Still confused, right? Ask me what I haven't tried.
Uber and Ola failed to drop me there Flipkart and Amazon failed to buy it Google and Wikipedia failed to search it Tinder and Bumble failed to match it Netflix and prime failed to dramatize it Bukowski and Slyvia failed to to convey it Swiggy and Zomato failed to deliver it
I asked the writers Where do they find it They had no answers for me They said we use imagination But can I trust their fiction?
For a while, I believed them And! It was all a big scam
Why can't they just say What it is And not what they want it to be
Isn't it just Sex wrapped In a beautiful cover?
What about feelings and emotions? You can blame me for being Robot In defense, I tried being human And I am tired now.
Is love like god Present but unproveable
There is no address for him Though one can visit temples
There is no physical form One can burn candles
There is no understanding at all One can pray not to fall.
Don't confuse my rant for begging Maybe it's something I am lacking Or maybe it's all fantasy
Should I look for more testaments? Well! I guess have seen it all Don't have stomach left for More disappointments.
I don't know but it felt like writing There is something which needs to come out It's not that I am good with words But this lust to vent it out To left my mark somewhere, anywhere. It's not weed speaking but a new toxin this time
These writing spells are like random mutations A windy night amidst warm summer A disease from a foreign land
But the Inbox is full now Some msgs need to be discarded Others will be archived here Spam as always will be ignored and burned
No wonder, msgs from Sex is quite repetitive here That's the second most liked and hated word All feelings in attachment here are of self help Many are tagged as satisfaction Rest were out of desperation These mails will keep coming for some more time Better categorise them with Zomato-hunger
To be honest I don't want to write If write then definitely not publish There is already lot of wisdom, pain, happiness and help out there Don't want to create more trash
Maybe! Maybe! Not everything is trash But most of it is, for me atleast And it's hard to filter Can't do much with just 24 hours 2 hands and one brain
Who am I kidding Aren't you another me Hoping and finding answers Chemicals if not answers Puzzled, confused in this wanderland Wasting time and energy
Ok! Time for agree to disagree My spams are your bread and butter Your archives are my gems.