I know that went a bit long...if you read I would request you to read it complete and understand that instead of speaking trust me it's a lot easier to embrace the universal language of silence both for u and the other person... rest opinions differ and no I didn't dedicate it to someone specific its generalized what I thought... #thoughts#life#diary#ink_spills
Usually everything that we don't understand or never saw before is considered to be a lie. But the scenarios might have been different if we could just look beyond what meets our eyes... Rest the least we can do is not judge others by our own books.. #thoughts#random#diary#lie_of_truth
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It was midnight. The clock was showing 3AM. I felt something uncomfortable which had interrupted my sleeping. I felt like something wet in my lower undies. As I'm habitual, I got my periods was started. And then I get to know about the reason behind the pain that occurred two days ago. I woke up and opened my closet to take out the pad. While changing the pad, I could see the reddish black blood as a wet spot. I attached the pad with my undies keeping the adjustments in my mind. I checked the front, back and the sides that if I had fit the pad correctly or not. Done with this, I came back to the bed and tried to sleep again but the periods pain had came along with it, which was provoking me to wake up and fight with it. The baby sleep had turned out into the temporary insomina. Changing the sides in every five minutes, I was trying and trying...
Any how the time passed and the night turned out into the morning. Doesn't matter if I had remembered the date and was mentally prepared for it but still the pain is pain.The killer pain had increased now which couldn't be removed by any painkiller. But still, I had to fight with it. I woke up for the daily basic routines. Went to washroom, while peeing, I could see the reddish black blood flow on the toilet seat.
The pain and the cramps were increasing by the time. I was clearly feeling the pain in my vagina which was continuously laying me down. The pain and cramps in my pellet,waist,thighs,legs, backs, buts and even in breasts were breaking me. All the inside functions were affecting the outside part of my body. It seemed like someone is spearing the poke inside the uterus and it's walls. I can't have the painkiller as it's not the matter of a single day and having painkillers every month will affect the health. There aren't any perfect ointment to massage over them but some exercises help out in reduction in the pain. The hot water bags help out in this. The period cup, tampons are useful in absorbing the blood. I'm thankful that I don't use leaves and old clothes.
I choose the wooden stool over the bed to sit down. Everytime I check if there is any spot on bed or on my trouser if i sit there. I don't have to touch the auspicious things. I don't have to go to the temple and kitchen. I can't touch pickles as it is said that touching pickle in periods can decay them. I have to wash my clothes by my own.I avoid wearing white clothes because of blood stain. I have to wear a smile everytime to hide the pain. The day passes with the changing mood and different mood swings, but I have to hold them as a secret. I can't share my pain with anyone nor I can talk over it with my father or brother. They say what happened why are you acting weird and sitting like that,but I can't answer them. The periods makes me feel like stranger and untouched at my own house. Or I myself had isolated myself from the crowd. I want to shout but I can't. Any type of tension or stress can affect the date and bleeding. To maintain the hygiene, I have to wash my body part, where the blood comes out from. Everytime I have to wrap the pad into a paper to throw it. Even when i go to buy it, they wrap it into a the newspaper.
I can feel the hot flow of the blood and the thick blood clots. I have to wash every garment that I wore, doesn't matter if for 24 hours or for 24 minutes. I can't eat something sour. I can't eat pickles as it will increase the bleeding. I can't move any where. I feel like lazy. Sometimes I get pimples because of periods. I have to face the orthodox. People with a different mindset say that "you are a girl and periods comes so that you can have a complete rest of 4 to 5 days". But how do I tell them that, "I can have a rest just from daily works but I can't have the rest with all these pains and cramps". I have to check for the leakages and I have to change my pad time to time. Sometimes the pungent smell of blood vanishes the fragrance of pad. The wet pad sticks with the butts and everytime I have to unstick it and bring it back to the position. The night passes in changing the sides but I'm directed to sleep by left side.
Fighting all the night, I move to the second day. I can see the blood spot on the bed sheet. I can see that the bleeding this time was much more than the previous one, that's why it leaked out from the side and it is now on the bed. I have to wash the bed sheet. Earlier I used to cry over this but now I am mature by the mind so I think it's normal but still cursing 'why I am a girl?', shouting and abusing 'why I am a girl?'. I am bound to wash the bedsheet. I am feeling weak but I can't do anything. I call my bestie, she catches me with my voice and ask if I was fine and then I say 'no I am going through my periods'.
She says 'I am also going through it, ok which day?'
'The second day'.
'OMG, it's the second day of mine too'. Laughing over the true best friendship, we are going through it.
Ugh it's itching now and it is itching very badly and irritating me now. Oh no! I just sneezed & I am feeling like the blood is flowing like hell ,does it change into the sea of blood whenever i sneeze? Suddenly my mommy sees a blood spot on my lower that makes me feel embarrassed and she scolds me to change it as soon as possible and says me to take a shower. The bleeding is more than the first day. Also I'm feeling like vomiting and headache. My body is motionless. I use two to three pads a day and sometimes forth one too.
