was with her
    The days when my fantasies and
    My reality had no rift,
    The days when my stars,my moon and my sun were all the same




    _____________
    But those dreams
    were of a love which
    would never die
    Simple a dream,
    Which cannot be
    Just like some storms
    We cannot weather


    ____________
    Idk what it is :0
    #reflection #wod #writersnetwork
    @mirakee @writersnetwork

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    ©potatoo

  • potatoo 27w

    Life is uncertain,
    But that's where the beauty lies. Life has no meaning to it, it's completely meaningless until we understand that the one who's born will pass away, but what remains eternally is their will in the form of any art or anything they loved and/or was created with love.

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    @mirakee @writersnetwork #wod
    #Impermanence #writersnetwork

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  • potatoo 27w

    Everyone holds a secret to themselves,
    Everybody has their miseries, the one who laughs a lot yet cannot shed a genuine smile, the one who keeps working to not feel alive, just by looking at them you can infer - maybe they need help.

    But my secret?

    It's hidden from me as well, I don't know what exactly is inside me
    I don't know who exactly I am.
    I reckon all those uneasy feelings of being unwanted, of being unloved, or of being an unnecessary burden is leaked from someone inside, someone not me but still a part of me, a part of me possessed by hatred, overridden by despair. Someone who I know very well, but I fail to understand every single time.

    But, if these feelings, so strong, are only some leaked fragments of what he feels, and what he's going through, I wish I could understand him, I wish I could help him, I wish I could help myself.

    I like to stare at the water, not a mirror but water, I like to think that all my haziness gets washed away when I stare at it, but the truth is I try to find myself in the reflection on the water, I try to find what's really inside me, but I fail, I fail cause I'd only see a pitiful creature, wanting help, but couldn't respond to someone when they ask "What's wrong?"
    Not his fault though,
    After all, how can one justify the rage, fear, and exhaustion curling up inside their mind towards nothingness? It's like a fight against the void. How can one heal something that isn't even real?



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    And I dream, and I wish that someday maybe I'll be able to see you beside me when I stare at the water.
    _________________
    #wod #secrets @writersnetwork @mirakee
    I just wrote whatever i can think of :c

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  • potatoo 28w

    The cold breeze,
    The Ocean, the waves
    And the sky
    Here I'm, standing on the wet sand
    It's like a dream, you know?
    Aviating freely through the shore,
    Cavorting with the swirls of force,
    I have everything I need here.

    Wait is this really a dream?
    Why does this feeling feels so strange?
    ''Hey'',i hear
    A distant sound, from far away
    Yet so close.

    What exactly is this strange feeling?
    Is this love?
    No, it can't be, it shouldn't be,
    Right?

    Wait, there's something else too
    A voice,
    no not gentle as the one I heard before
    It kept repeating
    "You're not good enough for her"
    What does this mean?
    I'm so confused and scared.
    Are these tears in my eyes?
    But why?
    Why am I so terrified?

    I know i was about to cry
    But then I felt a pat on my back
    It's you, the voice i heard before
    The gentle one
    But
    your touch was even gentle than your voice
    It washed away that uneasy feeling
    Just like the waves washed away the sand stuck on my feet,
    And just as smooth
    As our heart beats.

    But deep inside it still aches
    My heart still breaks
    Thinking about the ways
    I'll fail to do what it takes
    And I'll miss you a lot
    And I may still be in love with you
    And I'd fight and hold my heart
    But the shore would be bitter, again
    And I'd be just like an old faded frame


    _________

    And without you,
    I'd be an array of humdrum frames
    All black and white.

    _____________
    #writersnetwork @writersnetwork #ceesrepost
    After a long long time ^_^

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  • potatoo 28w

    Here I am,
    With the dawn,
    or is this the twilight?
    I found myself in solitude
    But why?
    Is it because
    the stars are gone?
    Or because the sun is yet to rise?

    The clouds were still in my sight
    But,
    I feel unwanted by the clouds
    Is this because,
    Them being so pure and white,
    Rejected me?
    Alienated me?

    The clouds,
    from up above
    Whispers sadness
    Into my ears
    It tries to bring me down
    But I chant to myself
    It isn't real
    The void of sorrow isn't real
    (Only to get consumed by it?)


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    Idk if it makes any sense :0

    #wod #alien @writersnetwork
    @mirakee

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