insatiatesoul

Part of my soul goes into each quote i write✍️ Eleutheromaniac

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  • insatiatesoul 31w

    After a long time ..........

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    It is said that time heals the wounds of the past . Apology, exoneration and acceptance does lighten the scars ..
    But I do not agree .
    The wounds remain in times
    the mind protecting its sanity,covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens .
    But it is never gone...
    The Scars remains like a permanent tattoos with painful stories on your body forever ....
    And ever .....


    © pinky

  • insatiatesoul 46w

    I made a new friend : A story of Depression and Anxiety.

    I didn't want to meet her .I wanted to pretend she wasn't there, but deep down she was ...she was always with me , everywhere I went .She was slightly darker ,but almost just like me ..but maybe that 's because she has been a part of me for so long .
    Now. .she is my best friend and like my soulmate --------"DEPRESSION"

    My new friend and I have a mutual friend : Anxiety. Anxiety and I have been friends since I was in my adolescent stage .I get nervous about everything , sometimes I literally don't know why I 'm anxious, I just am and no -one seems to understand that...
    Anxiety blocks out the good parts of me and I screams and yells so no-one can hear me ..,but sometimes,I used to hate her ,but now I 've grown used to her and accepted her presence in my life .She makes my life miserable and traumatic.
    I wish she 'd give me a break ..but instead she decided to bring another person into my messed up life -"Depression "
    DEPRESSION is a tricky friend - completely invisible.I could almost forget she was there ,if it weren't for her hands resting on my shoulder,reminding me she 's still there.
    The first time I realised her presence in my life ....
    1. When my mom had a brain stroke(29/02/2012) resulting in her numbness ...her left portion of the body was totally paralysed..but fortunately due to god's grace and my heartfelt wishes ...within 3_4 months she had recovered from this fatal disease ...but again on 4 rd June 2014 she had a second attack leading her to the same problem which she had encountered earlier ..
    I used to be very quiet girl from the very beginning itself .I didn't like to talk much to anyone....I just loved being in myself ..but somewhere this incident broke me ..and I started living alone and adopted "anti socialist policy " ..
    I was pursuing my graduation and living in the hostel ...but just physically ...mentally I was at my home only near my mom ...
    As per the doctors recommendation ...." There are lesser chances of recovery after you get a second attack of paralysis " ...so today also she is still in the same condition ( bedridden) with some minor improvements.
    2. Sudden and unexpected demise of my grandfather also took me in depression ...since I was very close to him ...he was like my godfather ..These all incidents consequently reminds me of her presence in my life .She clings to my leg ,and I drag her along with every step I take ..
    Those days I can't smile or laugh or love ..I barely talk with anyone.. enjoying my own company and living in solitude.
    During the nights, and the moments I 'm alone , pondering over my graveyard of untold miseries, sufferings and secrets ,she often gets the best of me .She crawls into my lap ,flings her arms around my neck and rests her head on my shoulder, trapping me ..She brought some new friends along with her -anger ,loneliness and seclusion. I think she enjoys my anger because it makes me more like her.I couldn't ignore her ,any longer. I had to accept her ,no matter how mad or embarrassed or broken ..accepting her presence made me feel. I think anger, depression, Anxiety and loneliness will follow me till eternity ., waiting for the chance to latch back on .
    There is a gut wrenching loneliness and near constant anxiety and then there is the checking out the feelings nothing at all...the numbness .. sometimes I don't know which is worse ,but I will try to explain both ..
    The worst part is --no matter what I have been through in the past ,or what my depression,tries to make me believe.I know I am loved by everyone and I know that because of the hard work I have done to get to that place in my life ...and still doing ,and because of some of the amazing people in my life who make sure that I know that they are there for me everytime...I fake emotions,happiness and normal feelings around friends and my family ,not always very well but when I am depressed ...I just don't care about anything.
    1. Because depression is a disease and I will always have it ..
    2. Because my depression is a part of who I am .
    3. Because I am the author of my own life and I choose to put a commas ,semicolons instead of a full stop at every point that my depression tells me otherwise..

    This is my first and may be the last lengthiest post I ' ve ever written .I use to write mainly ..one liner,short poems,short story or shayaris etc ... because of my hectic schedule..
    Research related hiatus keeps me away from writing long posts.#pardon me for not writing long writeups # Jo bhi likhte h ,jhel liya karo aap log pls ��
    Will be partially active on mirakee ...Bye
    #pod

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    "Because depression is a disease and I will always have it .
    Because my depression is a part of who I am .
    Because I am the author of my own life and I choose to put a commans, semicolons instead of full stop at every point that my depression tells me otherwise"




    ©pinky

  • insatiatesoul 49w

    Seduction isn't making someone
    do what they are reluctant to do .
    It's enticing someone into
    what they secretly desire to do already .
    Before you seduce her body
    Liberate her mind from the labyrinth of thoughts entangled,
    Ensnare her heart
    And. ..
    Capture and caress her soul..





