You're no longer here. And as each day passes by, I'm filled with nothing but with regret and guilt. I wish I had asked you to stay with me that day. But instead I told you to go, only if I knew that you'd go forever. I would love one last day with you and I know, I'll be full. One last hug, one last night, to see you smile like that one more time, to hear that laugh last time, just one more time and I would not ask you for more. I would make that extra cheese pasta you always loved, we would sit on the roof, counting stars like we always did, talking about some deep stuff that actually never made sense and then we would wait for the sun to rise again and then I know you'll go. I'll happily let you go. I'm sorry. I know the only person who could have stopped it from happening was me, but little did I knew. If I could give you my life, I would love to. The day that they took you, I wish it was me instead. But as they say, only the beautiful flowers are plucked first, true, isn't it? -Gelukzoeker
I tried but this doesn't really make sense. I'm sorry.
i wanted time to stop right there so I could hold you a little longer, cause the thought of you going away was killing me. i dont know when I'll get to hold you again, when I'll be in your arms again, or when will be the next time I'll find it hard to breathe when I'll look into your eyes. I'll miss you just like the stars miss the moon. I'll miss the way you held me, I'll miss the way our hands fit perfectly together, I'll miss you near me, I'll miss the way you loved me, I'll miss your arms. The way you kept your head on my lap, or the feeling of my hands running over your hair, I'll miss it all. I'll miss my home. But they say, the pain of going away is nothing compared to the happiness of reuniting again, I can't wait to hear your heartbeat again, I can't wait to hold you close and forgetting how to breathe again, I can't wait to be home again. -gelukzoeker
When I say that its you and no one else, I really do mean it. Because I want you, and only you. I can live with anyone but I cant live without you. You are my last hope, and the last person I’d like to love and name myself after. It’s the way you hold me, I feel the safest and it’s the way you love me, that makes everything around me better.
I finally know what heaven feels like, I knew it the moment you held me in your arms❤️
/we are so much stronger then we think we are/ The younger April came and sat beside me, I looked at her and smiled, little girl, she went through so much alone. "i am proud of what you did that day." She said and I looked at her, knowing what she was talking about. "it was for both of us."I pull her to a hug. She was only 8 years old, when a guy tried to do something she was too young to understand, but not too young to feel. She knew what she felt. She felt as if someone just stole all her chocolates,all her dolls, leaving her isolated in the middle of nowhere. Well,she was just 8. She never talked about it to anyone, but ask the stars, They'll tell you that no night went by without hearing her cries. She turned 15 and this time, she was over it, she accepted it and decided not to let it haunt her anymore. She has dreams, and she knew what she wanted. But maybe happiness wasn't in her fate. Something similar happened, more deviously this time but this time, she heard her younger part crying, begging her to raise a voice and that's what she did. She stood up for herself,but more than that, for the 8 year old April, who she saw smiling when the guy was dragged to hell. She knew she was right, she raised a voice and that's where and when she invited opinions of the society. That's what the society does,it talks. And just a span of few months when her own best friend did that, she didnt spoke up. Lil April came and sat beside me,she held my hand and smiled sadly, she said it will be okay.
She knows what happened when I stood up and this time when it happened again, it was the guy she trusted the most, the guy she thought would never do that. She knew what would happen if she spoke up, and of course the society would cage April but not him, and in the end, she was alone, No one and nowhere to go, just in the arms of younger April and the warmth of the night. The stars hugged her again and the moon tried to take the darkness away just like the old times. She'll get better, she'll sew the scars once again. I know you can do it Adi.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------- If the guy is drunk,its the reason he couldn't control himself. If the girl is drunk,its the reason that happened,more like an allegation.
****************************************************** In India, women are taught to be afraid of their own voice, I don't get this, people need to get up from this sick mentality. Day by day,the no. of rape cases are rising, and as said these are only the registered cases. There are so many girls out there, the ones that didn't spoke up because of fear and the society..
So congratulations society, you'll keep winning as always. -Gelukzoeker
||Do skip this|| Maybe you'll never read this, but if you ever do, I am sorry. First of all, Happy Birthday❤️ Of course I remember and I'm not sure if I should wish you or not after what happened, because you told me that I should forget you, that you didn't even existed. How can I? You were the only person I was sure I'll never lose, who will always be here. Well we weren't that close but you were stilll like a best friend to me, even tho i wasnt You were for me. You were there to always light up my day with your stupidness, you were always there, to make me laugh with your dumbness and you were always my shoulder I could rest my head on with that soul. I mean I never told you about myself that much but you still know me, more than I know myself. I know we don't talk anymore but was it really my fault? I was stuck between the two of you and I wanted that both of you should stay and in the end, i even tried talking to you but we both know how it ended. As you say, you cant make a person stay. But I wish I could make you stay. You're one of the best guy I know on mirakee and truth is, I miss you. I miss our 3am conversations, our senseless talks, you getting mad at me for the bios like that, you forcing me to do stuff.. It hurts to think about the memories we made cause we aren't making more of it. What we had,it was beautiful. You were always there for me, always. And I hope I was there for you. On this day, I just wanted to let you know that I haven't forgotten any of it. Its all saved, somewhere and if you ever feel like visiting again, the door will always be opened for you. After everything i didn't want to lose you too, like especially not you. But certain things are not under our control. Now i feel like i wasn't even there, we never happened. Moving ahead, Happy Birthday. I don't know whats happening in your life, but I hope it gets better and you stay happy wherever you are, you deserve to and stop saying you're the bad guy, you never were. You have a permanent place in my heart, Visit it sometime, I'll welcome you with open arms and as you say, I'll always be dumb. -Aditi
****************************************************** I thought I'll never Post it but here we go cause maybe someday he will read this, and that what made this possible, that hope of some day. 13 reasons why ik❤️ I never meant to hurt you. I'm sorry, I'll always be.
Dear love, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the times when i said things or did things that made you feel like you aren't enough. You are. You are my everything and I'm so scared to lose you like I've lost all the other ones. I overthink, i overreact, think too much about everything cause not everyone has cared enough. I never wanted to burden anyone with my problems, actually no one ever tried to figure it out, no one told me to trust them, nobody told me that they will never leave, or meant any of the things they said till now. I'm just scared to lose the only one who has made me feel so enough, who hasn't left yet but there might come a day when you'll meet someone better, who is prettier, has the most beautiful smile, who wouldn't be filled these thoughts, she will never wonder what you doing or if you'll ever leave her, she will never be like me, she'll be perfect. There will be days when i would just need you to say that you'll never leave me, nothing else. I know I'm not perfect, it's hard to love me i know that too, I'll be better i promise. I need time cause right now you're the one thing I'm holding onto. So please stay and catch me before i fall. -Gelukzoeker