Self-sabotage

What I see is the pain
Anxious, belief in the Savior
Complacent, thinkin there's virtue in some patience
There ain't no time if life is fading
Afraid, taking risks is the game
Shits changed,
I now bare the weight of the shame
Ambivalent, scared when I stare Nick in the face
I get stuck in my head
Where I'm imprisoned
I been doing my bid there instead
I live in fear n not of death,
Not people, monsters, no enemies
What I fear are these friendly entities
From hell is what they're representing
What I fear most is myself
A mere ghost in a shell
Envisioning watching me from a distance
If this is hell,I picked it
Not a victim, this shit is self-inflicted










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