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  • iamnitishthakur 137w

    Old longings

    Part-2(Just a piece from the same)

    Do i really possess something. I doubt if i too have been dreaming for this applause,for this kind of performance or audience,since childhood.!? Is this the same I still want.? Or have i changed through the years. Maybe,i had something to show the world and i have lose that by the course of time.
    But,after exploring all my feelings, sadness and happiness for other people,for their life would have changed after they performed well before some lovely audience and good judges. They got the name,fame,awards,and all what they deserved.!
    Do i too deserve something.!?
    Or am i useless.? As my father used to tell me in childhood,at times.
    But,yet my mother believed at me at that time too.! Don't know for what.?
    I think,she had found something in me.
    After so many attempts of mine to ask her what was that,she only wanted me to get a decent life,a job and settle down,I know.
    Nobody ever expected more than that,
    But i recall i was a bright child someday,so wasn't i worrhy of going a little more far than that.?
    Is it sufficient and okay to shrink our lives around a small circle and die being called the people,citizen or population of a country or Planet.?
    I want to go far, though i don't know where and how far.!
    ©iamnitishthakur

  • iamnitishthakur 137w

    #ntwriteups
    Just some restlessness of the mind.!

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    Old longings

    Hey,you..
    Anyone who's reading this stuff.!

    I am nitish,and thus is about 3 AM. I,at this time become pointless,aimless and down at times. I was just watching Different Talented Amazing people on YouTube and the internet who belong to over seas,and they're performing different arts coming from around the whole world.
    When i watch those videos,read the blogs..i feel very different..I become so happy for them. I am happy that they possess that surreal talents,arts and get a chance to perform before a great audience. Though,at the same time I doubt if i too posses something. Do i really possess something. I doubt if i too have been dreaming for this applause,for this kind of performance or audience,since childhood.!? Is this the same I still want.? Or have i changed through the years. Maybe,i had something to show the world and i have lose that by the course of time.
    But,after exploring all my feelings, sadness and happiness for other people,for their life would have changed after they performed well before some lovely audience and good judges. They got the name,fame,awards,and all what they deserved.!
    Do i too deserve something.!?
    Or am i useless.? As my father used to tell me in childhood,at times.
    But,yet my mother believed at me at that time too.! Don't know for what.?
    I think,she had found something in me.
    After so many attempts of mine to ask her what was that,she only wanted me to get a decent life,a job and settle down,I know.
    Nobody ever expected more than that,
    But i recall i was a bright child someday,so wasn't i worrhy of going a little more far than that.?
    Is it sufficient and okay to shrink our lives around a small circle and die being called the people,citizen or population of a country or Planet.?
    I wamt to go far, though i don't know where and how far.!
    I want to achieve something big,
    Like those people get when they get there on a big stage.!
    I want to perform something,
    Like sing,play some instrument,do some magic,or show some art/talent that would be hidden under me.!
    I feel that stage has made for me too,
    There must be some low quality art/talent which could go there to give it a try.!
    And,if i don't have that or do lack that i need to find that.!
    I want to become famous,like some of my friends became when they got published in the local newspapers when they had topped their board exams for they had studied seriously and some of them were night-owls.
    I want to make my parents famous,for they're poor and they're suffering too much.
    They have already suffered enough,and this would be no less than a failure if i take them down.!
    There's no reason or excuse that i am ought to make if i can't achieve something in life.!
    I have losed enough in life,i don't wanna lose anything anymore now.!
    I mean,I don't wanna lose them.!
    Not before they see my struggle getting a valid point,where i could turn my life .!
    I want to find,that thing which would take me away,so far away..I want to struggle some more for that.!
    I just watched "Britain got Talent" and "America Got Talent" and I am pointless at this time.
    This diary is dedicated to my passion,art,love,and my lost vision and lost goals.
    In search of a life.!
    May god guide me towards the right path.!

