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  • lovesunflower20 1d

    To my beloved
    ➖➖➖➖➖➖

    Hallo love,
    How are you doing?
    It's been really long since i heard anything from you
    I hope your doing..just fine without me
    That's why you never respond to my latter's..i wrote you hundreds of letters all this time but,
    Today is the last time I'm writing to you so read carefully my love
    It's a last letter from me to you.

    It was midwinter,
    Streets covered with snow..the sky look beyond beautiful that day for some reason,
    It must have been my imagination but i could hear the wind
    howling across the street..i was fifteen at that time it was just me,
    when i had nothing to accompany me,
    i couldn't know what future holds for me..and then you came,
    like a prophetic angel thrusting your hand at me with confidence
    that was my first time encounter with you..my heart thumped running towards you with deep intensity,
    in that moment i couldn't take my eyes of you..as you walked away like a warm sun that i would follow to the end of..universe's it was when i realized what,
    "Falling in love" meant
    it was cold midwinter day but in that freezing moment my fast
    unrequited love bloomed like spring,
    but you pretend not to know anything it's make me more curious to know what you feel through me,
    you can resist my love and behave very well in front of me..,
    as well as makes sing that you had feelings for me?
    your every single gesture they float in my heart..and now I'm standing in ashes of unrequited love of mine,
    maybe it is simple for you to not dig deeper inside my heart,
    cause no matter what i do..my love it's can't reach you at all
    and now the pain i got from loving you become my everything..but your millionaire away from me,
    all of this time i spend waiting for you..my youth passing by me..still i couldn't get angry at you for some reason,
    i cried, i cursed myself..but it's been really long time since I've seen you my love,
    so it scare me a little..cause your the first person whose close to me yet your like a stranger who seems so far away...,
    i write this goodbye letter to my beloved..who may i never met in future,
    if i surrender now maybe it doesn't hurt like before, all or this emotions..that i thought had hardened up inside me,
    suddenly weakened...and now i want to end all this..instead of your an significant other i want to go back to being..a person who never knows you,
    i can do that right?love
    it doesn't matter now where you are..I'm not going to find you this time,
    it's okay even if hate me..for this
    just don't be hurt love now that I'm writing you this later..it seems the feelings i have had for you are gone..the nameless love of mine..end's here,
    and i don't think i need your love in my life anymore
    Goodbye
    not yours anymore
    ©️SUNFLOWER

    #goodbyes #wod


    P.S: I was trying to write a Goodbye letter but..I'm not good at this ����

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    Goodbye

    ©lovesunflower20

  • lovesunflower20 1d

    GOODBYES

    (G)
    good for nothing
    (O)
    one day everything ends
    (O)
    Obviously it's just
    (D)
    Dream
    (B)
    Baby
    (Y)
    Your better of by yourself
    (E)
    every damn day
    (S)
    surviving.
    ©lovesunflower20

  • lovesunflower20 3d

    (M)
    Machine who never done anything wrong
    (E)
    Everything disappeard
    (M)
    Mind full of sad thoughts
    (O)
    Ocean full of sadness
    (R)
    Remember I'm trying my best
    (I)
    I'm invisible to them
    (E)
    Everything leads to
    (S)
    Sorrow and pain

    They say happy childhood memories
    I'm sorry to say i don't have any
    No matter what i do
    I always end up being ungrateful fool
    I'm not abandoned as a child..by my family
    I'm the unnoticed one
    I never knew what is like living my life with happy memorie's
    But now I'm twenty something... I still have no happy memorie's
    Yet i can create mock-up memories
    To tell people that I'm the happiest
    But it's not good enough to make me feel better
    Cause in the end they are all bunch of lies .
    ©️lovesunflower20

    #memories #wod


    P.S ":(editing this picture take more time than I ever thought ��


    @writersnetwork Thank you for the kind like ��

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  • lovesunflower20 4d

    {KILL ME TO HEAL}
    ___________________

    DARLING,
    When the night is falling
    And i have lost my way to live
    Come and hug me like you used to do
    Darling..let your warmth makes me feel like I'm alive again
    At this short time i felt as if everything
    I'd done up to this moment was being negative
    The thing's i thought would be okay,
    To give up as long as i had my darling
    The effect i made to avoid getting criticized..for loving you
    I'm not good enough for you though
    I realized then, that trying not to hurt someone
    Can also lead to pain
    You know i can protect you darling when everything goes worse again
    But now I'm tried of everything,
    So let me ask you one thing darling
    What do you desire?
    Don't tell me my sorrowful feelings?
    If you look back, in the past
    The day we met..become nostalgia I'm so fascinated by you,
    Even the hopeless destiny..take of my breath away
    If i told you show me how to live happily,
    There's an overflowing distance between us
    I described this feelings to you one day
    And now it has come to feel completely natural
    We will feel this bits of warmth while next to each other
    In my funeral perhaps...,
    I'm not so weak as i seem..but when it's come to my darling i don't know what to do..maybe someday i show you,
    What my love can do
    Mark my words,
    My present..future..are within you
    My wishes for you burst out of me
    I can't say them to you..but they don't disappear with me
    So darling

    "Come and kill me to heal
    Darling I'm not that good as you believe
    I commented lots of sin
    I'm not that naive as you think
    Darling
    So come
    Kill me to heal
    Cause i think your happiness, in my demise
    Ohh come on darling
    Kill me to heal
    It's not even a big deal
    Anymore,
    And i promise i will spend all my 8th life with you
    Now give me permission to die
    Darling"

