libertine13

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��️‍��bisexual poet & screenwriter from NYC��️‍��

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  • libertine13 42w

    @sakshi_02 @diyabedi @loveless_death66 2chinmayee @ karishmamohanty@ divine insidemy mind

    Recently my heart doctor implanted a device called a lloop recorder near my heart which monitors my heartbeat and found that my heart had stopped for 4 seconds while I was sleeping one night and then implanted a pacemaker to keep my heartbeat at a regular tempo,yet this device cannot help the heartache I feel for my fiance and our two adorable puppies... circumstances of my health are causing my residence to make me move into an assisted living facility to better care for my recent health issues and this facility will take my entire income for rent and I despair so because it puts my plans of uniting with my fiance and puppies on an undetermined hold and my leave me unable to support them, which makes me very sad,I wrote this while dwelling on these sad @sakshi_02 @diyabedi

















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    heart disabled
    implanted with electrical beat
    still this does not keep heartache
    from breaking it even more
    why are doors forever closing
    dismembered life joy is apposing
    dosing it seems in eternal nightmare
    screaming unfair, though I know itis simply karma
    past misdeeds beating at my armor
    all I adore, my poorly attended core
    forever anxious and insecure
    losing many battles
    yet I sware to win this war
    sore heart stopped for 4 seconds
    I reckon love's pain stained it terminally
    infernally sorrow's rain reigns eternally
    ©libertine13

  • libertine13 53w

    #mywords blurred/varied

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    Grey today
    Coronavirus made by one percent greedy grotesque liars
    I'm seeking the flesh interface
    Because of withered faith
    A portal to escape this mortal coil
    Spoiled this world lays in waste
    All grace soured deflowered
    By rich selfish power's
    All the pure of heart's tears shower over these dead hours

  • libertine13 61w

    @rashi100108 @athena21 @2chinmayee @karishmamohanty @shivamarora616 #ceesreposts #julietscorner

    blissful abyss (mortal life)
    __________________________

    an allusion to illusion
    of confusion laced delusion
    absolution's lying face laid bare

    a fraction of rapture
    now saturated waste fracture
    captured dying graceless affair

    stare blindly into blissful abyss
    kindly kissing despair's empty wish
    isn't this the unfair design of mortal life

    ©libertine13

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    blissful abyss (mortal life)

    an allusion to illusion
    of confusion laced delusion
    absolution's lying face laid bare

    a fraction of rapture
    now saturated waste fracture
    captured dying graceless affair

    stare blindly into blissful abyss
    kindly kissing despair's empty wish
    isn't this the unfair design of mortal life

    ©libertine13

  • libertine13 61w

    @rashi100108 @athena21 @2chinmayee @karishmamohanty @shivamarora616 #ceesreposts #julietscorner

    (Relationships are delicate things, especially when the individual's have had challenging lives separately. Recently my gorgeous and amazing fiance, (in pic below) who is transgender and has dealt with bullying, bias and insecurities, got jealous because she thought I had called her friend baby. Now this might seem trivial to most, but understanding all my love has been through and knowing this nickname is special to her, I immediately cleared up that it was a message for her sent to the wrong person and wrote these quick four lines for her. Honesty, understanding and acceptance are the keys to keeping true love alive, as well as knowing how care for your lover when they might be upset.)


    ��️‍��my only baby��️‍��
    ______________

    I love you more than infinity

    you breathe pure joy inside of me

    our hearts entwined by destiny

    you will forever be my only baby

    ©libertine13

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  • libertine13 62w

    @rashi100108 @athena21 @2chinmayee @karishmamohanty @shivamarora616 #julietscorner #ceesreposts

    (In the 90's I played in a couple alt. rock/punk bands in which I wrote music and lyrics, played guitar and was one of two vocalists. I had lost all copies of recordinngs and lyrics, but just recently I ran into one of my former band mates who still had some of our songs. The piece that follows is the lyrics of one of these songs and shows where my head and writing were at the time.)


    sanity's station
    _______________


    amphetamine abortions
    given by martians
    glycerine contortions
    mauling blue orchids
    morbid fascinations
    orchestrated gyrations
    masturbation striated
    consecrated vibrations
    vivisected libations
    vitalized in claymation
    PlayStation compromise
    exorcized with hesitation
    sore elation denied
    super sized decimation

    sanity's station now dies
    reflected in red eyes
    disguised inbred sensation
    beneath the world's looping cries

