I'll probably not blame myself for what happened to you, because that is something I promised to someone who is kind of what you were and will always be to me.
When you left, you took away everything. Hours feel like days, days feel like months, months feel like years and everything is still the same, just that you're not there to make it any different, cause you were the only one who could. It gets heavy and I've no idea what to do now. How did you make it so easy for me? How did you took away the heaviness that suffocated me? You were always there, holding onto me, never left my side, Even when we had our stupid fights or Even on the nights I pushed you away, You held me like the light in the darkness. I had you, all of you and now, I have just the memories, which we don't make anymore.
You're the reason i know love, You taught me what love is, You taught me how to love, You showed me what its like to love someone without any expectations. You taught me that you don't give up on the people you love.
//I gave up on myself, while you never did.//
How could you be the only one that made everything better, not temporarily but permanently.
//Sometimes I think the universe was jealous of us, and that's why it took you away from me. Because in this temporary world, we were a forever, weren't we?//
You're the reason I look up at the sky and cry a little more, cause somewhere out there, i know you're there too. I try not to look up anymore, But I still do, Cause whenever I look up, I feel like you're looking at me too and in that moment, I feel whole. -gelukzoeker
I can let go of you, I think. But how can I let go of the way your hands fit in mine, You, being the missing piece of my puzzle. How do I forget the sound of your laugh that used to light up my dullest day. How do I make myself understand that I can't look at you the way my heart desires. How do I stop feeling what I feel for you,
//How do i make my heart understand that it can't love you anymore//
That it needs to let you go for it to heal. But it won't, it loves to love you. It loves to be in love with you even when it can't get your heart in return.
~It's fine with being the only one in love~ All I ever wanted was for you to look at me the way I look at you, All my heart ever wanted was to love you forever and a little more than that, All I ever wanted was you to love me the way I did, even if it was a little, It would have been more than enough. A little love was all I asked for.
All my heart wanted was your heart in return of mine. -Gelukzoeker
You can't make someone love you.
And ahahahhahah idk what is this. Just a rant.
@writersnetwork and one more time. all you do is like and run away Surprise me, for once.
@sse7enn I'll start with the very first impression you made- Huh this guy is a smoker and looks like he has no intention to quit.
Yes that was the first thing.
At the very start, we never really talked and then one day, you're gone. You deleted all your posts and then after awhile decided to start again I guess. We just read each other and nothing else.
Now this is something I never told you, the thing that really got me, that made me interact with you more, was the post you wrote about panic attack.
It got me, it got me real bad. I somewhat know how it feels and that was the time I was like you don't deserve this. It's unfair, you go around making everyone laugh but only few do that back. But that's how this started❤️
From Aditi to Adi to DR to DBR, From Dipanshu to Dip to D to DB to BDB to CBDB (Ah😂👀) it was big long ride.
And this is CBDB day today, so how can i just let it be? Happy birthday CBDB❤️ Calling by your name now sounds weird after CBDB😂 Happy birthday to the guy who compares his hotness with the Sun🤦🏻♀️💀
You are one of the sweetest guy I know here, You think you're smart, but lemme tell you, You are dumb more. But it's a good thing. To be dumb and a kid at heart, You're someone who showed me that happiness can be found even in the smallest things. You have a heart of a kid, And the strength of batman.
You're the book That's filled with lame ft funny jokes.
Even in the darkest times, Even when you thought you wouldn't survive You survived. I know at times you feel like you're all alone, that you have no one, that maybe this is the end, just know that it's not. You'll never be alone as long as DBR is with you, and I'm always with you. And by now, I know that you just don't let anyone in, cause that's how the world made you and it is okay.
Remember the day i thanked you? The reason was, when i saw your text, i was crying and that time you made me smile. By those silly stupid jokes that you never stop with. So thank you.
It's okay to be scared. It's okay to feel alone. It's okay to feel what you feel. It's just a matter of time and then everything will be fine, it's fine eventually.
You're such a strong guy CBDB and everyone who knows you, they are all proud of you.
Hotness ka title toh sun le hi chuka hai ab🤷🏻♀️
From, Half cup of tea. ( That's the dumbest name anyone could ever give me, but it's so sweet😂❤️)
~my favourite memory of you~ My favourite memory of you, It's not the regular type, The ones that are common.
it wasn't when i saw you for the very first time that my heart skipped beats, the way it danced and forgot how to breathe for that few moments because You, was all I could see.
It wasn't when we had that first kiss, when we ended up hugging thrice instead of just going for it. It was me who hugged you when you leaned in for the kiss. I know I was stupid.
