As I sit in my corner and think about your lies, I have nothing else to do but break down and cry. You knew it would end, You knew it would die, You knew one day we'd have to say goodbye. You told me you loved me, You told me you cared, But the rage inside has slowly flared. The moments we shared replay in my head, Along with all the sweet lies you said. You thought it was a game, You thought you'd win, But in the end you felt nothing within. Deep down inside there was a big empty space That I now realize you couldn't replace. Something about you helped me see That without love I'm finally free. Free from pain, Free from lies, Free from having tear filled eyes. Without your love I finally see All the horrid things you've come to be As I sit in my corner and think about your lies...
In this life I once felt hope. I sometimes still believe in this, but each moment a little less. I feel abandoned in my despair, and it's difficult to repair. I get broken each day some more, keeping these emotions in my core. I find myself hiding behind this smile, the one that shows my denial. I have thoughts of lonesomeness, which no person should possess. I camouflage this so well; it feels like I'm in hell. I hurt on the inside, trying to push these demons aside. I want something better, to not feel all this terror. I know it can be manageable; there are things that make life tolerable. I just cannot find the thrill, like when I was a child with a one dollar bill. I remember when dreams were imaginable, now it feels like I'm undoubtedly fallible. I wish to find myself soon. This feels as if I'm trapped in a cocoon. I would like to hatch, not be so detached. I need to end this coldness, before death leaves me soulless.
Today as I went home, even if I'm with my friends, I feel so alone. Thinking of you made me feel so blue, for you love her, and I'm in love with you.
This heartache makes me want to cry, but instead of tears, I express it with a sigh, for I don't want them to see that I'm crying, because I'm falling for you badly.
"It's just a little crush," that's what I say, but it's making a big hole when I see you every day, for when I follow your stare, it leads to her, and sometimes, I feel like tears are going to make my vision blur.
I know it's pathetic, but when you talk to me I feel so pleased and happy, but still, I know that you're not going to love me 'cause your heart belongs to her completely.
You're just a fantasy, and you'll never love me in reality. I know that someday you're just going to be a memory that I will remember when I'm lonely.
But someday is not yet today. It still is far, far away, but I wish you'll notice anyway that my heart is breaking, and even though I'm smiling, just look in my eyes, and you'll see that I'm dying.