• golden_metallics 71w


    This is wrong- this isn't supposed to happen-
    This isn't real, it can't be real-
    I feel as though everything is a neverending movie playing around me whilst I'm tied up unable to control anything that I do- and anything that results of it.
    Is that a reason or just an excuse?
    I do not know my own self. I do not have a definition. Am I really this bad? Am I a dirty bullshit liar? Maybe I am just the antagonist of your movie- forcing you to learn a lesson. But where is my lesson? I have fought battles and wars and everything I touch with my blood covered fingertips has perished- and I have not learned a thing.
    Except to push people away in the worst possible course of action.