It wasn't when we hugged for the first, when i was wrapped in your arms for the first time, that the weight the world had put on me, came off. That's when I knew what heaven felt like. It was the moment you held me.
Not the time where i caught you looking at me that you looked away, only to look back again and saw me staring at you too.
Not even the one where you tried to come in my hoodie, at 3 am in the night, which made me ticklish that I ended up laughing. So you kissed me to stop that loud laugh so that my sister sleeping next room doesn't wake up.
Or the time when we checked whose hands are bigger and you got the name of baby elephant for those small hands.
Or the time you finished the icecream just like a little kid.
It wasn't when i realised that your eyes were not just dark brown eyes, they were the deepest dark brown eyes that i don't mind drowning in again.
But It was the time you held my hand while we were walking that day, tho it wasn't the first time. 8th February,2021. I clearly remember that day. You held my hand, our hands were so sweaty and you still didn't let go. You didn't let go, not even for a second.
It's my favourite memory because I felt safe. Something no one ever made me feel. After all these years, i just wanted to feel safe. There were eyes staring, and I wasn't scared. I wasn't scared for the first time.
I felt safe, for the first time and it was with you. With my hands locked in yours, I felt nothing to be scared of and no one can harm me.
That's all I wanted to feel, Safe and that's what you made me feel.
That's how it started. I sat in the corner and i cried. I cried for the girl
~who gave up on trying~
for she was always healing others while
~no one even tried to be there for her~
I cried for the girl,
~who never wanted to grow up this early. the girl~
~who always disappointed people~
no matter how hard she tried. The girl they made feel,
~that being her, wasn't good enough~
and will never be. She gave up on trying without giving up on any one she loved,
~she gave up on herself~
Every time she tried to fix something,
~she made it worse~
They never apologized for hurting but she
~apologized for being hurt about it~
Every time you think someone loves you, they prove you wrong, that they just needed you for awhile, It's like they are travelling and they decide to take a break. That break is you.
//I'm drowing but I've learnt the art of holding my breath//
They say time heals, but the truth is, you get used to it, you get used to the scars people gave you, you get used to being alone until one day it comes back and then next moment you don't know where you are but just like it came, It goes away, //Just like the nightmare you thought you'd never survive, you survive this too//
I don't know what this is, Can be ignored. Take care❤️
In a day i keep my mind busy But every night when im going to sleep You came into my mind slightly You mean so much to me I've never seen as like me You are shed to me who protects me from rain, You are the medicine of me who protects me from each and every pain If i can sing a song I will dedicate to you If i can fly with wings If will show you how rainbow look like you You are the one i always adore you And i dont wanna leave you❤️
Dear stranger, You know lately i was having a conversation with my dad about same old generation gap and i said "you know papa the world has changed now, its too tough here society sucks and you were lucky to grew up in good old days " and after i was done blabbering he said "world has never changed even a bit, its all the same people have changed society is nothing but us at the end of the day, we have became insensitive towards others, we ourselves are responsible for making survival tough, there was no such thing as golden era it was always about golden hearts " He smiled and left the conversation. And today I'm thinking about it over again and again thats yes that's how things are really. People around us, with us they make our world sometimes happier or mostly hell. You know all my life till date I have seen people come and go. Some merely promised to stay and some really did.
You know there could be no divisions in homosapiens for sure but i still think there are two types of people first those who claim to love you and others those who really love you. There's no in between. Family friends relatives partners colleagues cousins omg!! So many people out there are actually taking up space in our lives and we are knowingly unknowingly actually shaped and nurtured in certain way under their influence. But i guess there needs to be a fullstop, an actual realization of who's important, Today look around and see who is still there, still there to hold you in your weakest moments,to cry with you to celebrate with you, to live laugh with you. Look around they are your people and don't be disheartened if you can count those numbers on your tips cause those who left were never meant to stay. They left and it was their choice, they could have stood with you, fought for you but they never did and that's how you should remember them.
We're actually growing up in era of heartbreaks the more sad your pfp, playlist and feeds are the more cool and happening your life is. Happiness and smiles are underrated and its truth. No offence to anyone but its high time we start cherishing what we have, we start caring for the people who cared for us, adore the people. All the times when we said the meanest things, did the rudest things ever, throwed tantrums, cried our heart out, or spilled our secrets,all the times when we revealed our worst demons when we trusted them all those people who really stood with us in all those times are real ones, rare ones. Its high time we appreciate their love. Its high time we stop crying for ones who left, its high time to actually move on. Take love and spread love someone out there is really wishing for your good. Go adore them before they choose to abandon you!!
Zindgi ek safar hai suhana yha kl Kya ho kisne jana ❤ -hopenotes_here ❤ #strangersays