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  • nobodyishere 177w

    NOBODY


    Know why I call myself nobody?
    Ever felt directionless, passionless, meaningless, worthless?
    I feel that everyday
    Yes I feel happy, satisfied, angry, sad, inspired and all that for fleeting moments too;
    But mostly I feel empty.
    I feel no fire inside.
    I feel like that machine which is working even though the light inside has stopped working.
    I want to scream and I want to sing and I want to dance and run away
    I want to learn and write and I want to help people
    I want to play and skip and travel and swim and dream and get lost.
    But I cant be everything at once.
    And I cant sacrifice cause I feel I am missing again
    I call myself Nobody cause I cant be just Anybody, just one single person .
    Cause nobody is there that I can call my best friend
    All of them hide things from me cause they think I cant relate & understand & solve.
    All of them need Somebody else and not me
    Nobody is there I can call my guide and my direction
    Cause I cannot give them anything in return, I am lost myself
    Nobody is there I can always lean on because nobody thinks they can depend on me.
    Cause Nobody will be affected if i disappear tomorrow
    I may stir a headline and nothing more
    Nobody's life will be affected.
    Thats who I am
    I am NOBODY

    ©nobody
    22 Mar 2018

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    NOBODY

  • nobodyishere 177w

    TUNNELS & PITS


    And just as I thought I am finally lying down, finally going to sleep.
    I am wide wake now.
    Awaken by this deep pit in my stomach.
    No you cannot name everything in life.
    And just as I probe through a gazilion thoughts on my mind,
    Only thing my search always ends on
    How to explain my depraved soul?
    Longing of acceptance.
    Longing of being useful to people around me.
    And not being completely worthless for once.
    Why this feeling that you can never belong?
    That you can never choose.
    That you can never be two persons at once.
    That you can never be enough.
    That however much you try everyday.
    How much you fight your insecurities everyday.
    Every night you will still lie down with eyes wide open
    Tumbling down the tunnel of despair,
    Threatened by this train of maleficient thoughts,
    You created for yourself.

    ©nobody
    18 Mar 2019


    #tunnels #pits #anxiety #depression #mood #insomnia #sleeplessnights #sleep #eyeswideawake #insecurity #despair #maleficient

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    Tunnels & Pits

  • nobodyishere 189w

    DEEP

    I do not do small talk.
    No shallow waters;
    Its either the deep or the shores.
    Talk to me about life & loss,
    Hate & love,
    Science & art,
    Dont just talk weather.

    I do not talk much.
    But could go on for hours about shit that actually matters.
    Life is short. Life is unpredictable.
    Talk about how real feelings & emotions could be.
    Talk about passion.
    Talk about humanity.
    But all we talk about is daily routine life.

    When do we talk about sparks, adventures & universe?
    When do we talk about goals & plans, and how to achieve happiness?
    When shall we talk about truth & lies?
    When do we question on matters?
    When do we talk about our purpose?
    Our friendship? Our relationships?

    How much time until we be comfortable with each other?
    How much time till we bare our souls to each other?
    For life is short. Life is unpredicable.

    ©NOBODY
    23Dec2018

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    Deep

  • nobodyishere 196w

    YOU NEVER KNEW

    You didn't realise did you?
    That you were lucky that you didn't had to see my dark side
    A side consumed by fear, sadness & loneliness

    You were lucky an introvert opened up her thoughts, even if a little, to you
    A broken girl who can't even find complete words to describe her feelings
    What did you even like in me?
    Whatever it was, was an illusion
    For I didn't show you enough for that to happen
    I didn't even open up enough for that

    You didn't realise did you?
    That my 'no' was a blessing in disguise
    No you never thought that did you?
    That all this while I was protecting you
    You'd never realise will you?
    Go on, spread my reputation
    Of a heart as cold as ice ❄

    ©NOBODY
    6Nov2018

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    You Never Knew

  • nobodyishere 196w

    CALL ME WHAT YOU LIKE

    You say I am selfish
    I brazenly agree
    For you cannot love another if you do not love yourself enough

    You say I am too into myself
    Darling I am so selfish to know what is good for you
    That you deserve far better
    And not the mess that is me

    ©NOBODY
    6Nov2018

  • nobodyishere 196w

    CALL ME WHAT YOU LIKE

    You say I play hard to get
    Indeed I am
    These unbreakable barriers around me
    Are nothing but shields to protect my poor heart

    You say I am a quitter
    I was the one who walked away first
    I blatantly agree
    For I knew you would have to leave one day
    "Forever" is a lie
    "Till infinity & beyond" is a hoax
    For I will not let myself be crushed by you
    For I will not be another girl who cries over a guy

    ©NOBODY
    6Nov2018

  • nobodyishere 196w

    CALL ME WHAT YOU LIKE

    Call me what you like
    Think what you like

    You say I am savage
    You say I am rude
    I agree, I am a bitch, a heartbreaker
    But know that in the end i am saving both our hearts, both our lives

    You say I did not give you a chance
    All those little talks were your chances
    You had your chance to prove me wrong
    You had all the chances to prove your care & patience

    ©NOBODY
    6Nov2018

  • nobodyishere 196w

    CALL ME WHAT YOU LIKE

    Call me what you like
    Think what you like

    You say I am savage
    You say I am rude
    I agree, I am a bitch, a heartbreaker
    But know that in the end i am saving both our hearts, both our lives

    You say I did not give you a chance
    All those little talks were your chances
    You had your chance to prove me wrong
    You had all the chances to prove your care & patience

    You say I play hard to get
    Indeed I am
    These unbreakable barriers around me
    Are nothing but shields to protect my poor heart

    You say I am a quitter
    I was the one who walked away first
    I blatantly agree
    For I knew you would have to leave one day
    "Forever" is a lie
    "Till infinity & beyond" is a hoax
    For I will not let myself be crushed by you
    For I will not be another girl who cries over a guy

    You say I am selfish
    I brazenly agree
    For you cannot love another if you do not love yourself enough

    You say I am too into myself
    Darling I am so selfish to know what is good for you
    That you deserve far better
    And not the mess that is me

    ©NOBODY
    6Nov2018