i fear talking to someone new
for i know how things will turn out.
opening up would be the first step
next would be talking the life about.
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and i would start feeling special
writing poetries in their name.
opening up enough to show my vulnerabilities
and crack a few of my jokes, lame.
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and then things start to change
only when they will have me feeling adored.
and before i know it, conversations shrink
and they move out of my life, bored.
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i am not sure if there's something wrong with me
and if i should keep my feelings shoved.
because everytime i show them out
i have to ask myself if i deserve any love.

-SCAS.