The third day, the bleeding reduced still I'm suffering all the unconditional discomforts. The number of using pads also gets less. This is how these days pass. It's the fourth day when I have to do shampoo to change my impurity into purity. And eat something sweet. The pain has also decreased so as the bleeding. As I know it will bleed less, so I use the small pad instead of the big. I'm free of the periods after the fifth day. A pinch of pain ,I felt on the fifth day as well. My periods are over but just for this month. It will come again and again the every month and I'll have to face and suffer all those things. It's the tragic story of every month that every girl or woman goes through.
So this was the story of periods. It isn't easy the way it looks. It's not easy to bleed for continuous five days and suffer the pain and pressures.. We don't need sympathy, we need some love , hugs and a lot of cares, that's it...
I still remember 10th of December When you cried in front of my porch light. Then I stared in your blue eyes, you asked me how to stop this which haven't started. Tears started to dance on my cheeks. Your hands reach to kiss those drop of feelings but they slip from your smooth hands in the sky of darkness.
I still remember 10th of December when you asked me why our love is not enough? and I said because I'm like a river which can't hold anything for too long, so how can I hold you in my arms till your tears fade away. And then those ropey clouds started to melt into the place of our last promise.
The youngest daughter of a widower merchant She was the most adorable child ever for which She was named " Beauty" rightfully, her siblings Were eleven, she had six brothers and five sisters She was the most lovely, sweet and charming girl Well known for being kind, calm and generous She had a heart of gold, they all were in awe of her Well-read, she was so in love with stories and books Her siblings were obviously envious of her qualities Besides being jealous, they were cruel and selfish too In spite of all this they all lived happily together In their mansion until the misfortune happened
In a tempest the merchant loses his wealth and crew They were forced to move to a small cottage in a village Everyone except Beauty found it difficult to adjust Whereas Beauty was happy to live in harmony with nature Years after the merchant leaves to the town to find His lost ship returned to the coast and claim it as his When asked his children what they want in return They demand luxury gifts except Beauty who asks a rose The merchant finds his ship taken and is unable To buy gifts for his children, on his way return he gets lost He finds a castle and inside a feast set ready on table He accepts the feast and settles there for the night
The next morning before leaving he finds that the castle Grows rose which was never found anywhere else Delighted to have a gift for Beauty, he plucked a rose Right then a Beast appears and tries to kill him He is capture and he explains to the Beast that He only wanted a rose as a gift to his youngest daughter Beast sets him free in one condition, bring one of his Daughters to take his place, disheartened he returns Hearing the news everyone blames Beauty for being Selfish and causing trouble only for a silly rose Beauty agrees to leave for the castle, she arrives And to her surprise is welcomed grand with fireworks
She receives every luxury in the castle from the Beast She doubts is the Beast is foolish to provide her all this Beast is trying to win her heart with everything Soon she got bored of all the riches in the castle Then one day Beast takes her to a different room Which turns out to be a dream come true for Beauty The room is a huge Library with books of all kinds Prettily arranged and she fell in love with this room Everyday she would read many stories to the Beast She finds that the Beast is really soft-hearted inside Then she sees this dream of a handsome prince And a fairy warns her not to fall for outer beauty
She searches the handsome prince everywhere But never finds anyone except the Beast in the castle Until one day she finds a portrait of the prince there Assuming the prince to be dead she decides to leave Beast sets her free only to know he has deeply fallen In love with her, he became ill without her presence in life Back in home Beauty is surrounded by her siblings Asking about the luxuries, but she misses the Beast Unable to stay away from the Beast, she returns To the castle only to find the Beast on the verge of death Beauty realizes her love and fetches him water From the enchanted spring unaware of it's magic
She spends the whole night praying for the Beast's life The next morning to her surprise, she finds that In the place of the Beast is the Handsome prince Of her dreams, but she feels something is wrong The Prince tells her that he was cursed by a witch Who tried to seduce him in the past and turned to A wild Beast, says only true love could lift his curse Beauty is shocked and she is indecisive about this The fairy appears and Beauty tells her, " I saw him, The handsome prince in my dreams but I do not love him It is the Beast, the disfigured wild creature of fear That I love with all my heart, I did not love for appearance"
Now in a dilemma, the fairy asks the prince what he wants " I do not care if I'm a Beast or a Prince as long as I have the love of my life with me, I want Beauty After 24 hours the Prince turns to the Beast again He was convinced now that Beauty do not love him And decides to set her free forever, this is his curse alone But to his surprise Beauty rushes to him, embraces him She says, " I do not want to leave you ever, I don't care If you are a Beast, I have come to love you as this And I want to live with you happily forever in here" Beauty agrees to marry the Beast and kisses him They live happily together in the castle forever...
((His curse was not in his appearance but his acceptance in love.Her choice was to love the Beast in him. ) I personally love the Beast, not the prince, when he turned to the prince i missed the Beast )I can't make this short ^_^)