• chynxzejynx5150 7w

    Message from my mom.

    A little sleep, a little slumber,
    A little folding of the hands.
    Left you weak, left you hungry
    When there's supply, you still demand.

    You've dragged the ones you love down,
    Will this phase ever end?
    A thousand arms to hold you,
    But you won't reach for any hands.
    Honey, I don't feel I'm getting through to you,
    Let me paint this clear, life is short, my dear.
    See your mother here, another painful year
    I wish you only knew...
    I stuck around for you
    I love and stuck around for you.

    Maybe you should just fall,
    And leave the world and lose it all.
    And if that's what you need,
    To finally see,
    I'll be with you through it all.

    Bring on the pills, snort through the rolled dollar bill,
    The voices won't go away,
    Constant self-medicating doesn't end the suffering,
    It'll never be what heals.
    Relapse, rehab, repeat
    "You were always just thinking about the me, me, me"
    Self-destruct, spiral down,
    Until your want becomes your need.
    Please get up like I know you can or forever love the fall

    I never feel like I'm getting through to you,
    Let me paint this clear,
    Life is short, my dear.
    See your mother here,
    Another painful year
    I wish you only knew...
    She stuck around for you
    She stuck around for you.

    I can't stand to see you down
    Strung out,
    Off the wagon, and unwound.
    But steady, steady,
    Oh God, situations were scary, scary.
    I'm so sorry you couldn't stay around.
    I couldn't bear the thought,
    That real soon I could hear the sound,
    Of your body hitting the ground.
    I was going to walk in on my son overdosed as my heart would pound.
    As I read the suicide letter:
    "I love you mom, my mental psyche was just too profound.
    I'm sorry you tried so hard to have a son that would have made you so proud.
    Just know the pain is all gone, finally eternal peace, I'm officially home now"

    Oh, Austin, Austin, Austin!
    I stuck around for you
    Maybe you had to fall,
    Leave this world and lose it all.
    If that's what you need,
    To finally see,
    That I always loved you through it all.