ponygirl913

My old account is @ponygirl902. I joined three years ago. I’ve been locked out of that account for unknown reasons. So this is my new account.

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  • ponygirl913 133w

    The ocean is like life. It changes fast and constantly. It doesn't slow down for you to catch a breath of fresh air. It doesn't give you the time to adjust to the changes. It just changes and you can't stop it. You can't run from it the change is already in full force. The only thing you can do it embrace the changes. Deny the changes if you want. If that gives you normalcy. The only thing you can do is go with the flow or be swept away from its waves of uncertainty.

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    I’m useless
    Stupid
    Selfish
    Insecure
    I won’t get anywhere
    I’m lazy
    Undetermined
    Unskilled
    Nobody likes me
    I’m avoided by everyone
    Everyone hates me
    My life is ruined
    No!
    That’s not your life
    This isn’t how your life is or is going to be
    Can you tell me with absolute certainty
    That 5,10,15,even 20 years from now
    That you’ll still feel these exact same things
    You can make mistakes
    You can misunderstand something
    But that doesn’t make you stupid
    You can be selfish just once in your life because that doesn’t determine
    Who you are forever
    You’re allowed to be insecure...
    Heck I’m insecure all the time
    Even though I know I have no reason to be
    People move on
    It’s a simple fact
    But that doesn’t mean you’ll be alone forever
    That doesn’t mean your life is over
    Because all these little things going on in your life right now
    That’s all they are
    Little things that you’re letting take control
    Don’t focus on what is wrong with you
    And what you wish you could change in your life
    Focus more on what is good
    Focus more on what makes you happy
    Because life changes and you change right along with it

  • ponygirl913 138w

    When trapped in the chaotic world 
    Of opinions and temptations 
    I long for the fantasy world 
    Written in the library books
    Sitting among the shelves 

  • ponygirl913 138w

    Your blank cold stare
    Your deep raspy voice
    Sending shivers down my spine
    Shaking me to my core
    A face stored in my memory 
    A steel frame
    Locked away
    Hurt inflicted
    Pain intended
    Battered down 
    By your repeated blows
    Crushed by the revelation 
    That your Love was a fake 
    Im order for you to make
    Me lose my very self
    You took my heart and 
    Held it in your hands
    Then snapped It in half
    Destroying the very heart that loved you
    The heart that believed you were pure good
    The heart 
    The person
    That was fooled by your poker face 
    Up until the point your facade was broken down 
    Revealing the soulless person underneath 
    The cold blank expression written on your face
    That tore me down until 
    The heart could go on no longer

  • ponygirl913 138w

    Your betrayel left me open to this tasteless and dark world 
    Leaving me stuck in a chaotic and belittled dystopia 
    Cruel ways and lies
    And repetition of your betrayel stuck in my head 

  • ponygirl913 138w

    I'm calm
    I'm quiet
    I'm patient
    That's me
    It's who I am
    It's what they expect
    Right?
    That's what they want me to be
    so how come I feel trapped
    Why do I want just a day to feel normal
    I thought I was ok?
    Why do I want
    a day where I'm not bottling everything up
    A day when I don't push things away because I know if I don't, I'll cry
    A day where I'm not terrified of making my Step-Dad upset
    Because I can't stop thinking of my stupid father
    A day where I'm not terrified I'll never get to talk to my father
    A day where I'm not biting my tongue, or when I'm not scared to make comebacks
    A day where I'm not breathing and concentrating every second because
    I know my parents depend on me
    A day I don't stay up late just sitting there listening to music
    Because it's peaceful
    a day where I don't take my sister's rude comments about me
    That she thinks I don't hear
    A day where I can do something without feeling judged by my entire family
    A day where I'm not regretting every single day
    thinking I should've done this differently
    I shouldn't have done this
    I should have done this
    A day where my worries don't outweigh everything else
    A day where I'm not worried for my sister
    Just a day
    To be normal
    A day where I can just
    Breath
    Why?
    Why does that day intrigue me?
    When I thought I was doing ok?

  • ponygirl913 139w

    My words may not be spoken out loud for all to hear
    But they are written down for whoever may read them 

  • ponygirl913 139w

    With anger 
    Comes destruction 
    With peace 
    Comes tranquility 
    With unbalance 
    Comes chaos 

  • ponygirl913 139w

    If I asked you the reasons behind your actions 
    What would you say?
    Would it be misconceptions and lies 
    Or truths and confessions 

  • ponygirl913 139w

    No te amo por tu apariencia ", ella. 


    Te amo porque fuiste la única que se quedó para reparar los fragmentos destrozados de mi corazón.

  • ponygirl913 139w

    a ese lugar que una vez se mantuvo galantemente en su mente
    y a its corazón desgarrador fallecimiento
    el decidió liberarse de
    la agitación violenta, confusion en el mente