What does a death feel like?
It's the deafening silence left
in the air after all the blabbering
is gone. The void grips you tighter
than your lover ever did. The kiss of
death leaves a cold burn on your
whimpering soul and it hurts more for
the one who is spared alive because
life isn't any great without your tango
partner. Everything smells like gloom.

I haven't gotten the chance to
taste death yet but I've been
chasing it from a long time.
I failed every time I pictured
your sad face in my mind,
with your lips murmuring,
" The guy dies in every book."
I didn't wanted to make you
live my death but I guess
I'll have to live yours now.

I'll name every star I'll ever see
after your name if only I can find
some courage to sit in the same
balcony where we talked for hours.
The pictures of those beautiful skies
I shared with you won't excite me now
as you won't be jealous of the view
anymore, you belong to it now.

There won't be any beautiful nights
only difficulty to sleep. The pain of
watching you slip away slowly will
keep me awake. I would've painted
you a beautiful sudden death if only
you were mine to kill.
©veloc1ty_