LIKE I'M FINE
I wake up every morning
With a pain in my chest
How I wish, I could tie it to a nest
Let it fly, fly like a bird and lay some eggs
I smile, I eat, I sleep like I'm fine
But deep down no one knows I'm not.
At times I feel you see through me
Like girl what are you hiding
I hide under my make up.
I hide under food.
I hide in my places
Places I know you can't even see.
I wanna blame you and say you used me
Only if I could push that lie off as the truth.
I still can't stand seeing you around
But I'll always smile and say what's up
Anytime you walk my side
I walk, I move, I talk like I'm fine.
Only of it wasn't a show
My smile, my talk, my fluency.
When will I get over you
My heart still bleeds a pool.
Its like I keep going back and forth
I walk out, then walk right back in.
I sing, I act, I laugh like I'm fine.
Maybe I should find a job on LinkedIn
Something to keep me busy
To hold me from leaning in
Leaning to the tears that still wells up in my eyes whenever I think of you.
Can someone press delete please?
Wipe my memory and take you out.
I can't bear this pain no more
Because no matter what I do,
We were never meant to be.
These tears of blood I shed with my pen
Not just for the world to see
But to rid my heart of every memory of you.
Because I'm done acting like I'm fine.
©fortae