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  • nickoleconnolly18 9w

    Covid

    This pandemic is killing us, making everyday life a struggle to cope with on our own,
    We are no longer allowed to visit anyone, we now do visiting with apps we download on our phone.
    We get fined for not wearing masks, and without one are unable to enter a shop or anything else,
    This Covid 19 life were living is creating a lot of mental health.
    Our children can't even do simple things like go to school or to the park,
    And all sports and recreation are banned, Australia has become so dark.
    Most of the streets are quiet and no one's ever outside at all,
    Australia is becoming a prison,and it's not our fault this hit our shore.
    It's bringing everyone to a stop and jobs are being lost,
    I'm starting to wonder what it all eventually it will come to cost.
    We all are living in limbo and fear is all about, a population scared to leave there homes ,and unable to speak out.
    You expect us all to be ok with having life as we knew it just stop,
    When people Barely have time to do simple things like shop.
    I'm concerned about what will happen once this all comes to an end,
    Well be a country left in ruins and no one will have any money to spend.
    Our economy will crumble most businesses will have to shut down,
    There will be riots and retaliation most of the population will drown.
    Do something drastic now before it's all to late ,
    before we start to panic, before it comes to this in every state.
    Australia needs to wake up and close the borders down,
    Mandatory testing done in every town .
    All people who test positive he made to go into a month of quarantine,
    , and our lives need some normality ,we deserve to still live THE GREAT AUSTRALIAN DREAM.
    Don't lock us all away, let it ride out the way its finally going to ,
    And make things a little less harmful it's all that we can do.
    ©nickoleconnolly18

  • nickoleconnolly18 11w

    Time

    Tick tock tick tick time was going slow,
    But that just means you have time left to make your time here a story that many would love to know.
    Time plays tricks on us, we never get to decide,
    When it's our time for happiness or the path we are destined to ride.
    No one can escape it, it's something that for everyone must come to an end,
    And when it stops we leave the earth, never to come back again.
    Take each day as a blessing and do the things you dream of while you can,
    Don't let your time expire living a life you don't recommend.
    We all leave the people and things we kept behind,
    And always remember time is not something you can simply just rewind.
    Don't settle for less than what you put your mind and heart into,
    And love each and every second of the time that was given to you.
    Tell all you love you love them before they reach there final day,
    Don't wait for the final tick on there clock before you you tell them what you need to say.
    Do kind things and let each minute you have, mean something even if it's just to yourself,
    We all eventually expire and become a photo, a memory left upon a shelf.
    The time spent worrying and wondering about life and all its in betweens,
    Should be spent making moments that some only ever live in there dreams.
    Look around you now, are you happy where you are?
    You still have time to re adjust and recreate the life you've lived so far....

    ©nickoleconnolly18

  • nickoleconnolly18 14w

    It hurts

    I'm stuck here in my silence unable to stop my heart
    from leaking out this pain, I'm beginning to fall apart.
    I don't know what I did to have so much in my life go wrong
    I wonder if i will ever get to the place where my heart feels I belong.
    no one knows the depth of my sorrows or how hard it is to keep up the fight
    or the strength it takes to fake a smile almost every single night.
    no one understands me but really I don't need them to
    all I've ever loved is locked away and I can't find myself until the day he is home to.
    I've been trying to fix the aching and the loneliness
    but all I want is not here, I'm barley coping with this mess.
    why does it always happen, why can I never find my happy place
    why do I go through all this hurt always waiting for his warm embrace.
    nights are cold and lonely I have a million thoughts run through my head,
    I cry silent tears from my eyes alone in this empty bed
    when nothing in the world ever goes good and nothing's ever right
    how do you keep your head up and not give up the fight.
    where do I go when my mind is telling me to give in
    how does no one notice that I'm faking it,I'm tired of never catching a win.
    for once in life I wish that I came before them all
    but I know it's just a dream and still I wait for him once more.
    maybe this will be the last time
    I pray for that day to finally come
    for him to want us more and finally see this lifestyle isn't a happy one.
    sometimes he gives me hope but really it's nothing but a thought
    because he sits alone in jail now we're both prisoners awaiting our sentence when he goes to court.
    when the judge hands out our sentence, once we've done our time
    I hope he finally realises it's time to give up the crime .
    if love is what he has for me then I should be his first choice
    not burried in the shadows and my opinions not be voiced.
    love is only one part of a relationship there are more things that make one last
    I hope he sees the beauty of life once this is all in our past.
    I want happiness and photographs of times spent with our family and friends
    I want BBQs and bonfires, not drugs, crime and deadends
    if he does not choose us over all of this pain
    I know that I have no other option but to leave him as I can't do this all over and over again
    ©nickoleconnolly18

