Mirakee
EXHAUSTION
6 months after your funeral,
I still listen to all your favorite songs.
I decorate your room with your favorite colours.
I'm still running out of breath,
Chasing after the shadows you left behind.
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AMEN
I crave to be listened to-
To be heard,
Even when I do not speak.
So, let us pray:
To man up in the sky
(Or woman).
Prayer is therapeutic for me;
To sit, kneel or stand
And voice out to a listener.
Imaginery or not,
I feel His presence
Or I want to feel it.
I hear His voice speak to me.
I don't mind that people
Say that it is just my instinct.
I want to drink wine and
Marry just to fuck my wife
All to the Glory of God.
Amen.
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THE WOMEN WHO DO NOT COVER THEIR HAIR, WOULD NOT MAKE HEAVEN.
I smoke tobacco
Because I adore the smell
Of burning incense.
It is my way of worship.
I watch the alter boys
Walk majestically and
It makes me wonder if
Walking faster would be a sin.
The angels sing "Alleluia"
Or "Hosanna" and
I imagine that a different language
Is spoken in heaven.
The solemn music
From the church choir
Makes me long for heaven,
Perhaps it would be so peaceful.
Heaven is for those
who are meek and mild.
Heaven is for the women
Who cover their hair.
Heaven is for the ones
Who go bankrupt
from tithing every thing they have
And still pray for abundance.
Heaven is for the ones
Who'd rather suffer in silence,
Than voice out their oppressions
And their fears.
Fasting is a ritual for me,
Blessed is he who endures.
I would starve for my prayers to be answered,
It is my way of worship.
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FLOWERS FOR YOUR GRAVE: AN ODE TO FRIENDSHIP.
Tonight, I celebrate the man I love,
Basking in the memories of love that once failed.
Tonight, I am grateful for the ones who stayed.
As well as the ones who left.
Ode to Sunrise - the dawn of a new beginning!
The earthy scent of the morning dew
Brings me all the peace I ever need within.
And the blueness of the sky
Becomes my favorite color each new day.
Ode to nightfall - the end of an incessant era!
Even the dark sky is full of stars.
The cool wind soothes me in places you never have.
The temporary darkness reminds me of your presence in my life.
Ode to the ones who stayed!
They shall not be soon forgotten.
Ode to the ones who left!
I shall make a bouquet of flowers for your grave.
I will dance tonight, wild and free with you, my love.
I will sing praises of the blessing you've made of me.
I will adorn you in all the love of my heart.
Tonight, darling, sing with me.
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Lesson #7 (finale)
#7
Find something to be grateful for.
Be grateful for the lessons you learned rather than regret the mistakes you made.
Be grateful for the wind of the day rather than murmur about the heat of the sun.
Be grateful for the ones who stayed rather than cry over the ones who left.
In every situation, find the littlest of the things to be grateful for because even caged birds sing.
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PART SEVEN (FINALE)
You'd know you're free when the things that bothered you, don't bother you anymore, when the things that used to hurt you, don't make you feel pain anymore. You'd know you're free when you can spread those wings and finally fly. Oh, you'd know you're free when you can finally breathe sufficient air without heartache.
You'd know you're happy when you can finally laugh from the deepest depth of your soul. you'd know you're free when you see the one who hurt you and you're able to let go.
You'd know you've healed when the memories of the past, brings you peace instead of pain.
I am glad to say to y'all today, that my healing process has finally come to an end. I could not have done without each and everyone of you. The likes, comments and reposts, each of them meant a great deal to me.
Thank you for being with me, every step of the way. Let's make new memories... together
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The final part is here!! Are you ready for the final story of #mydepressionjourney?
Share your story today. Write a story or poem about a weak point in your life with the hashtag #mydepressionjourney and tag me!
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Lesson #6
#6
Exercise often: breathe in...and out
It is medically proven that exercises strengthen one's body and mind and of course, the mind is a powerful tool.
Keeping your body fit and your mind sharp is a key to making you feel powerful and appreciating yourself more.
Find exercises or fitness programs that you can work with, regularly. You can begin with deliberately taking long breaths on a daily basis.
Give love to your body and mind.
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PART SIX
She was willing to help me but I was not ready to help myself. Not yet.
