There's a transparent ocean in your eyes. So many things left unsaid tossed in the waves as I steal glances, always afraid of touching what lies in the dark, dangerous and foreboding.
My anxiety sits in a corner. It reminds me that there's a good reason to be wary because I am the only one who ends up getting hurt when it comes to you.
I have never known the address of your heart, even though it shares the same street as mine. Your house is not in the same realm of existence and I cannot visit or walk through the garden because it is always closed to me. Full of poisonous plants and predatory creatures who would hunt me for sport, the prey creature that I have become.
It seems that I have forgotten I used to be a lion. When did I discard my claws and fangs? Where did I misplace the roar that would make the bravest hunter shake in his dungarees, running for sanctuary?
My anxiety sits in the corner of my dystopian heart. I am snow and dirt glistening morosely on mud and straw. I'd like to break a wall or two, this glass beauty that separates us and see if I spurt blood that puts to shame this fiery sun and come back anew in water and dirt like earth. Help me breathe!
There's a transparent ocean inside your eyes and a poet can, but only pen lyrical ballads in your favour that puts the envious Gods to unadulterated rage. But I am no poet and I see corpses your ocean eye houses. Sepulchres, fawning eyes never see, and I wonder, I wonder if this mortal agony will last till the peals of the final trumps.
I have never known the address of Happy Endings because Love held me hostage once. I know I paid a Kingdom's ransom, most times in salty tears and so you will find me on tiptoes now, waltzing to Hozier on a fine Sunday evening by the seaside alone and you can watch me collapse, collapse into infinite nothings.
PS: ah, eccentricity #start#podben#benecc @/writersnetwork : You made my day with your comment thank youuuuu. I adore you ♥️ Thank you for the lovely repost too. @miraquill this actually feels surreal. Never thought I'll get another pod. Thank you!
Edit: inspired by an interview I read about the moon. Thank you all. I don't even know if I deserve this ♥️