  • nickoleconnolly18 18w

    He's Away

    He's gone again for who knows how long, and I can't see him and he can't come home.
    He's with his brother and he's living alone,
    In Parklea and unable to phone.
    He's locked in quarantine for 2 weeks, with only am hour a day out on his feet.
    Unable to visit unable to call, with no buy up, nothing much at all.
    He has to stay there for a few months atleast,
    While I am alone out here on the streets.
    So lost at the moment and I don't know what to feel,
    Its all to much I wish it was not real.
    But yes here I am waiting for him again, another sentence without my best friend.
    No one to celebrate another one of my birthday's this year,
    No one to hug my husband's not here.
    It's like I'm stuck in a nightmare,
    Unable to wake and no one to care.
    I am losing my mind my heart's a mess,
    I am over these people who bring only more stress.
    They try using the fact that your locked away,
    To try and use me and don't care about my heart being sad and in pain.
    I'm not here for these seagulls to swoop in on and take the pieces of me I have left that didn't break.
    I'm lost and emotional my life seems like it's gone
    My heart lives in prison and we don't know for how long.
    No one really has asked or made sure that I'm ok ,
    They have all been so selfish now I'm pushing them away.
    If other people didn't come inbetween, you'd still be here not only in my dreams .
    I love you so much it's so hard to go on without you,
    But this time I will fight for us and do whatever I can do.
    To get you here and out of that place,
    To bring you home and back in your place.
    Beside me for always is where you belong my heart my love where my smile comes from .
    You own my heart and you always will,.
    Your my favorite of favorites and I'm so in love with you.
    Please make us happy and try get home soon ,
    I'm here waiting for you since the 11th of June.
    Don't ever think that I am going to run away,
    I know where I belong and that's with you my baby.
    We will get past this andake our life together worthwhile and fun.
    Know that I'm here waiting and I know your the one .
    Always forever and forever true,
    I'm in love with you David and your my favourite thing to do.
    ©nickoleconnolly18

  • nickoleconnolly18 21w

    ♡The last day of love♡

    Before you say I lost you, remember i asked you go,
    and tell the truth or say nothing, dont lie to everyone you know.
    most nights while i am home sleeping,
    your out cruizing the streets, or
    omewhere that you shouldnt be messing up someone elses sheets.
    then you come back here annoyed probably with yourself,
    so you start picking at me until i hate myself.
    you find it funny to say everything ugly that you let slip from your face,
    you tell me all about the other girl,you tell me how easy i was to replace.
    well sinve its so easy to go out almost every night,
    take all your things here with you and say to me your final goodnight.
    dont treat me like an idiot or say that im all those horrible things,
    make your nee girl wash your clothes and put up with the drama being with you brings.
    let someone else listen to how not good enough they are,
    and remember that you said your going to be happier so just stay right where you are.
    when your lonely and tired and scattered beyond repair.
    dont knock or call or message because now i no longer care.
    You will see how much i put up with, and how little respect for me you had,
    youll remember how much i did for you and how you treated me so bad.
    you wont want to know im smili g and doing things ive always wanted to do,
    you will feel replaced when you see me moving on like you.
    well dont dare say one word or make me feel like im in the wrong,
    whats wrong is the fact i waited around for you for so long.
    ive spent to many years feeling left out, alone and depressed,
    for you to keep on treating me like i was second best.
    yeah right now i may feel saddened but hey eveyday almost i do,
    and all because i made a mistake by falling in love with you.
    see my heart it was given from me to you to protect,
    not to break, and hurt and have you throw it away, its warmth you only want to reject.
    you have made me realise something and that is that im stronger than ever knew,
    if you would have told me id get through all of the hurt and hatred years ago id nevwr have believed you.
    but look here i am, even if its only just
    , i survived through the hell of it all and its time to readjust.
    to find the me ive been hiding and to get back to being myself ,
    its time i let go of whats weighing me down and stopped being made to walk on eggshells .
    yea we may have had some good times ,not all about you is so bad ,
    but the bad outweighs the good a million to 1 and it makes me sad.
    what do i need to say to you so you stop only caring how things affect only you,
    because you dont listen to what i want and this time im being honest i can no longer stay with you.
    dont think after you read this that you can come back again some day,
    because for ys this is it, i need to go my own seperate way.
    you cant be angry and tell me that im being stupid for wanting to be treated better than i let you keep treating me.
    you can no longer decide for me if im allowed to be happy ,because now im finally FREE..........
    ©nickoleconnolly18

