Do you remember the first time you fell in love? Of course you do. No matter, how you both ended whether in good terms or bad terms.. You still remember them. Those poems which they wrote you, the ring which they gifted you which is too precious to be thrown away, a simple tshirt which had a nostalgic fragrance of your first love Or maybe the rose which they gifted you on your anniversary.You can never forget them..maybe you don't want to. That's why you are never erase their memories. At some point in your life they were the ones with you wanted to spend your rest of life. You can never love them the way you did before but whenever you see them somewhere your heart and mind recalls all the beautiful moments you had with them. Your heart still has a soft corner for them. You can never unlove someone. At times you might think that you are not able to move on from them.. The truth is you cannot let go of the love which you gave them or the love you received from them. It's immersed into your feelings. That's called love. You can never make it dissapear. The more you grow older, you'll only remember what love is. Thus, we keep our memories in photographs were hearts are never broken and time is frozen. ~P.
Dear self, I know you're tired but I also know you're strong. You've been through lot, you still have a lot to experience.. Please do not lose hope. There were times when you screamed out of agony, There were times when you cried and cried.. There were times when you wanted a tight hug but got none by your side. Dear self, I understand how you feel.. but please don't give up. There were times when you trusted men, There were times when you were full of butterflies.. There were times when you loved too deeply, There were times when you sat in silence after they left. Dear self, I know that your love was real.. But first you should learn to love yourself. There were times when you felt terribly blue because everything around you was against you.. There were times when you thought the dark days will never end, There were times when you thought the sun won't shine anymore; There were times when you thought all you deserve in your life is pain. Dear self, I know you were in a dilemma, But there is always a bright scorching sun after a heavy downpour, And there is always love after you went through a lot of pain. There were times when you felt lonely, There were times when your friends weren't your friends anymore, There were times when your family went against you.. There were times when you weren't aware who you really are. Dear self, I know all the silent battles you're going through even now.. I know you always feel insecure about yourself, I know you are a struggler. I know you feel like running away from this world, I know you miss them, I also know you're mentally and emotionally exhausted. No one is perfect, but people who hurt you never give you a chance to heal. Please, stop running back to them everytime. Life is strange, people come people go but their memories stay. I know your heart has been shattered into pieces many a times, Yet, it never gave up. Dear self, I love you.. Please don't cry anymore. Love, Me. ~P.
Sitting near the window, I watched the rust coloured leaves fall all around the ground from the trees making it known that sweet summer was gone. I saw the green leaves turn into hues of red and brown, Thunder growled over my head... The air was cool and had a charged electric feel. I opened my window and lit a cinamon candle, With a cup a of warm hot coffee I went to the hallway of my ancient house. I saw someone approaching, a lady with Oxford shoes who wore a cable-knit sweater and a huge coat with wooden buttons. Her eye lashes were fluttering, her lips were glossy pink in colour. She had a basket in her hand, I wondered what was inside it. She grabbed my hand and took me outside, I could feel the smell of freshly fallen leaves. She took to me to place which I saw in my dreams last night. The roads were filled with leaves which turned orange, The smell of hot pumpkin pies which were being cooked somewhere nearby reached to me. The lady who brought me here disappeared; I wondered whether she was a witch. Soon, i realised it'sOctober and autumn's here. ~P. 19/07/21//5:04p.m
@writersnetwork@mirakee . . . . . Autumns have always been my favorite. The big fluffy sweaters, reading fantasy novels with hot cup of coffee, walking through the woods, soft music, the rain, fairy lights and the celebration of Halloween, the pumpkin piesss ❃ etcc.<3
