Hey dolls! I'm home! I hope you not mad at me for my disappearance act without any note. I'm truly sorry! But do understand that August was my weakest and venerable moment. My health really hit rock bottom and my only focus was getting myself better for as I was determined to stand on my feet again and I know in that process I gave up my passion to write again and lord knows i was so wrong. No sooner or later I had my finals were getting closer since then I gave my full attention to complete my education. I'm so honored & grateful for all your understanding & support me while I was away. My deepest apologies if didn't reply to your comments and messages. <3
P. S. And for those you commented on my link anonymously I hope you know it's a one way communication and thank you for those sweet messages. Thank you so much for sticking by my side like always. I can't thank you guys enough.❤
P. P. S I hope everyone is going great!? How're y'all? Please lend me some time to read your tags.
Oh! And lastly,
Don't forget to be kind to yourself and others. <3
By Yours Truly,
1) rantipole- wild and reckless. 2) reminiscences- memories. 3) razbliuto- someone you once loved but no longer do. 4) eternal sleep- euphemisms for death.
My friend, My little sister, My constant supporter, what do i even call you as, you play so many roles in my life. If I've learnt one thing from you then, how to laugh at problems. You may not have solutions to my problems but you sure do know how to make me smile. Our little conversations, you're favourite nail paints to "do minute meh Maggie jokes" you always know to balance friendship and relationships making time with everyone you love. I hope you make some time to yourself to breath and relax. You have a beautiful life ahead of you and don't make anyone dim your sparkle. You shine like the radiant sun, spreading smiles and joys all the way. Don't you ever let the strom crush you down. YOU'RE A WARRIOR!! Never forget that! YOU CAN DO ANYTHING!
I'm always here for you no matter what; I'm just one call & text away. I love you so much my little munchkin!! I've written a small poem for you. I know Words alone are not enough to express how happy I am you are celebrating another year of your life! My wish for you on your birthday is that you are, and will always be, happy and healthy. Don’t ever change! Happy birthday gauru!! ❤ @crying_skiies
Haunted like the ghost of my past, Broken down by the tales of the castle, My mind is submerged under the sea of blood,
A wooden board that spelled 26 alphabets, With numbers & yes or no at the both top corners, It's inception of joyous game turned into a bad omen,
A lump in my throat as i pivot around, The Glass on the ground starts to spin quickly, And that's how I knew i'm not alone anymore, The walls were never thick enough to hide me,
Unspared by her mercy for every time i tell my secret; someone's waking up dead, Shook hands with the satan for a forbidden daylight, All i know is i revolted with a cursed life,
Human souvenirs was one of her favourite collections, She hunted down souls like a hangry wild boar, Forger smiled & malignant triumph in her expression,
I don't see the shadows walk beside me anymore, As i glance the curtains held still and the door stopped creaking, I breathed a loud sigh of relief assuming she had left me alone, At last i go to bed before the dawn arises,
I open my eyes to hear a stranger calling out my name, They're filling my bed with my favourite things, I scream my lungs out Only to realise that, My body lays in casket like a corpse holding a daisy against it's chest.
Y'all ever played the ouija board? In my experience let me tell you that it didn't go as planned. Specially if you're playing near a cemetery.
~~ Fun facts behind the scenes ~~
1. While writing down this poem, the empty glass did spin quickly idk how but I'm trying to convince myself that it's because the fan was rotating at a high speed. 2. The door does make a werid sound when someone trys to open it maybe since its made of wood 15 years ago. 3. If you're asking me if i played the game then yes, i did played the game with my school friends. It was definitely not a great experience, and I wouldn't want to do it again, those memories still haunt me till today. 4. If you're interested in playing the game and your asking me for the details then I'd very much like to be EXCLUDED from this narrative. (please don't ask me)
P.S you're not the only one who's sleepless after reading this ( i am too! ) *_*
I hope I'm not the last person to submit this challenge!? My deepest apologies!!
My special thanks to @crying_skiies for insisting me to post this piece!❤
Hey! Hope everyone is doing well. I know the world is getting scarer and crazier. But let's not forget to be human. You never know who's screaming for a silent help. Call your love ones and check up on the people that matter to you! Lots of love.♡ Peace. :)
Their could be places or people that makes you stay. You don't have to stay where you're not valued or respected. you can't change the way they feel about you.. all the time.. letting go is difficult but sometimes you just have to leave when it's about your self respect. Know your worth. Cause You Deserve The Best.
Sometimes in life, you gotta learn it the hard way. The lessons will keep repeating until you learn them. Hold on to it if makes you happier. And once it doesn't just let it go. Let it all go. And watch what stays. Trust me it only gets better from here.
P.s I don't know what I'm writing these days. I'm losing my senses. But Thanks for sticking around always! ♡
Yes. Mom. Yes dad. I am on my phone 24*7 , I lay in bed from dusk till dawn, I am not " lazy " or " useless ". I am fuckin depressed. I hate being surrounded by people. I hate when a random aunty comes and tells me that I'm too young for these dark circles. I'm too young to lock myself in my room all day. Every day. Ohh. I am too young to be in pain?
Yes mom. Yes dad. My grades are falling. Instead of calling me a disappointment, can you at least FOR ONCE ask " why ?" Or " Are you okay ? ". Oh look mom, your brightest daughter is now surrounded by darkest of demons.
Yes mom. Yes dad. There's a reason why I hate that uncle. Why I keep cursing him. Did you ever even try to read my eyes? Everytime you invite him for dinner with his dear family, there's a reason why I don't like greeting them. As much as I want to, I just can't even stop hating his daughter. Her smile somehow carries the filth of her father.
Yes mom. Yes dad. I've failed to love. I still am traumatized because of your fights. Dad, I fear loud voices. I am terrified of angry men. They all remind me of you. Your anger. I'm uncomfortable around men of any age, any origin.
Yes mom. Yes dad. My 3 am thoughts make me crumble on my cold bed. Do you know your daughter is dealing with this all alone? Your daughter pushes away anyone who tries to love her. Should I explain why? Would you understand this time? Because I am done with the same question repeated over and over again. " What possibly could a person face at my age? "
Should I tell you, how ruthlessly my body has been treated ? Should I tell you how disturbing your fights were for a 8 year old child. Dad, Should I tell you ? Everytime you yell at my brother and hurt him , I am slowly losing my faith in humanity?
No mom. No dad. I'm not telling you any of this. I cannot end up hurting you, by telling you how badly I've been treated since childhood. Because at the end of the day, I know how much you love me. Dad, I know you'd go and kill him. Mom, I know you would be terrified for life for my two younger sisters.
So mom, and dad. If you cannot help me with any of this, then lemme die in peace. Each day. Every day.