  • nickoleconnolly18 28w

    To Amali

    Youre growing up so fast now and becoming who you were born to be,
    teenager life can be tough, but you can always talk to me.
    ive had you in my life now, for almost 15 years,
    We have shared soo many magical memories and also shed some tears.
    when you were born i promised, that i would always love you, i promise i still do,
    You are more than just my daughter, Amali, you are my heart and my soul to.
    i know there has been moments that have changed our life and where we are,
    And if at times you miss me just know that i am never very far.
    Soon you can decide for yourself the time that we can spend,
    and i hope it brings you home,so this nightmare we can try to ammend.
    I know you do not fully understand the reasons why you were moved away,
    I promise that i did not want it like this, with you ive always wanted to stay.
    things were so unstesdy, our home our everything, and i was trying to hold it all in,
    but instead of talking about it i broke down and suffered silently within,
    Many different things had happend and i had no clue what i was going to do
    ,im sorry that this all happend i never dreamed that things would lead to me losing you.
    That dsy you were stolen, it was the most painful day of my life by far,
    And that is why you now live exactly where you are.
    I am so sorry Amali, that i was unable to bare the pain,
    it was so emotionally draining ,i couldnt cope with the emotions, and my hurt i couldnt contain.
    I went further downhill and lost myself,
    i ended up turning everyone away,
    thank god you stayed with your aunties, i cannot thank them enough for making sure you are always ok.
    yes it does hurt to admit this, but deep down i knew that you could not stay with me at the time,
    and how many things i should have done differenly, if only i was able to see this at the time.
    still no words or wishes, will ever be able to take away your heartbreak, or change what is done,
    i just need you know that i am sorry for all have put you through, and not being a good enough mum.
    i never meant for us to end up like this and for you to go through othe hurt i caused you to go through,
    and nothing i can say will mend all of the pain i was unable to stop, and how i wasnt there for you.
    one day i will tell you everything, i will explain exactly what happend and also why,
    our life that we had together was taken and i will not lie.
    i just wanted to let you know that I have always been here for you, i will still continue to be.
    And i hope you never think i wouldnt help you or listen, you are still my little girl, i love you endlessly Amali,

    ©nickoleconnolly18

  • nickoleconnolly18 28w

    Feelings

    So another night has come to pass,
    And still no you im put last.
    You dont seem to rralise, how can you not understand ?
    Why i get upset ,really ? What dont you comprehend ?
    Why is it you are so careless, and so easy for you to give up US,
    Im emotionally broken while you dont even fuss.
    is it you do not love me , or you are just ttying to punish me &
    i need to knoe because this is far from funny.
    i dont know what to say to you, incase you decide to get up and go,
    but inside o am dying and i need you to know.
    ive been down and depressed , all alone its the worst,
    i just want you for once to put me first.
    dont keep runny away and hiding from me, i Need you to be truthful so i can finally see.
    all i do everyday is think of where you are, worry if youve mooved on or been bashed in a car.
    who knows ehat may happen, it happens more than we know, thatpeople get caught and jail is where you will go.
    i dont want to lose you to jail again, but you need to olen up and tell me why your not my friend.
    we have been together for ages its the least you could do,
    so i dont waste my life, and you can be happy to.
    if you dont see a future and only our past, them were already doomed and our relationship will never last.
    ©nickoleconnolly18

  • nickoleconnolly18 40w

    To david

    So many things keep changing but one thing stays the same,
    its like im running around in circles while you continue to play your games.
    no i dont want to change you but your changing all by yourself,
    you dont care at all about us or how you make me hate myself.
    you go for hours and hours and say its my fault you leave,
    but truthfully its the way you treat me that decides the path we lead.
    you comstantly question everything i say or ever do,
    and when people are aroumd you have them join in with you.
    its not at all funny, for me its horrible and sad,
    i dont get why you do it, or why you hate on me so bad.
    we are supposed to be together, that means we are ment to be a team,
    not on seperate sides of everything and treating each other mean.
    relationships are not easy and it takes effort to get it right,
    im so sick of being at war with you i am over how we fight.
    what will it take ,what do i have to do?
    to get you to stop the way you treat me now,and start being happy again to.
    i dont want to lose you, but we cant keep going on how we are,
    we are worth so much more and i love you for who you are.
    hurting you is hurting me and i want us to be ok ,
    but i cant do it on my own ,i want you to want to stay.
    ©nickoleconnolly18

  • nickoleconnolly18 53w

    Time

    Tick tock tick tick time was going slow,
    But that just means you have time left to make your time here a story that many would love to know.
    Time plays tricks on us, we never get to decide,
    When it's our time for happiness or the path we are destined to ride.
    No one can escape it, it's something that for everyone must come to an end,
    And when it stops we leave the earth, never to come back again.
    Take each day as a blessing and do the things you dream of while you can,
    Don't let your time expire living a life you don't recommend.
    We all leave the people and things we kept behind,
    And always remember time is not something you can simply just rewind.
    Don't settle for less than what you put your mind and heart into,
    And love each and every second of the time that was given to you.
    Tell all you love you love them before they reach there final day,
    Don't wait for the final tick on there clock before you you tell them what you need to say.
    Do kind things and let each minute you have, mean something even if it's just to yourself,
    We all eventually expire and become a photo, a memory left upon a shelf.
    The time spent worrying and wondering about life and all its in betweens,
    Should be spent making moments that some only ever live in there dreams.
    Look around you now, are you happy where you are?
    You still have time to re adjust and recreate the life you've lived so far....
    ©nickoleconnolly18