I write so many stories that no one reads.. No one knows.. So many starts but no endings.. I check reality once in awhile.. Im still there..
#depression #realitybites #mentalhealth #resilience
Depressed? What is that?
I lost my mom when I was 6Then I was molested by a neighbor Then Dad remarriedThen got molested again in a new placeTook a course I didn't like but hey it was freeSkipped too many breakfasts and lunchesI only have money for transport to and fro schoolDinners are the best at homeLeft 1st bf because I was told I was still youngWas on a rebound by the 2nd bfThen a bf who would not let me breathe so we splitThen a bf older by a decade, but didn't want anything to do with me. Then another bf came now husband.. Nice and good but I still want to experience sweet things.. Never mind atleast he's goodFinancially derailed but happyThe Lord is still good. Now you have a job a husband who treats you well yet you need a me timeA job that pays you more than your mortgageStill you post #depressed #needMEtimeI was wondering.. Should I be depressed?©ms_mellie
How do you start a story, without knowing the ending?How will you know the end of a story not knowing the beginning?Ours is just like thisWe never took note of how it started..We just let it go on without expecting an ending.©ms_chief
Sunsets over where we first metThe rain started as we partedNow darkness hover this empty place.©ms_chief
Why am I sad?Didn't I ask for this?Why am I lonely?Didn't I long for this?When you said "what's done is done"Now I'm the broken one.©ms_chief
I let you go slowly..I'm taking my time, breathing in and breathing out with a sighIt may be over for you, but I'm taking it one step at a timeDrowning myself with your memoriesLaughing at your anticsCrying at the moment you're saying goodbyeAngry at your lame reasonsGoing crazy asking why.Yes, it will take some time picking up piecesOf my broken heart, don't worry if you get over me fast..In the time it will all just be part of a "past"#lettersyouneversend©ms_chief
I miss you
Wherever you are, know that I miss youI miss the way you look at me,The times you hold me dear.Now memories are fading fastSome i can still recallSome I can't remember at allYou left early when I was 6Now the bitterness I still can't fixI feel like I lost so muchWhen life is hard to bearI look for someone But then I know no one's thereI miss you when life is toughI miss you when I laughI miss you..©ms_chief
I woke up worried,I looked at the mirror, forcing a smileThen everything's fine.. Now you try..©ms_chief
He was just an excuse to pass the timeUntil he became a habitNow an addiction©ms_chief
The "New Me"
Mornings are always a breath of fresh airWith the sun shining on my hairI breathe in the morning mistAnd breathe out a shoutI love smiling and talking to peopleBut now I don't feel anythingI'm tired of hearing them complainingI'm tired of forcing smileI'm done telling them it's going to be fineI wonder if they even wonder about meHow I feel, if I'm fineHow I was back in the past The new me is numbThe new me lacks epathy The new me..is all new to meI didn't like how it isOr where I am going with thisBut I hope as I travel onI will again mee that personThe person I used to know©ms_chief
He holds me close and whisper to my ear,"Thank you for everything.. Today is lovely"I smiled, I just organized my dream wedding.Only its not mine, but his.©ms_chief