You stop your work, you take time out of your busy schedule to text, call, plan a visit. But when it's not reciprocated it means you both are not the same page. You are bound to get hurt one or the other day. Stop it, as soon as possible, as soon as you realise this.
I get it, we all got our heartbroken once or twice when we really loved someone with all our heart. I get it, it hurts, it hurts very bad. We spent nights crying hoping to forget them. I get it, we all have kept our self respect aside once in our life to beg someone to stay with us, but they never did.
I get it, we are scared to fall in love again, to invest time and energy into something which can fall apart any day, to keep efforts for someone.
But I don't get why do people tend to choose the easy path without any hurt, without any expectations, you get all you want, they say. I don't know if it's right or wrong but does it make sense.?
At the end of the day we are humans and we are bound to feel these emotions. I can still see traces of true love here and there. I still believe that true love exists somewhere in corners of your heart. Don't let it go. Hold onto it.
P. S: I am not judging anyone guys. It's personal choice. I am just keeping my perspective.
I know that what's constant in our life is change. But when I say that I would prefer waking up, going to bed without anyone having to wish me. I would prefer spending my lonely time watching some web series or horror movies than to talk with someone. I would prefer watching the rain listening to my playlist than sharing the moment with someone. I would prefer not showing my caring and vulnerable side to anyone. I would prefer not being made feel special anyday by anyone,
It's scary how people can change in a night. They can literally make you wonder if they were the same person. It's scary how we get attached to people and make them one of our priorities while the other one can remove us from their life easily.
Am I the only one who is scared to let this change happen?
I remember the pain I felt, the struggle I had to get through a day to the next which slowly made me emotionally numb. I no longer felt the human emotions because I was scared. I was afraid that I would fall sick. There was no hope on future, no thoughts about my career or exam. It was no longer a concern because getting through a day itself was a big challenge for me.
Fast forward I am thankful that I took the help I needed. I took the initiative to heal myself. I am thankful that I am feeling a lot better than yesterday. I am thankful that I exist today. I am thankful to the people who extended their hand to lift me when I was at my lowest.
Let's spread the word "Not to give up" on this occasion.
Is there an answer in those blank pages answer to my anxious soul who slurped umpteen miseries concocted by her only camaraderie and few others who played their parts in different scenes of the same act Undoubtedly, the tragedy was a hit And the hamartia was mine
No I'm not the one for you, Nor you are for me, I can never be happy with you, Bcuz all I do is bleed.
Carrying a heavy heart, Watching my emotions depart, Here I lie in the acatalepsy, That is slowly becoming my idiosyncrasy.
I hope this doesn't hurt you, Bcuz I never loved you, All we had was an illusion, Nothing more than confusion, Driven by impulse, never by passion.
I know you will find your lucky stars, And I wish you a new start, I don't think it will be easy, But let's stop being so klutzy.
I shall close my eyes as I effervesce my duende, I hope you don't think I'm smiling, Bcuz this is the sound of me dying.x
Vocabulary: 1.acatalepsy: incomprehensibility of things; the belief that nothing is certain, only probabilistic 2.idiosyncrasy: way of thinking that is characteristic of a person; peculiarity 3.klutzy: socially inept 4.duende: mystical charm of one's art 5. anagapesis: falling out of love for something or someone