    ©pinky

  • insatiatesoul 53w

    Finally I am back ����

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    My lungs inhaled your
    unrequited love, perfidy,
    ignorance and fake promises
    and I exhaled adoration,
    implicit faith ,benign,
    lifelong commitment
    and fidelity
    for you ....
    Then why am i inhaling broken
    pieces of love from my heart ,
    When I exhaled redolence
    of love for you .?
    I 've lost the battle with
    my own respiratory system..
    due to inhalation of toxic substances,
    And you won .....
    ©pinky

  • insatiatesoul 56w

    Typical love shayari ����#love#life

    Taking a break from mirakee by deactivating my account .
    Till then TC my dear lovely friends ����
    Bye....
    Will be back soon :-)

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    अनगिनत राज़ दिल में दफनाए बैठे है ,
    कई जख्म दिल में दबाएं बैठे है ,
    कुछ अधूरे ख्वाब तुझसे बताए बैठे है ,
    हर अश्क आंखों में बसाए बैठे है ,
    तेरी यादों को सीने से लगाए बैठे है
    तुझसे मिलने की आस दिल में जगाए बैठे है ,
    मेरी दिल की जुबां को समझ लो तुम भी
    हम भी मोहब्बत दिल में छुपाए बैठे है ।।।।



    ©pinky

  • insatiatesoul 56w

    @writersnetwork @writersbay @mirakee#mirakee
    @my_cup_of_poetry .....this one is inspired by one of your post ....but this couldn't meet the beauty of that masterpiece ....♥️just a lame try ...��sorry I ruined ur creative piece of work ....

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    Some inspiring stories

    Once ,all villagers decided to pray for rain .On the day of prayer all people gathered but only one boy came with umbrella .
    ---That 's Faith

    When you toss a one year old baby boy in the air ,he laughs because he knows his mother will catch him .
    ---That 's Trust

    Every night we go to bed ,we have no assurance to wake up alive in the morning,but still we set alarm for tomorrow.
    --- That's Hope

    A mother who wakes up at 5 a.m in the morning to do all the endless, repetitive household chores.She does all the boring task just for her family 's happiness,with a smile on her face . House wife is not just a word ,it's an emotion , -literally it means "queen of the house "-an unpaid job with no rest and appreciation .
    --- That 's Monotony

    From being a classmate to soulmate , fighting against all the odds for their unification and to live till eternity .
    ----That's True love

    An 18 -year old girl , suffering from systematic sclerosis,a type of rare disease,having a optimistic approach towards her life and wishes to become a doctor ,to find out the cure of this fatal, incurable and rare disease,someday .
    ---That ' s Dream

    A white -haired old man ,in his octogenarian,with weak eyesight,half deaf,sacrificed all his comforts and spend his whole pension to educate his granddaughter and at the beginning of the month left just with a 100 Rs note in his pocket for survival .
    ----That's Sacrifice

    In continuation to the above one ,.....
    The grandfather 's only dream was to see his granddaughter stand on her legs,someday ,
    And one day ,when she got the job and returned home to tell this good news to her "god father "


    Alas !!!!!!
    He was no more and his last rites were to be performed..
    His untimely and unexpected death left a permanent scars on her fulfilled dreams ..
    ----That's life time regret




    ©pinky

  • insatiatesoul 56w

    "Learning is like rowing upstream: not to advance is to drop back "--- Chinese proverb

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    Education is like a wollen thread with which we connect to the knitting needle of knowledge, as a result ,a sweater of sapience is knitted .



    ©pinky

  • insatiatesoul 57w

    For it was not into my ear you whispered the three magical words ..
    But into my lonesome heart .
    It was not my rosy lips you kissed but my flawless soul .
    When you touched my heart
    You made poetry out of my tears
    and turned my sadness into art...




    ©pinky

  • insatiatesoul 57w

    #bb_er #Midnighttrant #love#lame#try
    Pls. Don't judge ��(first attempt)

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    Your erotic voice on call
    Amplified my desire...
    Aroused and electrified my whole body all to make
    Love tonight !
    And your filthy, immodest and obscene messages activated my estrogen and progesterone hormones
    Babe ....
    Suck all the nector dew drops overall
    Fill your thirst which you wished on call
    Come closer ,until I no longer
    Know where I end and
    You begin ...


    ©pinky

  • insatiatesoul 57w

    Red is such an riveting colour to correlate with myriad of emotions because it's on both ends of the spectrum.On the one end you have happiness, jubilation, infatuation with someone,love ,passion,carnal and all that .On the other hand ,you 've got fear,threat, obsession, exasperation, irksome,panic and covetousness...




    ©pinky