    -Nitish
    ©iamnitishthakur

  • iamnitishthakur 137w

    #ntwriteups
    When you're bored of your surroundings,
    Come out and start an adventure.!
    If you're living in an toxic surrounding..
    Devote yourself in the lap of nature.!
    Visit, "doon(dehradun)" .!
    This was written while writing a blog about deharadoon for a friend's website.!
    I would declare the name of the website soon too.!
    Till then, enjoy the piece.!

    Hope you feel the pleasure and love of nature..while you read it.!
    Hope it will inspire you to travel and discover new places to visit with a new, positive and bright vision.!

    Thanks for reading,stay happy.!

    ��

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    भृमण.!

    (Title:-"भृमण को उमड़ता ह्रदय")
    सदा टिका है दृढ़ खड़ा हिमालय,
    चलो उन पाषाणों से टकड़ा कर आएँ.!
    मंझ-धार लिए,सँसार लिए..
    विभिन्न काल के संस्कार लिए,
    नदियों से मिलकर आएँ.!

    कुछ वेदनाएँ,
    बहुतेरे दुःख, दुविधाओं औऱ निराशाओं को
    प्रकृति के गोद में खोकर आएँ ।
    विस्तृत औऱ विशाल दृश्य का
    हिस्सा बनकर आएँ.!
    कलयुग में भी
    शुद्ध हवा,शुद्ध पानी के संचित
    भण्डारों से मिलवाएं ।

    सुंदर है प्रकृति,सुंदर हर कृति
    प्रकृति के तुम हिस्सा हो,
    हैं त्रुटि अनेक,पर विशेषताएं भी हैं.!
    हैं दुख अनेक,पर सम्भावनाएं भी हैं.!
    तू मिल महा विशाल सभ्यताओं से,
    अतीत के अमिट छाप और धरोहरों से,
    अचंभित रह जायेगा तू,तू इसी का तो हिस्सा है.!
    अरे,मनुष्य में ही देवता है.!
    सवर्ण अनुभवों के साथ आएगा तू,
    यादों की पिटारी लाएगा तू.!
    विस्तृत पटल पर ख़ुद को तारों सा
    ज़रा हुआ पाएगा तू,
    ऐ निरे मनुष्य जब अपने
    अस्तित्व के महत्त्व से
    ख़ुद मिलकर लौट आएगा तू.!
    फ़िर मोह-माया के दर्शन से
    ख़ूब वाकई तू हो जाएगा,
    एक ढाँचे औऱ मशीनी शरीर को जब,
    "मनुष्य" तू बनाएगा.!
    ©iamnitishthakur

  • iamnitishthakur 137w

    #आशाएँ #ntwriteups

    किसी से मोहब्बत करना चाहते हैं,तो पहले खुद से मोहब्बत करें।
    खुद को खुश रखें.!
    अपनी खुशियों के वज़ह को ढूंढे.!
    वज़ह कुछ भी हो सकती है.!
    वज़ह निर्भर करती है,
    आपकी औरों से भिन्न हो सकती है.!

    वज़ह न सही,तो उम्मीदों के पल बाँधे.!
    सदा सकारात्मक रहें.!
    अपनी खुशियों को हर परिस्थिति में जागृत रखें.!
    एक शारीरिक और मानसिक रूप से स्वस्थ और खुश व्यक्ति ही
    किसी और कि खुशियों एवं बदलाव का साधन हो सकता है.!

    P.s.- This is one my random write-ups. I don't know if it's poem or not. Suggestions and positive criticism are welcome.! Thank you for reading.,repost it if you like it.!��
    Love.��

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    आशाएँ.!

    भौंरो सी प्रवृत्ति हममें,
    हैं स्वछंद इच्छाएं समाए ।
    फिर क्यों आख़िर हमने ही,
    अपने बेड़ियाँ बनाए ।

    सदा हरित है मन मेरा,
    दिल में उड़ने की अभिलाषाएं
    दृढ़ निश्चय कर लें हम अगर
    तो 'उर' से पत्थर भी पिघलाएं ।

    है वसंत नया,ये उमंग नया..
    नव पल्लव हैं कलशाये,
    हैं पर्ण नए,हैं पुष्प नए..
    फिर क्यों हम पनप कर कुचले जाएं.!

