Quotes and poetry by kae_mar

I don't remember|I don't know

Have you ever struggled to
See yourself
Remember what you like
Remember who you are
Know your face
Feel your feet
In your place?
Have you ever failed to
See yourself
Remember your dreams
Remember your tastes
Sit by yourself
Feel the wind
On your face?
Do you like apples?
Do you prefer books to movies?
Hiking to swimming?
Simple snacks or big meals?
Who am I?

kae_mar 13w

Down in the valley

I've been in the valley for so long
The ground has changed
It's boggy now, muck and sand
I lost my shoes
I've fallen, struggled to stand
There's mud on my face but
I can't feel it
I just want to get out
Free of this quagmire
Which way is out?
How do I get out?
Can someone take my hand?
No one is coming.

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kae_mar 26w

Take me back

I want to go to the park
And sit on a low swing
A little too small
Drag my shoes in the dirt
And think about
Times of innocence
Remember childhood freedoms
And laughter.

I want to go to the shore
And sit just where the waves
Don't reach
Sift sand through my fingers
And remember the hopeful
Days of new adulthood
Remember how big the world seemed
Almost limitless.

I don't want to sit at home
Facing disappointments
Thinking about
All my failures
Remembering childhood joys
And youthful possibilities.

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kae_mar 28w

Moody

Mood one: Eek Omg huff huff
Panicked, anxious breaths

Mood two: Idon'tcareIdon'tcareIdon'tcare!

Mood three: . . ./Elevator music/Pause/Please hold for the next available emotion

Mood four: Pfffttttt, shrug
Nothing matters anyhow.

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kae_mar 29w

Martians

So many things
In life I don't understand
Chief among them are
The ways of Man

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kae_mar 30w

Resignation

I've always felt
I could die any time
Any day
And it'd be okay
Maybe
Because
What's the point
Of anything
Anyway?

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kae_mar 34w

Anonymity

Sometimes I feel like
I want to run away
Away from everything
And everyone I know.
I feel, if I can lose myself
Amongst strangers
In a new place
Where I've made
No memories
Where no one knows me
I can better pretend
Not to know myself.
I can more easily bury
Everything I know.
I feel, I want a new self.
I want to learn about her
And come to love her
A little more each day.
I want to invoke
Specific amnesia.
I want to be anonymous
Even to myself.

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kae_mar 35w

#PandemicDaze #SoTired #LivingLife #COVID19

Joie de vivre

Something is draining
My energy.
There's a weight
Pulling me down.
I don't care.
I don't want.
I don't know.
Listless
Dispirited
Apathetic
Anxious.
It's Life.
Life is killing
My will to live.

kae_mar 35w

Being

What is your purpose?
Why are you here?
What do you do every day
That is worthwhile and worthy
Of note?
Who holds you in regard?
Who is it who is grateful
For your being?
Do you see yourself?
Are you pleased?
Are you content?
Are you satisfied?
Are you glad
To be you?

kae_mar 36w

Trust me

I tell myself a lie every day

It's ok

I'm ok

I say

But my mind is all awhirl

Thoughts flurry

Feelings swirl

Anxiety

Worry

Regret

I can't be calm

My heart beats fast

My patience snaps

I'm angry

I'm sluggish

I don't want to do

My favourites

I pace rooms

Touch things

I'm restless

'It's ok'

I say

I tell myself

'You're ok'

I lie to myself

Every day

©kae_mar