A relationship is like the heartbeat of a person, there is always some sort of ups and downs in a relationship just like the heartbeat And when a relationship have no fights no ups and downs it is considered as a dead relationship! Just like a plain heartbeat indicate "no life".
Also a relationship doesn't need any certificate of perfection, the thing that is important is that, two souls willing to stay together. ❤✨
I knocked on death's door Knowing exactly what I was looking for. I offered myself up on a silver platter But it didn't meant any difference. Death send me back, even before i made it halfway, Saying... I don't want you here Please go away. I was forced back to life. Feeling pure agony As the pills i swallowed got heaved As the cuts on my body continued to bleed And the suicide note i wrote lay there mocking me But i cleaned myself up Pretending to be fine Because even when death doesn't wants you It strikes you deep inside Real hard!!
I am confused. I am trapped. I am no longer myself anymore. I am in a place where I can't even escape.
He was nice. He was everygirls dream. He was so gentle. He was too good to be true.
His very sweet His very charming. His very caring. His very good boy.
His just a man who I can't break up with. His to good to be hurt by someone like me. His to sweet and gentle that you won't evert think of hurting him. His the least person who you don't wanna hurt with.
However no matter how things are perfect, I keep on going back to the past of me which I a missing now. I am confused and stacked in a situation where I don't even know if this is what I really wanted.
Everyday with him is always the same. Feels like a routine. Nothing's new, no more adventures Just us in a room, looking at him sleeping comfortably.
I know it's just me, Missing those day where I have endless nights. Wonderful adventures everyday. Exploring the wildness of the nights.
Long kisses, Long drives, Exploring new places, Trying out new stuffs and crazy things
Why do I missed all of those. Why do I keep on going back to those day where all I see is the big smile on my face. Those reckless nightout, wanna experience those again. Those endless laugh, I want it again.
I just don't know what to do. I feel so lonely even if I am with him. I can't no longer see myself. Trapped in a situation where I can't no longer escaped anymore.