"The Br kenhearted S ng"
I must say last night was a hard night, I have to admit my Bi Polarism took flight, I had a heated argument with my partner, my best friend, my future whirlwind of a wife, it seems our past mistakes and wrongdoings to each other cut deeper than we both would ever think and/or we would ever like, to say outright,
It seems the negatives always come quick and back to the light, blame is being threw left to right, no second goes untouch without a hateful or disrespectful word spoken with spite, there's no more cordial, there's no more sympathy for each other's feelings, there's no more pleasantries, there's no common courtesy, or even space through the shouting back and forth to even think about being polite,
Shit, it's not even about loving one another anymore, it's a battle of who's not willing to see eye to eye, or who's not willing to accept the others lies, but both sides have contributed to the relationships demise, no one is innocent, but she has clearly become more colder towards me as I have become more contrite,
I tried to contrive solutions, I try to push for civil conservation's, in hopes it would reignite the love that once moved us, but nothing I do is soothing, Nothing I do today, that used to make you smile before is amusing, or looked at with adoration, you repeatedly show a lack of interest, You say you don't want to talk, and roll your eyes, sighing and shaking your head with such disgusted and imposition,
How did this companionship, this love forever and always motto, dissolve and dissipate into ashes and then dust? How did a dream of eternity and "double depths" meaning, one grave dug for two, turn into a vindictive, emotionless, tic-4-tac, pain inflicting cluster fuck? How did it become a love that seeks to destroy and with such ambivalence?
It's so ridiculous, it's so beneath the things we discussed feel safe and build the trust, now it seems we're nemesis, archenemies, deadly opposition, it's hard to smile when you've lost so much, when you realize all you've sacrificed, worked for, and dreamed of, with that person might forever and always be gone, permanently and inexplicably done, it hurts, it's hurts so much, that you pray to God to first overcome, then the next breath you take, you swear to never again, by no means, reach or accept Love, and that's a Brokenhearted person song….