Falling for someone is so beautiful until you know that falling can hurt you too..... You would lose a loved one and it would hurt like a cold blizzard across the face. Time would fly by in a jiffy but that pain of losing closed one is always with you. If we talk with someone our feeling get attach with them and after that it's hard to forget all the memories we created together.
It's not like that you'll always get hurt in love. On the other days, you would meet someone that reminds you of songs and butterflies. It brings you happiness. From there a new journey of your life begins. You have someone who understands you, who understands all your mood swings, who is with you no matter what, you don't need to worry about others because you have someone who stand by you even through the worst of times . You became completely a new person that one person will change your life completely.
For me loving someone is so hard because people have a habit of leaving and I have a habit of holding onto things as tightly as I can. Yeah I admit it I afraid of falling for someone literally I do. I have a bad habit of Overthinking, I overreact sometimes and I can't fully trust anyone.
I leave, before people could leave me because leaving hurts more than losing. I can't love properly. So I've stopped trying because everytime I try, I fail and I end up hating myself even more. I can't explain. So I've stopped explaining myself because every time I try, the things become more intricate than before and I spend many of my nights thinking about them. I get attached too easily. So I've stop letting people to come closer because it hurts like hell when they leave without any reason. I chose to be obscured. So that no one can understand me because everyone judges you no matter what you are going through they don't even care.
And darling if you are still thinking that you know me so lemme correct you, "YOU DON'T...... " You don't even know a bit about me.