It's 5am in the winter morning when you're out in nature and everything around you feels fresh. As the sun rises, the soft dazzling sunrays kisses you and you feel alive. You take out your pen and your diary and continue writing how you feel. Obsessively. Incessantly. The world around you pauses it's only you and the nature. You can hear the animals talk, the birds take you inside the forest. You find yourself in a whole different world. Your appearance changes. An elegant flowy white dress with your hair in lose curls, you feel like a fairy. You meet your lover who waits for you near the seashore sitting on top of a white horse. He welcomes you with a bouquet of red roses and kisses your hand. And then when you both enter inside a castle, soft chimming bells starts tingling, the birds starts singing a song.. A song of love, of happiness and hope, daffodils starts blooming, the wind smells like lavender. Both of you stare at each other for a while... You get lost in his bewitching eyes, he pulls you closer and kisses you. It feels like heaven. He holds your hand and whispers in your ears. "Forever" He said. ~P//3:06am. . . #miraquill#writeup @writersnetwork@mirakee@queen_butterfly
Silence. When you feel heartbreak, it feels like there's a hole inside your heart. While everyone's asleep, busy with their own chores and you..You sit there in silence trying to stop the tears flowing down from your eyes. Yet, it doesn't stops. You end up hurting yourself for that one person who left you. Your heart aches. Every night feels a like never ending nightmare. You spend it overthinking, your sleep disappears. Then, when the sun rises and everything around you feels normal, you get yourself busy but again the memories hit you making you feel pathetic. You feel their presence everywhere. No matter how hard you try.. you're unable to be alright. You tell others you're fine and moved on but deep down only you know you aren't. But slowly as the time passes, when you're able to control your feelings it does hurt but not like before. You realise that when you love someone it's better to let them go. You see them with their loved one and it doesn't hurt anymore. At the end, you end up feeling nothing. You fear love. Your tears are swallowed because you cried enough. Life goes on as it always does. And you, you also get used to with how it is. You know you still love them, but you can do nothing because everything has changed. So you try to hide it within yourself. You show them you hate them but deep down you're the only one who still love them the most. They couldn't hold onto your love. If they did, they would've been the luckiest. Moving on isn't easy. But once you know how to control your feelings it doesn't hurt anymore. ~P.
Look at my innocence, I believed in the lies you forged to gain a victory over my heart. Look at my tolerance, I'm still making an effort to get you out of guilt and remorse that destroyed both of us, before caring about my own shattered heart, I'm trying to make sure that yours is not as fragile as mine, besides feelings and emotions love is also an energy, the kind of energy that enhances your soul, the kind of energy that makes your heart smile, the kind of energy that gives you one more reason to live. It wouldn't be a lie if I say you've put me through hell. I'm conflicted having an inner war with myself just wishing that you're okay, wanting to be there with you but then realizing that we are like two huge cliffs of Himalayan and a subtle river in between would never let us meet. I have to break myself into millions of pieces to reach you. I have waited for you counting each second, the days are less bearable as compared to nights, At midnight I have survived like a mother who has lost her child, like a beggar who missed a single piece of bread, like a soldier who is injured in war. I keep my hands at heart often hoping it would stay just there, I fear if it would get out of me and run towards you. It would be a lie if I say, you were not the best lover. You were the best of all, lead characters in thousands of romance novels missed the fire you had within you. You gave me you, you gave me love, you gave me my own life, you gave me tragedy, you gave me peace, You made me a lover. Take care of yourself for me, Love loves you. I always wonder if your heartache as much as mine. But then again, I know that you're crying out loud and clear in some other part of the world, just by yourself not knowing what next to do, why you did what you did, don't think about it much, don't let your guilt suffocate you, be yourself. Love shouldn't cage you in any kind of thoughts and feelings, let your emotions flow for once and for all, stop running away from yourself, set yourself free from me, set yourself free from love, as a human we are supposed to make mistakes, it's not just you, it's me and everyone. What matters is how you take it, I'm taking it as life lessons, learning from heartbreak, you too forgive yourself for what had happened. It's love darling, nothing can make you as hopeless as lovers in a love war. I can see the fluctuations in your eyes, not being able to calm your chaos, makes me want to go sanyas and chant your name forever. As you said, no lover can break the heart without breaking his own, you must be shattered too. Do love reminds you of me? cause darling there's nothing left here that wouldn't remind me of you.