    आशाओं और तृष्णा से हमने
    सुख-चैन भंग कर के रक्खा है,
    ख़ुद को गूँथकर उलझनों में,
    फ़िर हम क्यों चीखें-चिल्लाएँ.!
    ©iamnitishthakur

  • iamnitishthakur 137w

    #2
    Do check the previous love note too..i hope you'll like it.!
    #ntlovenotes

    Thank you.!
    Repost if you like it.!��

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    Drafts in my closet

    Sometimes,my darling preeti..
    You'll never get to know..
    It's always a bit hard for me to tell you..
    That how-how exactly do i love you..
    And today you had asked what did i see in you.!
    I don't really know..
    And maybe, that's because the answer to the question would again be multiple poetry which you'll never give a read..!

    How do i explain you everything..
    How my friends envy because of you..
    How they judge us all,
    Because of the stereotype lewd mentality.
    I am not supposed to tell you all,
    No,i would never tell you..
    How the society defines us all.!

    How they judge us,
    Our behaviour, dressing, walking,
    Intellect and beauty.!
    I don't know what parameters are decided..
    And who does decide.!

    And,yeah..
    I am mysterious at times.!
    But,i am simple and pure at heart..
    Everyone who i have loved,
    Today or tomorrow..got to know.!
    I don't know if you know it,
    But how could i tell my ways..
    That how I had decided to draw a portrait today,
    And though i failed at my decision but I have bought A drawingbook,A pencil..like a kid.!
    Like,i have always been bying this since years, and since my childhood.!
    Like a kid,i went to the shopkeeper..
    And asked many times for it..
    When one had neglected me,
    I went to the another..!
    From shop to shop until i find it.
    This has always been my way.!

    And you know what,
    Afterall,if you ever read this piece..
    I want you to tell one last clause..
    I personally believe that a knowledge is incomplete without a physical human teacher .!
    It's just my assumption..
    I don't know if i am right..
    Or how i was wrong..!
    But,i unfortunately..
    Never got one.!

    Though,now..
    This isn't irony..
    I feel a power in you..
    If you sit by the side of me..
    I guess,i can work well on my skills.!
    Thank you,
    Dear reader..
    Or my sweetheart..!
    You always stay happy.!
    Yours always,
    Nitish
    ©iamnitishthakur

  • iamnitishthakur 137w

    A love note to my love.!

    More to come in the following hashtag:-
    "#ntlovenotes "

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    A love note

    Though,
    Intentionally or unintentionally
    Nowadays
    I always get hurted,
    Only by myself..
    I keep hanging on memories
    And moments that i get less..

    Maybe cause i've left the job,
    And deployed me in the same life again..
    With lots of time and no burning desire..no goals,hectic life.
    But,i have started missing you more..
    Didn't know baby,i swear..
    When the love got mixed into a habit..
    None of them'..ever become less..
    Now, it's been hard for me..
    To keep alluring me..
    Waiting for you..
    Staring at the clock,
    Waiting you to come home,
    Letting you finish you work..
    I don't know how everything is becoming much more mine..
    Every little things about you,
    Every tiny part of you.!


    Half i was fallen,now
    Full i am falling in you..!

    Preeti,maybe you'll never get to know..
    How bad i am falling in love with you..!
    The more i get closer to you,
    Much more does destiny seem to take away from me..!
    That fear is terrifying things badly..
    That fear is terrifying me too much.!
    I've never yet lost someone so badly,
    As i get frightened at illusions giving me shocking nightmares about you.!
    ©iamnitishthakur

  • iamnitishthakur 146w

    Two genres.!☺️

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    Love&lust

    I am lost somewhere between love,
    And you're engaged in some lust.

    There can't be a place for us.!
    ©iamnitishthakur

  • iamnitishthakur 147w

    Strings to the loved ones. To those who know who i am,and to those who don't.!

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    Who am I.!?

