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My anxiety sits in a corner ,As I look at him holding his guitarI hold him in my eyes,Even when we are sitting so farHis melodies have hit the rhythm of my heart,But a left out human would never know love on his part©mequreshi
#hell#darkness#alone#anxiety#depression#power #fighting#lost#innocence#scars #evil
Well that's how I have lost myself,In the darkness of wellsWhere the evil in innocence,sits quiet and dwellsJust one scar to a loved one, Opens the doors of this hellAnd the evil dawn begins with the sound of the morning bell©mequreshi
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I can't cry,I don't know whyIt's all going in But never coming outYour harsh words never leave me aloneUntil they did turn me into a stoneNoone really gets what I meanSo inorder to make them hear ,I need to screamWhere are you ?The only one who listens to this faint voiceFor a little smile I paid a huge priceI'll still never come backJust remembered the left footprints on old tracksIt's this way we are going to be
I talked about you behind your backMade fun of you for what you lackI thought your life was an ideal oneYou cried alone and asked for help from noneI didn't know that you and me were sameSomebody else's fault but ourselves we blameWhen I saw your eyes flooding with tearI wish I could hug you right thereYou and me were always the sameDoing things in seconds,But living them for a lifetime in our brainThinking love is something not meant for us While we sacrificed ourselves for making themIlluminousI hope you heal from what you passOur lives are going now so much fastThey still say they are the victims and cryBut left us to bleed alone and dieNow everyday when I bow my head in sujoodI ask him for your well being and mine too©mequreshi
For me, everyone has a substitute ,But I can't find my escape route How easy it must be for you to replace, A person in your heart who held a special placeThey make friends for their own benefit,Tell me where does the hearts of friends nowhere days fitI have held on to people for years,Those who made me happy and even those who kept me in tearsThis device in my hand hasn't rung in year,Those who left me have won and I'm still in my fear
#army#pain #alone #loneliness#sad
Yes I became mean,Once I stood infront, but was never seenWhen I barely try to become steady,The world is all again readyTo run and crush over meAnd I lie all again in bloodWhen will it all be over ?They say to me what is the rushSo my eyes again begin to floodWhy doesn't my heart hold back ,When I shake my handHow do they forget that heart is glass and not sandDamn its easy for all of youTo get in this phase and pass throughBut I'm still stuck on that floorHiding from her like before
#crying#weak#anxiety#losing people#broken hearts #broken friendship
I can't cry,I don't know whyIt's all going in But never coming outYour harsh words never leave me aloneUntil they did turn me into a stoneNoone really gets what I meanSo inorder to make them hear ,I need to screamWhere are you ?The only one who listens to this faint voiceFor a little smile I paid a huge priceI'll still never come backJust remembered the left footprints on old tracksIt's this way we are going to be I feel dead but they don't see©mequreshi
I remember our uniforms,The layers that seemed to be a burdenI want to carry again the bagFilled with books in dozenHow better was that annoying sound of alarmRather than carrying burden of sins on our armsI was so innocent when I smiled,Smiled from the heart that knew nothingRather than this face I show up everywhereThat has given up in almost everythingThe three of us ate snacks under those benchesSilencing the noise of the crunchesThe diary marked with the homeworkGetting back to sleep from long day of workIt's us three who sat on a same benchDiscussed life after school while having lunchWe were complaining of the tomorrows scheduleProtesting in our own schoolWe thought life would be that coolBut now we know we were nothing but foolsDeciding of writing present or absent How many calls to our homes were sentAll of us wanted to end this all in a diveWho knew for a little air we would struggle to surviveAnd while I write I look at the old me That had no more struggles than waking up for school againAnd now the me ,That wants to end itself to overcome the painI remember all of your faces the same as that last day Our hearts connected to those memories in the same way...Some of us still together ,Some of us in other wayCan I have back that one school day?
Why is this night so long?Longer than the usual ,I can't stop thinking about us,I have become so delusionalI'm pushing the good ones awaySeeing your face in them,They say I cry out just for you,How you became that girl and when ?I suffer this way And you don't even address your wrongWaiting again for my apology I wait for it but you take so long©mequreshi