• thatweirdislandgirl 15w

    If I Could Tell You Feel

    Sometimes if I were to tell you just how I feel
    It would be to tell you how afraid I am that my scars won't heal
    I would tell you how some days I feel like a total mess
    And that some days I feel like our love is a constant test
    A test that I am almost sure that I will not pass
    So I convinced myself that our love won't last
     
    I would tell you how some days I can feel it creeping in
    The certainty of unworthiness  buried under my skin
    Because I have never met anyone who loves me this much
    And I am terrified that I will fuck this up

    I would tell you how fear would let me trade my sunshine for rainy days
    Because I am broken and dysfunctional in so many ways
    I would tell you how I badly want you to be mine to keep
    For you to be the one who pulls me up and out from the deep

    I would tell you that my love for you run deep in my veins
    And that my love for you is like an irremovable stain
    Oh Honey! If only I had the courage to tell you how I feel
    Then what would happen if  all my demons were to be revealed?
    ©thatweirdislandgirl