    And,I am that same loyal dog.. Street dog..who seeks love everywhere..or say it's just greedy..that he's hungry of the love he never got..and it never gets fulfilled.!
    I become owned to anyone easily.. People enjoy my acts,my loyality..laugh at me..and pass by..!
    ©iamnitishthakur

  • iamnitishthakur 149w

    P.s.- The texts you're gonn read is a piece of shit,read on your own risk.!��

    Shits of man and pees of goats,
    I am sitting in the orchards of mangoes,
    Far from the reach of humans.
    Only a few children are playing around,
    Like i used to live in my childhood.
    I am smoking a cig,
    Which lasts for just 2-4 minutes,
    Making me high for less that that even.
    Headphones over my years,
    Led Zeppelin singing his best songs,
    Some about love,and some about the livelihood.

    It's a bliss for me to improvise in this place.
    I don't know where i am going,
    Or where i'll be.
    I've lost millions of happiness,
    And i've lived piles of sorrow.
    The future is nothing,
    But a set of days.
    What are they anyway,
    Just the days to live in your way.

    I've eaten my future,
    And will eat the rest that is remaining.
    I wish to create some fusion,
    Of achievements in diverse arts.

    It's just a dream to travel over my continent,
    To get out of the anarchy and my crap society.
    I hope,i'll survive and save my family
    They're just victim and don't deserve the sufferings, they're livung by years.

    I hate the cities, though i love which are selfish and far.!
    I am into the ashes,but wish they formed shapes.

    May they save my dreams and wishes,
    May they take me down to the trails,
    I am wishing to go on.

    Let me lose some visions as well,
    Let me be the blind for the truth is too hard to see.!
    May you show the false,
    And the negatives of my beautiful motherland.
    I am ready for the disasters,
    I am ready and capable enough to see the crowns stumble,
    And get destroyed in the sands.

    I've been a history and the spectator of the wars.
    I've been the happiness of risings of kingdoms,
    And i've seen them demolishing.
    Let my lord cover the dark stories,
    And let my darkness come in my way.!
    I'll crush the hatred and egoes.
    And will tuen them into smogs.
    You'll again lose the truth,
    And will scream in the darkness and the mist.
    It's always hard to get out of the hell,
    And it'll always be.
    Don't worry,you get the power unexpectedly surprisingly in the hard times.
    May you get the strength to pass through the mazes and the thorny trails.
    May i be capable enough to see the end of the world,
    And seeing the shore of my beautiful land.
    At the end,at least i'll be able to watch my evils and the lovely failings.
    It's always beautiful to complete the journey,
    And let's see how easy it's to get over by the past.!
    May i die in the journey,may i spectate others bring the change,
    That i've failed to make.!
    And accomplish creating a beautiful world,to settle in a family
    Of the peace that's always needed.

    These thoughts are just random craps,
    Running in my mind.!
    Don't care for what's gone,
    Don't care for what may come.!
    Move,move move without worrying that your death may be crouching towards the other nook you're preparing to stop by.!
    May i rise in a era of love,may i vanish at times in the grunts.
    #musings #mirakee #mirakeeworld #mirakeewriter #vagabond #tale #improvision #riseandfall #goodtimesbadtimes #random #mirakeeassistant @mirakeeworld @mirakee @mirakeeassistant @mirakeewriter @mirakeewriters_ @lovenotes_from_carolyn

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    Life of a Vagabond

    It's a bliss for me to improvise in this place.
    I don't know where i am going,
    Or where i'll be.
    I've lost millions of happiness,
    And i've lived piles of sorrow.
    The future is nothing,
    But a set of days.
    What are they anyway,
    Just the days to live in your way.
    (Whole piece of shit in caption)
    ©iamnitishthakur

  • iamnitishthakur 150w

    यूँ ही बैठे-बैठे.!
    शुप्रभात.!
    Good morning.!

    #writings #writeups #motive #intention #readers #followers #need #want #diary #life #mydiary #repost #love #life

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    मेरे लेखन

    शोहरत की चाह किसे है,
    मैं तो अमन चैन को लिखता हूँ ।

    कोलाहल भरी दुनिया में,
    यूँ ही कभी मानसिक चैन का रस लेता हूँ.!
    ©iamnitishthakur