    ©libertine13

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    sanity's station

    amphetamine abortions
    given by martians
    glycerine contortions
    mauling blue orchids
    morbid fascinations
    orchestrated gyrations
    masturbation striated
    consecrated vibrations
    vivisected libations
    vitalized in claymation
    PlayStation compromise
    exorcized with hesitation
    sore elation denied
    super sized decimation

    sanity's station now dies
    reflected in red eyes
    disguised inbred sensation
    behind the world's looping cries

    ©libertine13

  • libertine13 62w

    @rashi100108 @athena21 @2chinmayee @karishmamohanty @shivamarora616 #ceesreposts


    (This poem is from the "lost notebook" I had come across circa 2011-2012, I no longer feel this way but understand some still feel lost and suffer. You are not alone, things will get better eventually if you keep faith and remain a good person at heart.)


    these dead dreams
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    out in the cold
    bold soul shivers
    rivers of tears flow
    sorrow's blow delivered

    hindered by memories
    squandered my destiny
    detest these dead dreams I ponder

    ©libertine13

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    these dead dreams

    out in the cold
    bold soul shivers
    rivers of tears flow
    sorrow's blow delivered

    hindered by memories
    squandered my destiny
    detest these dead dreams I ponder

    ©libertine13

  • libertine13 63w

    @rashi100108 @athena21 @2chinmayee @karishmamohanty @zsa_zsa_celestial_ #ceesreposts


    my black heart
    _______________


    force the truth
    through tiny cracks
    the fractured stone
    of my black heart

    hark,
    where has the rapture gone

    captured blindly,
    binded in darkness past


    ©libertine13

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    my black heart

    force the truth
    through tiny cracks
    the fractured stone
    of my black heart

    hark,
    where has the rapture gone

    captured blindly,
    binded in darkness past


    ©libertine13

  • libertine13 63w

    @rashi100108 @2chinmayee @karishmamohanty @athena21 @zsa_zsa_celestial_ #ceesreposts

    (This is a favourite poem by one of my favourite poets, Dylan Thomas)

    The force that through the green fuse drives the flower
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    The force that through the green fuse drives the flower
    Drives my green age; that blasts the roots of trees
    Is my destroyer.
    And I am dumb to tell the crooked rose
    My youth is bent by the same wintry fever.

    The force that drives the water through the rocks
    Drives my red blood; that dries the mouthing streams
    Turns mine to wax.
    And I am dumb to mouth into my veins
    How at the mountain spring the same mouth sucks.

    The hand that whirls the water in the pool
    Stirs the quicksand; that ropes the blowing wind
    Hauls my shroud sail.
    And I am dumb to the hanging man
    How of my clay is made the hangman's lime.

    The lips of time leech to the fountain head;
    Love drips and gathers, but the fallen blood
    Shall calm her sores.
    And I am dumb to tell the weather's wind
    How time has ticked a heaven round the stars.

    And I am dumb to tell the lover's tomb
    How at my sheet goes the same crooked worm.

    -Dylan Thomas

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    A Poem by Dylan Thomas

  • libertine13 63w

    @rashi100108 @athena21 @2chinmayee @karishmamohanty @zsa_zsa_celestial_ #ceesreposts


    our dimmer love
    ________________


    dark and light combine tonight
    come bind your heart to me
    evil and good, two tethered tight
    together our hearts braided be

    breathe my shadow into your glow
    cry shallow lust and believe
    bleed your shimmer upon horror show
    our dimmer love it sets free

    ©libertine13

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    our dimmer love

    dark and light combine tonight
    come bind your heart to me
    evil and good, two tethered tight
    together our hearts braided be

    breathe my shadow into your glow
    cry shallow lust and believe
    bleed your shimmer upon horror show
    our dimmer love it sets free

    ©libertine13

  • libertine13 64w

    @rashi100108 @athena21 @2chinmayee @karishmamohanty @zsa_zsa_celestial_ #ceesreposts


    (During and after my traumatic youth, I was plagued with severe anxiety, depression and a wealth of unreasoned insecurities. This poem captures my emotional state during these times.)


    anxiety's aftermath
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    sensitive since birth
    out of place on earth
    cursed faithless in self

    a wealth of sorrow
    fearing tomorrow
    wallowing in anxiety's aftermath

    ©libertine13

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    anxiety's aftermath

    sensitive since birth
    out of place on earth
    cursed faithless in self

    a wealth of sorrow
    fearing tomorrow
    wallowing in anxiety's aftermath

    ©libertine13