After some self assessment, I decided to direct my drinking urges to soda only. I drink a lot still but I drank a lot of soda and soft drinks, instead. Gradually, I was able to redirect my drinking urges to the love of water. It was not long enough until I started drinking water the way I drank alcohol - that was when I knew that I was ready to heal, I was ready to help myself, I was ready to move on but I still thought about the pains that led me to that point in my life and when I think of it I'd suddenly have rapid heartbeats at random or spontaneous palpations and hormonal imbalance.
That was the reason for my unnecessary mood swings. At that point in my life, I thought I was stuck.
I was stuck in a phase of thinking randomly about sad things but it all stopped when I began cutting off attachments with toxicity little by little; my toxic friends, toxic music, toxic discussions, I cut them off and once again I was ready to step into liberty and reality, I was ready to leave my little bubble of uncertainty and misery.
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Today is another day to try again, I hope you get it right
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Read More#clothing #wod #writersnetwork
Thank you @writersnetwork for the kind repost!!..��������From: Your Favorite Hoodie
Maybe I'm long forgotten, maybe not though it feels like I am, folded haphazardly among other old clothes you no longer wear. I remember when you bought me, I was everything you needed you said so yourself. I was the perfect colour, a pale blue, your favorite. I was warm and cozy perfect for the winters. Remember the first winter I spent with you, you snuggled with me almost every afternoon with your hot chocolate and a random book from your shelf.
Then the winter passed with zephyr blowing, you neatly folded me and kept me with your other winter clothing. Next winter I was with you once again, hugging you close to me, so you could be warm. But then something changed, this time spring arrived early, I was sad, but you didn't put me away with your winter clothing anymore.
You started wearing me everyday. In summers, under blazing sun, morning to evening whenever you went out. I was confused, but nonetheless happy. Then one day I saw you crying with blood trickling down from both your wrists, I felt sad , I wanted nothing more to comfort you with a tight hug. From that day I was your wall that concealed your secrets.
Then another winter arrived, I was no longer the beautiful pale blue coloured hoodie, I was almost ashen like a corpse. But I could feel you were happy, I would no longer feel those bandages around your wrists, you were smiling once again. I was happy to see your bubbly self once again. This time when the spring arrived, I was not kept with your other winter clothes , I was thrown, folded clumsily in a box with worn out clothes.
I understood my time has come, but you didn't throw me away like the others, you just shifted me to your attic, so maybe, maybe there is hope that we would snuggle again in future with hot chocolate and a random book.
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Read MoreI'd not want to regret falling in love being loved.
I'd not want to go back to the past either to make things right. I'd rather make a present.
LOVE RULES
1) When I'm busy you have to understand even if your heart hurts you have to. I'll do the same. There's dawn after dusk.
2) If we stitch our soul with the needle and thread call love. There's always the option of tearing up. No, you aren't caged. You have the freedom to choose between love and loyalty.
3) I need assurances that you're not disappearing any time soon, I'm always scared not just for losing you but also not getting a way to find out. But then again, What is guaranteed except death?
4) Even if we end up losing each other. I'd never want you to lose as a friend that means if staying friends is only the way left then it's fine by me. I'd rather stay friends than to lose you completely.
5) Acceptance is the key to love. For me, love is acceptance. I accept your affection and also wrath. Love and also hate. I accept you the way you are your ability as well as weakness. Everything you have to offer I'm ready to hold.
6) Understanding, I do understand you even if I pretend not to, trust me. You make me so comfortable and happy. Since love makes us blind we have to understand each other situation and condition act accordingly.
7) I don't know if there's a thing as such exist but let's assume it does. You have every right to unlove me. If falling in love was a choice I would still fall for you. I would. So, don't hate me for choosing something against you if falling out of love isn't a choice then I would still betray a choice.
8) I believe in the power of the moment if tomorrow you judge me for today's action than trust me. I would unlove you a thousand times more than the love I ever did.
9) I love you in the present that belongs to me future doesn't past is gone.
10) Don't call me a cheater if someday I had to choose someone who isn't you. If you ask me an ordeal of my innocence. Will you be able to smoke the ashes of my love?
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#wod #regretsLove rule
Don't call me a cheater if someday I had to choose someone who isn't you. If you ask me an ordeal of my innocence. Will you be able to smoke the ashes of my love?
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I am the same person who owns that little paper inside the bottle jiggling on the shore, waiting for someone to hold, read and find me while I am still waiting beyond.......
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Crying myself to sleep
Wishing the night would keep my secrets
Hoping the moon hides my sins
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Heaven or hell
If we ever meet again
Let’s make sure
We hold each other’s hand
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