    There's no stopping for me even though i have to go far away from you
    It's all for protecting..your heart,
    I've been crying darling still I'll face death
    I'll always protect you,
    The heart of mine it started to shine when i saw your bright smile
    Promise me darling you don't cry when i depart this life,
    You know what i mean
    DARLING
    Kill me to heal,
    ©️Lovesunflower20

    #lame :'(

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  • lovesunflower20 5d

    Closed eyes,
    Heart is still beating
    But i don't feel alive anymore.



    sunflower

  • lovesunflower20 1w

    @tamanna3
    "MY MOON"

    She shine more than anything
    Cause in the dark days of mine
    She helped me see the light
    Thank you isn't enough
    So be happy my love
    She's more beautiful than anything i ever seen
    Welcome to this purple world
    From today forward you are my purple moon flower,
    People say
    Romeo save me I'll been feeding so alone
    But for me
    My moon is enough tho
    No matter..rain or shine
    She's never gonna find
    Even if she turn around this words
    They fly down to her in a mere whisper
    I'll write my own praise
    For you my moon
    You light my way when i think about you
    I feel like I can do anything
    It's different from everything..i feel like i can do anything
    No matter what comes from me,
    I don't run away from you again
    If i embrace all of your..love and warmth
    Just as they are
    I'll take off flying into the dazzling sky
    To meet my moon
    I want to make my dream come true..,
    I'm sure you're waiting for me too
    So let's make a promise moon..even if we are growing
    Futher and further
    Don't forget about me moon
    It's a letter...
    from sunflower to her moon
    **********************************
    HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LOVELY MOON!!!
    Love you so much ��
    Ok I'm gonna be honest now
    You deserve so much better than..what i give you;(
    Sometimes i feel like i don't deserve you at all..cause your everything i ever need..does this makes me selfish?
    Like we are so different how come we are even friends?
    You deserve the whole world,
    I have no words to describe how important you are..in my life
    Your existence has made my life blissfull..your like
    Breath of fresh air..the pisk me up of my life moon
    Our friendship means everything to me..��
    And I'm wishing you HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR FRIEND ��
    HAVE A BEST BIRTHDAY EVER LOVE ��������
    I LOVE YOU ��

    P.S: I'm sorry I'm late ������moon sarangheyo my Baby ❣
    Lots of love from your sunflower ��

    #happymoonday
    #tambirthday

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  • lovesunflower20 1w

    |Bad symptom of paradox|

    A thread connecting lies in life
    It's not something as grandiose
    As having grand treasures...,
    I won't want this
    "Paradox"
    Cause
    I'm so tired of everything
    Where is my peace hiding?
    I never wanted anything more than happy ending
    Horrifying and cruel truths lay ahead
    Before i could prepared...myself
    When...
    I'm surrounding of viewed lies
    A black and derk breeze started to blow in my life
    A life that i had only been focusing of having
    Sorrow and grief it's horrifying
    The light of my life has all vanished
    And no one by my side
    Even if I'm enveloped in paradox and get lost in darkness
    There no one for me to safe
    Even if i can no longer be found in peace
    Don't let me get lost in..paradox it's have dullness
    Whenever i stuff my painful wounds into light
    There jealousy
    Passing,
    Coldness..get started to show off
    There was lies in everything
    And I'm suffering
    The vicious cycle went
    On and on
    Endlessly rage begot conflict
    And now i no longer sing
    As i watered to the dark flower stop blooming
    In a garden that i planted
    Is there any place called,
    Unparalleled heaven exists?
    I what to go there i wanted to get rid of this
    Unpresentable sorrowful
    Paradox.
    ©️lovesunflower20


    #paradox

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  • lovesunflower20 1w

    #running to the unknown ��‍♀️

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    I was running
    Through the darkness
    Cause it's hard to breathe again
    I have no where to go
    I don't have a home
    And
    Nobody knows
    I was running into the unknown
    Where should i go
    Cause
    I wasn't looking where I'm going
    I'm just running
    I don't even know
    Where is the right line though
    Where should i go
    A time where i don't feel like there was
    Something I'm missing
    Where can i find a empty road
    Tell tell
    Me?
    Where can i find a empty road
    What the hell did i do
    I left the place called home
    And i
    cross the red line
    Maybe don't wanna come back
    With an empty heart
    Can you feel it though
    Where can I go?
    ©lovesunflower20

  • lovesunflower20 1w

    My mind is blank, as if my heart has melted.
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  • lovesunflower20 2w

    ♡ HER MISERY♡



    She feels sadness
    but her tears don't come
    what is she!
    sad?
    confused?
    bored?
    lost?
    she doesn't know yet
    depression inside her
    loneliness lives rent free
    the weep is to less
    in depth of being alive
    did she want to live her life like this?
    perhaps
    more than yesterday...
    less than tomorrow...,
    the first thought came to mind
    is that,
    she can't give up her habit of being isolated
    she dear, without fear
    what is meaning of all this
    how should she live when she have
    no confidence in herself
    it's so lonely she whispered
    the weakness that she have
    only shows her the painful things
    takin her dead heart
    only quietness has left
    every good thing she lost
    only bad things has remain
    this isn't enough to make her alive
    above everything
    she just longing for loneliness
    the nostalgia of being happy again
    become a painful memory
    everything Randomize
    cause she's doubtful
    and she cannot run away
    that's why she
    swallow her all pain
    don't look at her with those irritating eyes
    she always loved nothing but loneliest thing's
    Surrounding of grief
    she embraced all the darkness
    with a smiling face
    she doesn't want anyone to know
    so keep it a secret.
    ©️lovesunflower20



    #she

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